Hypno's "me, me, me, me, me," diary.....

Nargleblast

Sounds like some chillout time with a G&T and the telly is just what the doctor ordered. For me it will be a shower then veg out till bedtime (only got 4 hours sleep today after night shift then had to go out to dentist appointment for filling, so think I deserve the night off!)

ZTD

hypno06 wrote: »

As it is, it is just more crapness.....some days I do just wonder what I have done to deserve it. I must have been a really bad person in a previous life

When the shit hits the fan - it's not the fan's fault...

Snaggles

Evening Hypno. :wave:

Weirdly, I was having a conversation about what you are feeling (or rather, about our own experiences) with a friend only a couple of days ago, and I think maybe it's a normal part of a relationship ending.

You obviously have the VERY emotional early stages (shock, anger, tears, confusion etc), then I think you have a period of 'kicking arris and getting stuff done', during which, whilst you might not feel happy, you do feel purposeful and determined.

And then things start to settle down, you have dealt with all the urgent matters, and life begins to at least assume a veneer of normality.

We both felt that it is that stage that is the hardest, the fight for acceptance that this is your life now, and the struggle to remain positive and see the good things, even though you are still grieving your marriage and wondering what on earth the future holds for you. We both described a sort of flat, numb-but-miserable feeling that was really hard to shake off, and a feeling of emptiness/loneliness (something I still struggle with), even though we both have children around, so in fact are rarely alone.

One thing I have found REALLY helps (the only thing that does, other than cuddles from the kids) is having something definite to look forward to (a holiday/an evening with friends etc) on a specific date not too far into the future. I hate looking ahead at an empty diary, even though sometimes I would much rather sit at home and wallow than drag myself out of the house. Knowing it's 'only 3 weeks till a night with the girls' just stops that feeling of looking ahead only to endless days of 'more of the same'.

You really are coping incredibly well though. xx

Nargleblast

I think ZTD is on to something there - you need to stop thinking of yourself as the brown stuff that gets spread around all over the place, and start thinking of yourself as the fan that gets things moving! Now let's all sing "The sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar that tomorrowww, there'll be sunnnnn....."

ZTD

Nargleblast wrote: »

I think ZTD is on to something there - you need to stop thinking of yourself as the brown stuff that gets spread around all over the place, and start thinking of yourself as the fan that gets things moving! Now let's all sing "The sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar that tomorrowww, there'll be sunnnnn....."

It's probably best if I just mime.

Bleeding ears are not in the top 10 of attractive parts to a woman...

hypno06

Thanks Snaggles, it is nice to know that I am "normal" :rotfl:

Funnily enough, when I was in my "positive period" earlier this week, I did sort of become aware of the fact that I knew it couldn't continue in that vein all the time, and I did write down some forward dates.....nothing exciting, but bank holidays, a week's holiday from work that I have booked off etc.

Z....why is it though, that some fans attract more !!!! than others?

Nargleblast

Bleeding ears - yeuchh!

(Hypno dives under the duvet to avoid the sound of hundreds of DFWs all singing that song from "Annie" at the tops of their voices)

ZTD

hypno06 wrote: »

Z....why is it though, that some fans attract more !!!! than others?

One of the natural consequences of entropy. Shit spreads itself around so there is a basically equal share for everyone. Those that don't attract any, are already full of it.

hypno06

ZTD wrote: »

Those that don't attract any, are already full of it.

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

hypno06

I've just told my Nana about me and OH :(:( Was rather a strange conversation, but one that we had to have sooner or later, and I have been kind of avoiding her for the last few weeks because I didn't want to tell her