The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 5

So_Sad_Angel

Hi fay....another VW bus fan here too.....I owned one when kids were little....great fun. I shall buy another one day & do a road trip round Europe.

IM - well done so far Hun.

40 SM <<hugs>> to you Sweetheart...that poem is my favourite...I always remember those words when I am very low & feeling lonely....somehow they give me an inner strength. ...Be strong for your Mum . Btw if you find a cure for `puffy` eyes then please let me know!

To everyone else...night night

Angiexx

ps YM - its 22 for me now !!!

graemecarter

cazzasmazza wrote: »

I don't know quite why I'm like this today. No reason for it.

I got home from uni, after having a great day and at 3.3pm I opened a bottle of red and I scoffed it down in less than an hour and I've hidden the empty bottle.

What am I doing???????????????????? Why did I do that????

I know really. I am an alcoholic. I've done so fantastically well in the last few weeks. But my behaviour doesn't change when I surrender to drink. I'm a secretive drinker, using as short a time as possible to drink as much as possible. Then the hiding begins.

I am ashamed.

Caz
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Alcoholics drink. That's what they do. They also deceive, hide and lie to people. However, the fact you have told us is progress. The fact that you understand what being ashamed means is progress.
The fact that you don't want to repeat this episode is progress.

Keep coming back - if you feel dodgy, get to a meeting, and use the phone numbers you have been given.

So_Sad_Angel

graemecarter wrote: »

Alcoholics drink. That's what they do. They also deceive, hide and lie to people. However, the fact you have told us is progress. The fact that you understand what being ashamed means is progress.
The fact that you don't want to repeat this episode is progress.

Keep coming back - if you feel dodgy, get to a meeting, and use the phone numbers you have been given.

Firstly Caz...well done on being brave enough to tell us...I am ashamed to say I have done the same....some time ago now but I`d go completely off the rails....sometimes there`d be no reason...I`d be feeling happy & my `guard` would be down...that was the worst time for me.

GC...aka `the wise one`...your words `deceive, hide & lie` are very true & I bet all of us have done one of those in relation to alcohol.....in fact all addictions be it food, drink, gambling, drugs or whatever, all involve those same negative actions....`deceive, hide & lie`

Well enough philosophy from me tonight.

Angiexx

mumofseven

Massive hugs to Caz and 40SM. I can see so much of my life in both these postings, and at the time I felt so alone.

I have hidden bottles in my boot and drank wine out of a mug thinking no-one would know, but the truth is 'I knew', but I couldn't admit to myself that it was a problem. Caz, you are making progress just by sharing it with us, I have been through this scenario many, many times and I know it is very early days for me, but I think you do reach a point where you know enough is enough and you turn a corner, maybe not at the first attempt, but each time you try, you get stronger and eventually you get to where you want to be.

I have always been too afraid to get professional help, so I don't really know much about it, but I am sure others on here will be able to guide you if that is what you need. If you don't want to go down that route, keep posting and we will be here for you.

MOS x

mumofseven

YM, 4 days for me now :j
Wednesday is always a bad night for me, I call it my weaknight, so have to be extra vigilant, I am going to an induction at Uni tomorrow so that will hopefully give me the incentive not to get any wine.

I am doing a degree in integrated practice which is basically child health, not for any other reason than to do something completely different to accounting which I have been doing for the past 20 years. I am hoping the change in direction will motivate me to change other areas of my life too, fingers crossed!!!

Hope everyone has a good day today, MOS x

hopeful1_2

Hello there, I just wanted to say this board has helped me have my 1st AF day in months. You have all inspired me and given me hope that I can cut my alcohol consumption down. I identify with so many of you on here, the odd glass of wine in the evening years ago has steadily increased, to the point where a bottle hardly touches the side, and at w/ends or when I am on my own I open a bottle earlier and earlier. It was such a great feeling yesterday evening to go to bed properly tired and not 'drunk tired'. I didn't have such a broken nights sleep either - I'm not exactly bouncing with energy this morning but I'm sure that will happen with more AF days. I am just taking it one day at a time - can't set any longer goals yet.

I prob wont be able to post very often on here but I just wanted to let you all know and say thank you for helping me get over a major hurdle.

x

gien

Hello everyone,
I have been really busy with birthdays and guests so not had much time to come in here.

Hugs to you 40SM, I had a similar situation and do feel for you, it's horrible but remember that you WILL get through it and you will cope.

I have another 3 AFDs to report YM so I'm on 14 now. I shan't hit my target which is a shame but so far I feel quite good about the amount I *haven't* drunk.
So looking towards October I shall have to think about what I want to do but I'm happy that the general trend is down.

enjoy yourselves

jo1972

Morning all,

Just took an age to catch up and now no time to post!

Big Big hugs to both 40SM and Caz, both for different reasons but you both know I'm thinking of you xx

Welcome to CB, hope you achieve whatever you want to achieve

Gotta rush to work, exhausted, though unhungover, spent the entire day in A&E with OH yesterday, didn't get home till 11pm so no time to drink, though I had intended to when they said they were admitting him and I was gonna be home alone :rolleyes: then things changed and OH refused to stay and discharged himself :rolleyes:

Really, really gotta dash, speak later!!

xx

MrsJC_2

Good morning everyone, just been catching up with the thread

40SM - I hope all goes well with your Mum - a very worrying time for you especially being so far away.

Caz - pls don't 'beat yourself up' today is a new day!

I struggled last night and ended up eating a lot of sweet stuff instead which isn't like me, but (this bit isn't for the tender ears of you boys!) I think it may be due to approaching 'that' time of the month! Oh the joys of being a girl :rotfl:

Have a good day everybody, half way thru' the week!

MrsJC_2

Ooops, forgot to say, YM please put me down for 21 days. Thanks