Had enough

skintbutsolvent

Bargain_Rzl wrote: »

Oh heck, I KNEW you'd take that the wrong way. As I tried, clumsily, to say in my previous post, I don't think any less of you for attention-seeking - it's just a symptom of being isolated.

Did you read the rest of what I said... or did you just read the bit where you thought I was criticising you?

Once again, I really am trying to listen and help. Not criticise. Really

I'm sorry, I am rubbish. The only thing stopping me ODing at the moment is fear of failure. Yes, I am desperate. And when I tried Samaritans the other night their email wasn't working - I'm no good at talking so phoning isnt really an option.

Marcheline

Did you tell him everything about your current state of mind?

If you did and he's still not changing his mind, could you ring the friend you sent some money to and spill it all out? Or even go and visit them?

Marcheline

No, I don't think you're rubbish.

I'm sure the samaritans have heard all sorts in their time, so even if you just ring and say "I'm in a bad place right now and am desperate for support. I'm no good at talking, but please help." I'd be surprised if they're not trained to know what to do/say next to get you to open up.

Bargain_Rzl

I don't think you're rubbish either, and I have just PM'd you.

Marcheline

Logging off now SBS as I'm off to bed. Hope you get speaking to friends/family/samaritans soon.

ChrisCobra

Many of us tread water and struggle to survive.

Bargain_Rzl

Hi OP, did you get in contact with somebody last night? How are you feeling this morning?

BitterAndTwisted

Come back and talk to us Skinty, there are people here who are concerned about you and want to help

Tia_24

Skintbutsolvent

How are things today? Please try the Samaritans again, there are wonderful people on there who are available to listen to you and not judge, its a wonderful resource and I hope you try again.

I echo BitterandTwisted, there are people on here worried about you.

Please post soon.

cakey

hay there. have been reading your posts. hope your feeling a little better today. Do you know what. you are in the best place that you can be right now, Rock Bottom. The only place you can go is up if you want to turn around your life its your choice, every step you take from now on will be positive. If you don't have family you can turn too, then you have to make your own family. whether that is talking to people on here, or meeting new ones. It's your choice. Everything you do it your choice, the only person you need to prove yourself to is yourself. Once your happy with yourself it will follow with the people you meet. i used to drink a bottle of wine a night, it wasn't until i cut down, that things became clearer. if you can take up a hobby or something to distract you, just until you build confidence, you'll get there xxxxxx