depression

Sazbo

Morning lovlies. Just a quickie. Going out for lunch with boss in ten mins :rolleyes: It's his birthday, so I guess that means I'm paying... :rolleyes: :rolleyes:

EB hope it goes ok - personally, I'd rather have teeth pulled without anaesthetic than present, so I know how you feel. xx

rose and FG sorry this is so brief right now, and even more sorry you're both hurting so much, but hold on I'm sending you both all my love.... xx (And yes, rose hun, Tiff is right - we have to keep fighting)

Morning Blinky, hope you're having a good day (is it tonight your date with R?). xx

Tiff - how are you today, are you getting around ok hun? xx

Miro hun - what you have to understand is that I love my duvet very much indeed so I never like to be parted from it and 6am came far too soon! I'm sending you some extra tall calming vibes xx

Take care of yourselves, I'll be back later.

Love,
Saz xxxx

blinky

Thanks Sazbo, yes date with 'R' is tonight as far as I know. I normally get at least one text from her but nothing today I know she is busy so I'm not overly worried.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Miro hun - what you have to understand is that I love my duvet very much indeed so I never like to be parted from it and 6am came far too soon! I'm sending you some extra tall calming vibes xx

Take care of yourselves, I'll be back later.

Love,
Saz xxxx

Extra tall calming vibes appreciated. Still no 'S'

You take your duvet to work?

Hope the lunch you paid for was good

rose07

feelinggood wrote:

Thanks Rose, you are such a sweetie x

awww thanks FG, so are you hun x

hehe well im back on here, im at home now have came home from work as have a dentist appointment and i thought what the heck i will take the afternoon off
but bad news is i am getting my wisdom tooth out, and some filling:eek: (yes tiff i know i shouldnt eat sweet things like smarties but they are sooo yummi)

I have had a very hard week this week, i have kinda been inside meself and struggling lots, havent quite had the words to say how i feel its all very confusing still. and hurts soo much. but im fighting.

I havent been able to see my councellor yet which i sgetting to me as i could do with seeing her, saying that i dont think i would know what to say, so maybe its for the best, plus i have this cloud over me that follows me everywhere, its a bad cloud, so now ya got a rock and a cloud to shift tiff and saz. :rotfl:

ok i am going to try and catch up a little before i go to dentist got a few mins so stand back everyone for rosie's essay time

much love to you all
xxx

rose07

Hi flis, how are you doing? Sounds like things are going ok for you, which is great. Well done you for keeping fighting.
How are things with your OH? You say that he works long hours and not home till 10.30pm sometimes, think of this time as some alone time to you. I know it hard, whenever I have alone time I seem worse.
But it is good that you have someone even though you have times when your apart hopefully it makes you both stronger.
Take care xxx

feelinggood_2

Hope it goes well at the dentist Rose, will try and post later xx

rose07

Hi feelinggood, How are you doing? Well we both seem to understand how the other is feeling at the mo, its horrible aint it hun? Such a strange feeling. I also want to say thanks hun, for being her for me and the support you have given, it is nice to be able to talk about things and to have found people that have been through similair things, and feel like you can talk about them, soo thanks hun. Xxx:T :T
Ok just reading back now, you have to waiti till the 30th of this month to see someone, that a bit carp aint it? Well you got us till then hun. Your mate doesn’t sound like a mate telling you to just get over it and things, we all know it is just not that simple, things need time we are only human, and sometimes we need to take things in baby steps (can you see where I get me wisdom from, lol, tiff;) )
It is a shame your OH isn’t more supportive of you, seem there are a few people here with hard times with other halfs, but keep fighting hun we can only to our best. Don’t stay somewhere where you are not happy tho hun, I know only too well about these things, relationships aren’t about wearing each other down but being there and being loved seems your OH doesn’t get that.
I do hope the trip goes ok tho, you never know it might be ok and just what ya need. But I understand, just try and keep going hun, don’t let him push you over the edge.

Take care huni
xxx

feelinggood_2

Thanks Rose
I'm struggling to talk about things at the moment - probably cos I feel so guilty that I'm ill.
At least OH is starting to realise now that I am actually ill and not just miserable and lazy.
Thinking of you xxx

rose07

feelinggood wrote:

Hope it goes well at the dentist Rose, will try and post later xx

thanks hun, im absolutely terrified but that means just aother thing to put on the rock.

Oh tiff i have a confession, , i seen a baby on the ride home from work, he was sooo sweet tiff, ickle arms and toes and feet and hands, soo gorgeous tiff i want one. :eek: , think im getting broody hun. :eek: :eek:

but nothng gonna happen besides think i need a man for that dont i? :rotfl:

ok better be off now

will try and catch up on the rest of you very soon

take care all
much love
xxx

rose07

Here you go miro wote yours on the weekend took ages to read back, lol

Hi Miroslav, ok for once im going to go on about ‘S’. hope ya don’t mind? I have been reading back on the posts (yes every last one), and I have seen your progress with ‘S’, you have had some rough times together miro. On page 107 you keeping out of her way not wanting to see her, scared of bumping into her. The best you can do is keep spending time together. You say that she is slow, lol. That’s me, takes me a while to click onto things too. But just let her head have the thinking time and it will be ok, or if she looks confused explain it to her and then she can join in.
WOW miro how did the recording session go? That all sounds pretty cool. Shame ‘S’ didn’t or couldn’t go, she sounds like she woulda liked it. How many sessions are left, are ya going to let us hear it? (and yeah I am a bit of a lyrical thing, I have made tunes too, lol, I would be very interested in hearing any tunes you have done.)
And on page 114 you were waiting, wondering if she would call, wondering how she was and if she was ok, it is clear she is etched into your brain hun and that you are hurting and I understand this. Its hard aint it? When we feel soo much love for someone, we adore who they are, we look past the bad points, see the good in them, want to be there for them, and be the one they come to when in times of need.
Page 122, that wasn’t a very good page, you feeling very low, you hurting. You don’t know whether to give up on it all and save yourself the pain or to carry on and keep going, but you are still wanting to be with her and you are still going, Miro if we didn’t have people around us offering support and being there, where would we be, as long as you show ‘S’ you are there for her and where to find you then she will come to you. The world is too small hun, to not take these things when they are given to us, if she seems like she is distant or even if she thinks she has to be the way she has been with other guys, make her understand your not like other guys, tell her things don’t need to be rushed and that you will be there for her as her friend as if she wants more then its one step at a time.
How did your councelling session go then? Did you talk about ‘S’ all the time? My councellor distracts me a lot. Bit of a pain.
It is a pain waiting for someone to call/text and mainly get in touch it feels like you are hanging and are on tender hooks. But when they do contact you it’s the best thing, doesn’t matter if its just to say hi, just to hear there voice or to get a text and see they are ok. It all matters communication is a major part in relationships and if you get that sorted from the start and be honest and open then that’s the best start you can give yaselfs.
And jeesh don’t talk about celibacy I have been celibate for 3 years (since the attack) I still haven’t found that someone I can trust, think it may take a while. Maybe ‘S’ feels abit like that I dunno but she may not know what to do and how to be.

Ok nearly caught up…
The fair sounds like it went ok. Which is really positive thing, and you managed to hug and put your arm round her bet that was nice, just keep doing what you are doing miro, but try and make sure there is a bit of space between yas, you need to make sure you are strong enough too not get hurt. But I know this well hun, I am having trouble with me emotions as regards to someone at the moment too. And it is hard but one step at a time.

Gawd I can hear fireworks ….

(On page 134)

Miro, how the film go? I used to work on the films, (until I became a bit unwell). Very long hours tho. , have you/did you manage to decide on a film ‘The devil wears prada’ is a good one I think. Bit of a girlie one tho think ‘S’ may like it but you may not, lol

Oh and if you want to talk to ‘S’ do it. She is prob thinking exactly the same about you, but may not beb able to pick up the phone. If you keep hesitating at the things your mind is telling you to do then you will think about whether to do it or not all night long.

I believe Britney id available yes miro, and whats with the smarties. Lol. I like the blue ones, and the red ones, they are my fav.

Keep it up with ‘s’ hun, it may seem painful and a long road to take, but what you are doing for ‘S’, is what some of us can only dream about to have someone that wants to help and support us and love us too, she is very lucky miro, keep it up and we will keep you going.

Take care
xxx

hehehe, there ya go miro a good essay