Buffy Cracks the Egg Diary 2010

sallyx

Hugs Buffy hun...Have you actually made an appt, even if its 3 weeks away. If not can you not get an emergency one..I would just rock up at the surgery and say you need to see someone asap

Buffythedebtslayer

I have clean fish tanks. not the world's most exciting Friday night but well they are happy fish now!

I have a headache and will go to bed soon but John Travolta is in a film and well I love him so I can't tear myself away.

mind you I could watch it in bed...............

thanks as ever folks xxxxxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Right, my headache hung on, I took pain killers and have been a sleepy mess for most of the day.

The pills made me sleep in - in one sense that is good cos I haven't been sleeping. Mum has had the heating on ALL day and when I came back from shopping (not a remotely frugal experience unfortunately) it was so hot in the house I had to open a window. I threw away about 14 packets of crisp that were out of date and discovered that despite me saying I had put on weight and didn't want to eat crap anymore Mum has bought 20 odd packets of crisps plus big bag of doritos. Now I know I don't have to eat them (I didn't eat the last lot) but it just all makes me so frusrated. If I buy my own food there is literally no room for me to put it any where. Its all such a waste and it makes me really upset that whilst I am trying to save money and not waste it I am throwing it away each week in the kitchen.

Then we had the weekly sister visit. I again fell asleep.

THe fact that I must have typed this A THOUSAND times at least just shows me that although my debt is half what it was i am still pretty unhappy with my lot. Selfish as that sounds. I do have a lot going for me very good friends, a decent social life (finally that has improved!) and if I did get my !!!! together I would be ok at work. I am letting my resentment (now bordering on hatred- not remotely healthy) for my boss stop me doing a good job.

Do you know what I am going round in bloody circles here. Its ten o clock ( I woke up at 8.30. !!!! what a mess. )

xxxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Am back briefly to end this evening on a more positive note.

I put some stuff up in the loft,tidied up and hoovered, and now my room looks lovely again.

I have dug out my oldweight watchers stuff. It occured to me that I did lose weight whilst eating crap - I just used to point it and since veg is "free" on WW it should be ok to manage it all.

THe thing is I have committed to this way of life, it wasn't exactly my choice but here I am for at least the next year. I am not getting any younger (!) and whilst my social life is getting better I really should lose some weight and broaden my horizons. have some flipping fun.

xxxx

urg123

Hi Buffy

Really pleased that you are feeling more positive tonight. Enjoy the feeling!

urg x x

Shoe_Gal

Sounds like a plan Buffy :j I am doign 1200 calories a day (from the C4 telly programme) but a lot of those calories are still coming from junk Have lost 3lbs this week though so must be doing something right :rolleyes:

Buffythedebtslayer

I am off to bed but I am not too pleased with ymself.

not done enough marking. tomorrow is going to be another horrible and stressfl day. and to be honest it is all my fault. I procastinate about work. I have marked one set of essays. I should have marked more LOTS more.

I have had all day!!!!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

Hopefully I will not be here tomorrow cos I will be too busy working. Sick of staying up so late. got a full day tomorrow as well. !!!!!! it .

See you all TUESDAY night!!! I mustmark.

xxxxxxx

boredofbeingathome

I know that feeling Buffy. I did a lot of planning yesterday, then i changed my mind and re planned. I put off a lot of other stuff which literally takes minutes, but i can't or rather don't want to do it. Good luck tomorrow.x

Buffythedebtslayer

Hello

Not been here in a while, I do pop on to Daily chat and SAID but haven't wanted to moan on here!

Money wise things are "interesting" I have to transfer some money over from "savings" but I get paid next week so whilst things aren't perfect there is not a lot I can do now so its just a good job i had savings!

Job wise, I had a bit of a revelation this week. I enjoyed my lessons (I would like to point out that the kids are NEVER the problem) I used my own stuff and basically ignored my HOD! He has been stressed this week and not so at everyone.

The second part of this is that before doing this I went through my stuff and justified what they would be doing/learning and realised I could defend it. so screw it I shall be doing that a lot more often!

And actually the only reason why I hate my job is my various bosses and they don't actually care about ME so why should they have so much power over how I feel about my job. In the end its only the kids that suffer.

so yes.a hard week in which I have missed my friends and choclate but I have come to some decisions.

Side note
Do you know what is really annoying when some one is trying to have a nice relaxing start to the day and the other person in the house is flapping about doing house work. Best get on!

Buffyxxxxx

*Jellie*

I know it's tough but try and hang onto the fact that you enjoy the important bit of your job! It is horrible that all the other stuff is having such a negative effect on you