depression

feelinggood_2

Its nice to be cheerful, but its rather scary! I'd like to come down a little bit to be honest. If I could send you some of this, I really would. Hope you feel better soon xxx
Lack of sleep is a killer, I hardly slept last night - leaves you feel awful doesn't it?
Try not to think about tonight, try and take your mind off it.
PM me if you need me xxx

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

Its nice to be cheerful, but its rather scary! I'd like to come down a little bit to be honest. If I could send you some of this, I really would. Hope you feel better soon xxx
Lack of sleep is a killer, I hardly slept last night - leaves you feel awful doesn't it?
Try not to think about tonight, try and take your mind off it.
PM me if you need me xxx

I don't want to bring you down as you have your own demons to deal with.

Mine is being surrounded by idiots. I can generally keep cheerful but I feel I have been kicked in the guts this weekend.

I am not cooking tonight. I am sick of spending ages cooking for ungrateful morons. It is soup or something on toast. I haven't the heart. I have put on weight this weekend anyway due to comfort eating, so on a diet myself. I don't care about them anymore. I want to leave asap. They don't want to be decent people, I give up. I will reserve judgement till after tonight but I know how it is going to go, no matter how we bring it up. I am dreading a very ugly evening.:(

It is windy outside today but sunny - very strange

Horasio

How are you going to channel your feeling of well being FG?

Either PM me or if you want to chat let me know

feelinggood_2

I'm going to run round like a looney!
Thats what I feel like doing
I want to have a party.
But, I know this isn't a real feeling, so I'm just waiting for it to pass.
Doing some housework when I can focus, and might try to watch telly later.

feelinggood_2

Aww CCStar, just saw you post from before that one there.
Good for you for not cooking. Stand up for yourself. Don't take anything from them.
OH wanted a row today, but I didn't let him have one - he isn't going to ruin my life any more. I will make me happy, I don't need him for that. And I certainly don't want him to make me miserable today.
Try to keep it cool and calm this evening. And if you aren't happy with the situation, take the money back. Or, if you can't take the money back, make sure you don't give him any more and ask for the loan back. If your mother keeps giving him money, tell her directly to stop - write to her (if you phone she might manipulate you) and demand that she not give him any money.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

Aww CCStar, just saw you post from before that one there.
Good for you for not cooking. Stand up for yourself. Don't take anything from them.
OH wanted a row today, but I didn't let him have one - he isn't going to ruin my life any more. I will make me happy, I don't need him for that. And I certainly don't want him to make me miserable today.
Try to keep it cool and calm this evening. And if you aren't happy with the situation, take the money back. Or, if you can't take the money back, make sure you don't give him any more and ask for the loan back. If your mother keeps giving him money, tell her directly to stop - write to her (if you phone she might manipulate you) and demand that she not give him any money.

It is in his name.

It is going to go two ways and I can predict which way it will go but yes I am calm, too calm. I go very quiet when I am upset. I don't go hysterical or anything.

We are insisting we have our loan back, plus I worked out he would pay £431 plus find his petrol if he were to pay his share to live here. That includes everything!

I am doing paperwork and getting my tax certificates sorted out, I was wondering if I should start by asking for his. Our accountant sorts the tax out. He is a non tax payer and should have been telling them that - I bet he hasn't! and I'm borderline but now I have been 'sacked', so I guess I should declare myself one too but I get a lot of annual interest from savings. I usually get a nice lump sum refund. Our son should be getting the same if he is being charged tax.

feelinggood_2

CCStar, any chance you can get on msn?

feelinggood_2

Ahh, you aren't on my list anymore! Can you add me?

geminilady

Miroslav wrote:

Right, now my essay is over (been taking essay lessons from Rose ) I shall call it a night.

One thing I have learnt tonight (and we all learn something new everyday!) is that despite what anyone types, it can be taken in many ways!

I have certainly not pursued 'S' like a maniac, sometimes, it's over a week between contact, I just talk about her alot on here, as I care, so apologies to anyone offended by 'S' being a conversation of mine. I realise I talk about her alot, I guess she means so much to me and I know she's in a bad way, and it upsets me when I cannot do anything for her. Talking about her sometimes helps, when others can help me look at things more positively.

Therefore, there isn't much point in asking advice or ideas re: 'S', as however much I detail the situation, understandably, no-one knows the true situation, and conflicting advice/comments can cause more confusion, over my intentions and/or situation, making me out to be something I am not.

So I shall don my cap, and move along my merry way, and deal with whatever is thrown at me, on my own

If anything happens with 'S', I shall PM those who shall need a new hat for the wedding

:wave:

Good Luck to you all. Hope you all find happiness and/or whatever it is you are looking for

Hi Miro,Please don't let people stop you posting.Nobody who has read all your posts would describe you as manic.You have actualy been very restrained with "S" and as you say you certainly have not persued her in a zealous way.As you know her background i think you have just the right approach,you are showing that you care without bombarding her with texts ect.I am sure i am not alone in wanting to read your posts and like many others are hoping it will turn into the relationship you want.You actualy contradict yourself in your post lol will quote in another colour

Talking about her sometimes helps, when others can help me look at things more positively.

Therefore, there isn't much point in asking advice or ideas re: 'S', as however much I detail the situation, understandably, no-one knows the true situation, and conflicting advice/comments can cause more confusion

you say talking about her sometimes helps and that others can help you look at things more positively so carry on talking! i think its good therapy to write things down and of course it is your choice wether you take peoples advice or not.As you say your the one that knows "S" best and i think you are doing great with someone who from no fault of her own is very hard work

EthelBloggs

phew.. just stopped for a cuppa if anyone's about? I broke the hoover .. well, its one of those henry ones and i've got somat stuck in the pipe and i can't get it out, lol