Sallyx's Sink or Swim, Swimerdy Swim Diary ;)

redsquirrel80

Wow, lovely house (are you allowed to put a veg patch in? lol)! Fingers very much crossed for you x

sallyx

My head is all over the place, Ive been through the am I doing the right thing, do I really love R, I don't want to move to can't wait to leave, start afresh....god I don't know. Ive been phoning to try and sort out schools and no-where has any space and im not going to take B out of a great school where she is happy to stick her in some shitte hole one where I would still have to drive to get to. Am seriously wondering if I am doing the right thing

would quite like to sit in a corner and cry today

redsquirrel80

Aw Sal :grouphug: It's exciting but it's not going to be an easy time. You're bound to have lots of worrying along the way. Have a cry if it helps! And then once you've calmed down, how about writing down the pros and cons of doing it, or not doing it.. and see how that looks?

sallyx

And now I can't get B into any local school...the 4 in wimborne are full, the local one half a mile away is full and the only ones in the whole of the borough are the dregs that no-one would want to send their kids too...and Im certainly not taking her out of a good school to stick her some god awful place......starting to see things slipping away here!

Pooky

If there's no school place for her where you want her to be then it's not the right time to be moving - R will understand that - this is a huge step and it will all come together when the time is right....I promise you.

Bunnyinthelights

Sal, other than fear of change, s there anything else worrying you?

sallyx

Pooky wrote: »

If there's no school place for her where you want her to be then it's not the right time to be moving - R will understand that - this is a huge step and it will all come together when the time is right....I promise you.

No he totally understands that and has said no matter how much he loves the house and the area, B's schooling and our quality of life comes first. Whats meant to be is meant to be Pooky I am a believer in that

sallyx

Bunnyinthelights wrote: »

Sal, other than fear of change, s there anything else worrying you?

Not really Bun, Im worried that things might change between us, worried that there maybe things we don't know about each other that irritate us...normal sort of things. I fear leaving my comfortable life with friends, people at school to talk to, familiarity....but things that I can gain again.

I love him dearly and want to be with him but I guess because its early days there is a huge leap of faith on both our parts.

If its right it will work out, if its not meant to be then it will happen at the right time. He knows that as much as I do

redsquirrel80

sallyx wrote: »

No he totally understands that and has said no matter how much he loves the house and the area, B's schooling and our quality of life comes first. Whats meant to be is meant to be Pooky I am a believer in that

That is really good to hear, it doesn't matter how great the house is if you can't work everything else out, i.e. schools, work to fit round it.

You'll find something perfect I'm sure x

sallyx

Glad to say that my rational has returned and normal service will be resumed! Yesterday 2 of my closest friends called or came to see me and made me realise that lifes too short..they were both thrilled that we were moving in together and that moving away wasn't a bad thing. So all systems go, I have 2 appts at schools today to go and have a look around, hoping that either of them will be nice and that a child leaves giving B a space...not quite sure how to play it at school as I want to take her with me and not sure they will be overly pleased at me taking her out for the afternoon, oh well!

Off out for supper this evening for a leaving do for someone I work with...more food, Ive eaten wayyyyyy toooooo much food lately and im never going to get into this dress ive bought for my brothers wedding in september :eek:

Oh well grey and rainy looking today and im off out for a long run this morning