Suicidal and crying out for help

zztopgirl

I crashed really badly during the night again but this time had no urges to self-harm so I must be doing really well, im proud of myself. I ended up hyperventilating and oh got me calmed down and off to bed.

I keep telling myself I am a strong person and that I will get through this. Am going to drag my sorry butt out of the house shortly, took alot of effort to get up out of bed today but I did it eventually.:j

leed

Did you have a good break from the house? I know when I am down I look for the beauty in the nature that is around me - especially at this time of year look at the lovely colours of the trees, grasses and plants. Hope you have a better night tonight.
Have you arranged to the doctor or anyone else who may be able to help you yet?
And don't forget as Tulip said - if you neeed to talk to someone contact the Samaritans, they are there 24/7.
:hello::hello:

zztopgirl

Im staying off the diazepam even though im anxious at the moment, im using self-help techniques. Oh took me out for dinner this evening and we had a lovely chat and first proper meal for ages, then drove out and sat and watched the sea for a bit. It can be hypnotic watching the waves crashing.

I have made some enquiries and managed to get a dyslexia screening for this friday (by the skin of my teeth, its at the local college even though I dont attend, so I feel very lucky!), even if I fail and it turns out im dyspraxic, they will hopefully point me in the right direction for a proper diagnosis and support.

leed

Great to hear you have had a good evening - watching the waves can be soooo soothing. Hope you have a peaceful and restful night.

fatou256

hi zzopgirl good you feel a bit better ! i used to be on diazepam too until ti deciede to stop taking it as it can be addictive apparently.

have you been referred for CBT or counselling ? CBt was helpful for me to manage my anxiety and panic attack ...

also I have done a short course in meditation and you will be suprised how helpful it is and easy to do it !

quietheart

I'd second the CBT recommendation, you'd have to wait a while though, in the meantime the dummies guide to cbt is great
http://www.amazon.co.uk/Cognitive-Behavioural-Therapy-Dummies-Willson/dp/0470018380/ref=pd_bxgy_b_img_b
best £10 I've ever spent or you could reserve from library.

tandraig

youre coming off diazepam hun? take it slowly - you are doing great!!!
PM if you want
think youre marvellous so far!

leed

Just wondering how are you doing as you haven't posted for a couple of days?:o

tandraig

hi zztopgirl. keep it up hun - pamper yourself and learn to love yourself! you are a very special person - remember that! look for beauty around you - like with the waves - its there - then look in mirror and what you see is beautiful too!!!

Primrose

I am sorry you have had such a bad time. I suspect that one of the reasons why people find it difficult to help people with suicidal feelings is that they feel totally emotionally inadequate at being able to find a way of providing the support that is needed, so perhaps a little self-help is what you need right now. There is an excellent self-help handbook called "Choosing to Live" by Thomas Ellis and Cory Newman (ISBN 1-57224-056-3) which is aimed at those with suicidal feelings and those who are trying to help them. I suspect you will be familiar with a lot of the negative expressions of low self-worth you will see expressed in this book by people who have had suicidal feelings and hopefully surprised and encouraged by alternative ways of looking at them and dealing with them. You can probably get the book from Amazon or any good bookshop.
Meanwhile, take one day at a time, but every day do one simple wholesome thing like taking a gentle walk, listening to a favourite piece of music, writing down your thoughts. It is in the little things that you will slowly find a way of healing.