The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 5

jo1972

god now you started me off! Wheres that smiley when you need it!!

jo1972

See!!!!!!????? Whats going on with this thing??

jo1972

fedupandskint wrote: »

Dear Jo,

Diazepam is part of the family used for alcohol community detoxes so please do not take it when you are drinking as it will increase all the bad effects and the risks plus it does not take long to build up a tolerance to them eg 2 weeks.

Be careful my dear and try it on your own x

Hey Sparkles, thanks for that. Don't worry, I'll only take them for a few days, ill start to feel stronger when the haze lifts. I remember doing a 2 week detox on librium and was off my face for the whole time, its not something i enjoyed. I will be careful xxx

Bismarck

graemecarter wrote: »

Great post.
I would think that Addiction and Obsession are closely linked, though this my view only.
I sometimes think I have an excess of desires, thus I want to do things to excess.
Maybe it is my desire to run away from myself and responsibilities??? Why? Because I don't think much of myself I guess

It's tricky - I've been meaning to quote this gem for a while:

I've read about some drivers who would think nothign of drinkign a bottle of whisky and driving home and then, that same driver would, on a plane - if the pilot caused an element of turbulence- go berserk that they were not in control and the plane was being flown badly.

Now -I think it's partly down to the thought process. there's a little bit in some of us who want to drink a bottle, finish it and feel like we've triumphed. The having a good time bit kind of passes us by....

THe other way I look at it sometimes is "did my family sign up for this?" that usually shocks me.

Be well

Take care...

Bis

budget_babe

Jo,
Will be AF today, im still very angry with myself for giving the best part of 17 years to alcohol, GC, I am beaten and very tired. This feeling, i know, will fade with just a few days AF so need to be vigilent, walked this path so many times and im sick of it.

Sorry guys don't have time for a long post tonight, but I have just read our Darling JO's post.

JO sweetheart you sound so very low, and I am so sad to know this. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, I don't have the right words, I have been trying to think of what I could write, that could let you know how much I wish things were different and that you were happy. You say that you are beaten and so down, you are right you cannot keep walking the same path, the path that is making you so very unhappy.

You deserve to have a much better life, one that you have control over. Listen to Graeme and if you need to read and re-read his posts. He and others have been beaten too, by realising that they were they have managed to take back control of their lives.

It is not easy to do of course and it is a very difficult path to follow, but it is ultimately one that in the end leads to a better life. One where you can feel more contentment and one that gives you a greater feeling of wellbeing.

I hope you can find your own contentment Jo and your own peace.

You are in my thoughts and I feel so very sad for you.

Here are a few words that I wrote a while back.

We ask the moon to watch over you while you sleep,
Your precious dreams we safely keep.
We send you our love through the winters rain
And blow kisses in the wind as we say your name
We send you three wishes in the stars up above
And give you our hearts on a rainbow full of love.

There is so much love for you on here JO, remember that. There is a rainbow of love from us all. Picture this and hold it close. We will be there when you need us.

God Bless Angel :A
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

maman

'night all

DecemberBaby_2

Sorry about this - I know there will be no-one about at this time of morning but I've been up almost all night and desperate to talk to someone but there isn't anyone. My son rang me from town at 2:15am in a terrible state He was supposed to be getting a taxi back with mates and staying with them. They all got !!!!!! and fell out and left him on his own. He was so drunk he was crying hysterically on the phone in the middle of the city. I was terrified something would happen to him. I couldn't get in the car cos I'd been drinking. I'm so ashamed. I got him a taxi but they couldn't find him and he was just talking incoherent rubbish on the phone. I had to ring someone who'd said years ago he'd help out in any emergency and he took me to get him. If I didn't have that help don't know what I would have done. I tried to get a taxi to pick me up and take me in to get him but it was taking too long. I've been up all night calming him down and now he is asleep but I feel so shaky and
awful now I can't lie there trying any more.

I'm sorry to be rambling on like this but I don't know what to do with myself. I drank on Friday despite intending not to. Like so many times before. I just must be an alcoholic.It is the only answer to explain how I behave.Never thought of it until I read posts on this thread.

If I hadn't been drinking I could have got in the car and been with him in 20 minutes. I'm so so worried about him now and if he goes out again - will he drink that much? I don't really understand why
he'd got so hysterical - it must have been an effect of the booze.

I didn't even explain to the guy who helped me, why I couldn't drive myself. He's from the church I go toand of course I've never mentioned my drinking problem to anyone there!
I have to stop - I know. This has confirmed that I need to be available at all times. I suffer from anxiety at the best of times and use booze to try to cope with that. It is not working. I'm full of "what if's" and tears at the moment. I have to stop - this lesson should be enough to make me just do it but I think I need help. I'm too weak.


Jo - Budgie has said it all - what a wonderful post.

Really sorry for this rambling. It helps a bit to let it out. I have to try
to get some sleep.

DB

mookiepook

Oh dear DB that's absolutely awful - I have an 18 year old son and I worry myself sick whenever he goes into town. Thank God you got him back safe and what a good job you had someone to help you out. Don't beat yourself up too much - you weren't to know what was going to happen. I really feel for you. Stay posting on this forum cos everyone's so helpful and supportive, it's really helping me stay off the booze.

DecemberBaby_2

Thanks Mookiepook. My son is the same age as yours. It is a huge worry when they go out. You're doing great with the AF days in January.

DB

jo1972

winebox wrote: »

I haven't been called a daft bint for....days. Speaking of which, where's Jo got to?

winebox wrote: »

It was that Lurky wot coined the phrase (but not about you!!)

:think: :think: :think:

:wave: morning all