depression

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Think I might have to ban that head-against-a-brick-wall smiley :D Yeah I reckon that's a word, think a lot of us suffer from scaredness. Myself included. You'll get there. xxx

It's gone eleven, hun :eek: I've really gotta crash soon. You sleep well, and all our friends on here. Sazzy xxx

Oh :wall:

Hope it's a word!

Oh, that reminds me..............I told 'S' off on Monday night. She said something that felt patronising via text, so I text back saying "Don't mean to offend, but can you not patronise me or look down on me"

She text back

"Didn't mean to offend, I don't look down on people, hope u r okay, I was trying to be positive"

That's the last text I got (Tues) so I guess that's why she;s ignoring me

Have a nice sleep.........11pm! I was going bed at 9, until i decided to cancel the decorators.

Speak soon, I may need some encouragement before tomorrow's performance!

Happy sleeping!!!!

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

:rotfl: :rotfl: LOL you've got more class than that xx

'S' can keep her hat on if she likes

In fact, i'm not sure I want to see her naked..........takes away the imagination

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Oh :wall:

Hope it's a word!

Oh, that reminds me..............I told 'S' off on Monday night. She said something that felt patronising via text, so I text back saying "Don't mean to offend, but can you not patronise me or look down on me"

She text back

"Didn't mean to offend, I don't look down on people, hope u r okay, I was trying to be positive"

That's the last text I got (Tues) so I guess that's why she;s ignoring me

Have a nice sleep.........11pm! I was going bed at 9, until i decided to cancel the decorators.

Speak soon, I may need some encouragement before tomorrow's performance!

Happy sleeping!!!!

Thanks, hun. Sounds like you're both pretty much on the same wavelength? Speak soon, for sure, will be around tomorrow if you need some good pre-preformance vibes. Take good care and sleep well hun. Love Saz xxx

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Thanks, hun. Sounds like you're both pretty much on the same wavelength? Speak soon, for sure, will be around tomorrow if you need some good pre-preformance vibes. Take good care and sleep well hun. Love Saz xxx

She's on a far out wavelength, trust me. Very odd girl, very messed up girl, but adoreable!

Speak soon.

*raps*

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

She's on a far out wavelength, trust me. Very odd girl, very messed up girl, but adoreable!

Speak soon.

*raps*

Sweet dreams you xx

blinky

Crikey, it been busy in here tonight. I take an evening off to spend some time with 'R' and everyone posting like there's no tomorrow.

Just passing by before I go to sleep but I'll reply to some of the posts

beer wrote:

Ahh OK

What I was trying to say though, is don't let your insecurities ruin your relationship, I'm not prejudging, I hope, but its easy to do....I've done it

I know I ruined relationship that way myself before. I'm not allowed to put myself down in her presence, which is a good thing...

Sazbo wrote:

Blinky hun, in answer to you question I think you're lovely, only teasing ya hun It's just sour grapes from Sazzy, just ignore me And what a cute baby you were too! Hope you're feeling better this evening x Sounds like things are going well with R, as you say early days, but I still think she wouldn't be spending time with you if she didn't think you were worth it. Love, Saz xxx

Nah, wasn't cute - just tiny (4lb, 2oz and in an incubator for first 6 weeks).
I'm sure you're right, I just need to utilise it to try and beat my demons.

Flis - Glad to hear you're sounding better. Hope things continue to go well.

feelinggood wrote:

Sorry for not being around much lately, its kinda hard to post here, after getting a telling off for talking about things we don't talk about lol.
I take things far too personally.
How are you?

hi feelinggood
Have you tried telling him that you want to tell him but find it hard. Explain that words don't come close to describing things and it's difficult for non-sufferers to understand.

Hope things work out.

feelinggood wrote:

Miro, you are not unlovable. You are a wonderful, wonderful man x

Miro, From what I've read of your posts you do think your a special person too. I'm sure you are lovable but I know what it feel like to feel unlovable - I've felt it for years.

Miroslav wrote:

We've started to get close, but now she is leaving. I'm gutted, she has nothing to go to, so that hurts that i'm not enough for her to stay.

Try not too think it as you're not enough for her to stay, more the other factors are too many and too strong.

Miroslav wrote:

Blinky :wave:

Glad to hear you are still going with 'R' and you are spending lots of time with her! It sounds as though her confidence is easily knocked too if she gets upset easy!

Flatmate has been better with me tonight, telling me to hang in there and that 'S' does like me, she just doesn't know how much and that's she's likely to be very scared.

I'm just gonna keep going and hope the day arrives when she says she's staying

Thanks for that. Its funny you mentioned being scared. 'R' told me that one of the reasons she blows a bit hot and cold is she gets a little scared. I just told her "and I'm not". We're both not used to things going so well.

Emotions can be scary things particularly if you've been brought up supressing them.

Sazbo wrote:

Sweetheart, if you think about it, really it's more difficult for a tortured soul to love, rather than more easy. After all, they have all their own issues to deal with on top of everything else? I'm sure you are not going to lose S; not saying it will be easy, it clearly won't, but I do think something good will come of it however hard that might be to predict right now xxxxx

I agree 100%. A tortured soul will have the advantage that they will understand some of what you are going through but it may bring up some of their feelings too which they don't want to happen. Tortured souls have difficulty with emotions so they do find it harder to love.

Ethel wrote:

I'm feeling a lot better now... funny enough my doctor said the same when I saw him on wednesday, lol sort of shook his head sadly n said he had no idea what he'd do if he was in my shoes. Then he said I should write a synopsis and send it to eastenders, then he said.. nah.. its too farfetched for them, lol. You lot don't know the half of it in my life.. most of the time I'm too embarassed to post everything that goes on here

ethel spoke with confidence, good speed and clarity, making eye-contact continuously, and used real policy examples (with material distributed around the class) to support her argument, not only during her presentation but also throughout the class discussion.

Great Ethel

Please take some heart in both of these. It takes a strong person to deal with either your own problems or your daughters. To be able to handle both takes a really strong person.:A

Glad to hear you're presentation went really well. You can give group presentations really well.

Miroslav wrote:

just wanna be with her

I know i'll never do anything to harm her like all the others, I know I want to make her happy, and I know we've had some good times together.

I need to work a bit of this Miro magic that's working on other women, when I don't want it too.

Other than 'S', 5 women in 4 weeks have made 'comments' to me and apparently another thinks i'm :whistle:

I'm starting to notice women again, and they must be able to see it :whistle:

Only want the one though, and she thinks i'm 'Yummy'

I know i've said i'm ugly in the past, but I know i'm not 'repulsive'. I'm apparently getting better with age

I feel so gorgeous :rotfl:

Glad to hear you're sounding better. Once someones been hurt by people it puts them on guard for the future. Even though part of her knows you won't hurt her intentionally it is understandable that she is wary.

Miroslav wrote:

When you are sensitive, it's one of life's hazards.

Very true

Miroslav wrote:

"You're nuts"

My flatmate was dumped by her counsellour, via card in the post. The woman who referred her went nuts

That is absolutely appaulling. Find out if the counsellor is a member of any professional bodies and make a complaint. Write to the papers as well too. Such people shouldn't be allowed to be counsellors.

As for my evening...

I went very well, she did pick up I was a little out of sorts when I arrived and we talked about a few things. Felt a bit better after that.
Oh and :kisses2: ...


Sleep well everyone

feelinggood_2

You there blinky?

Miroslav

blinky wrote:

Try not too think it as you're not enough for her to stay, more the other factors are too many and too strong.



Thanks for that. Its funny you mentioned being scared. 'R' told me that one of the reasons she blows a bit hot and cold is she gets a little scared. I just told her "and I'm not". We're both not used to things going so well.

Emotions can be scary things particularly if you've been brought up supressing them.



I agree 100%. A tortured soul will have the advantage that they will understand some of what you are going through but it may bring up some of their feelings too which they don't want to happen. Tortured souls have difficulty with emotions so they do find it harder to love.



Great Ethel

Please take some heart in both of these. It takes a strong person to deal with either your own problems or your daughters. To be able to handle both takes a really strong person.:A

Glad to hear you're presentation went really well. You can give group presentations really well.



Glad to hear you're sounding better. Once someones been hurt by people it puts them on guard for the future. Even though part of her knows you won't hurt her intentionally it is understandable that she is wary.



Very true



That is absolutely appaulling. Find out if the counsellor is a member of any professional bodies and make a complaint. Write to the papers as well too. Such people shouldn't be allowed to be counsellors.

As for my evening...

I went very well, she did pick up I was a little out of sorts when I arrived and we talked about a few things. Felt a bit better after that.
Oh and :kisses2: ...


Sleep well everyone

Blimey, that's a big post!!!!

I feel unloveable, i've gone too long with nothing to be anything but.

I think it is a case of her other factors being too strong, I just want to be there for her and show her someone gives a......

I'm glad 'R' said she is scared.........not i'm glad, but glad she felt confident enough to tell you

Emotions are very scary!!

I know 'S' is scared, and so am I...........a bit like you and 'R' I suppose. You have to be extra guarded.

Glad your relationship is going well, we are all rooting for you

Tomorrow is another day, I always dread the next day and if 'S' will contact me, and if she does, if I wish she hadn't


:wave: night

feelinggood_2

Never is anyone there is there?

blinky

feelinggood wrote:

Never is anyone there is there?

I think it's a technical thing where the board keeps you logged in after you leave.


Are you having a bad nite hun ?