The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 5

barshamhillbilly

jo1972 wrote: »

11 for me please Fay xx

Wow - you are doing really well this month Jo :T:T

...... off to hang my head in shame .....:o:o

Another 5 units for me last night ..... getting down slowly ......very baby steps

Pippilongstocking

Morning all will update later on. Well done all of you managing to stay AF - will post the list and some lovely well done stars later.

Excuse the following rant which will bring the thread down at bit - no point in saying 'yeah I am doing great when in fact I feel rubbish!!' - thank you all so much for keeping me amused and sane over the past few days!!!!!

I think cutting down is hard - last night was a nightmare for me for various reasons - any few lapses I have into a couple in moderation drinks with chums (when away) I am beginning to think isn't worth it - it doesn't go well for me for days/weeks afterwards my heads in a stupid place - and I could so easily just drink, drink, drink. And I know lots of folks have said that already! Lodgers etc drinking in house last night (which of course they can do - they pay rent and are adults) - I didn't drink with them but finding folk having alcohol in the house really really hard work. I am annoyed with myself today cos all I wanted to do last night was drink the left over beer in the garage (from brother being up over weekend whilst I was away). I didn't drink it but !!!!!! how many stupid converstations do I need to have in my head about it. Standing in a garage at 10pm downing beer just cos its there is not acceptable!! Neither is the converstation in your head about not doing it. (I didn't drink it but I did go in there several times and have stupid conversations in my head about it)

I need to become better focussed I think - easy for me to say 'Oh kids are away I am so miserable' = drink lots

When they come back I am sure I would tell myself 'oh its so stressful cos kids are back' = drink a bit - then drink more.

etc etc etc - Fed up struggling!!

Sorry for the downer post I am just annoyed with myself and lots to do at work which is a major trigger for me - I procrastinate so much nowt gets done and then I get more stressed!

Away to work now - and pop back after lunch when I should have finished this chunk that needs to go in today.

Ordered 'Living sober' from Amazon (thanks Lurks!!)

Hugs and well done those who managing and doing great and hugs to anyone who needs one.

cazzasmazza

Hi all,

2 more AFD for me please Fay.

I've not felt very well over the last couple of days.

Feel really drained and I am having a lot of trouble with "women's problems" (I will spare you the details), so I think I need to see the doc about it, as it's a continuing problem I've had for a long time now.

So I feel a bit down in the dumps if I'm honest, but trying to keep my chin up and get on with stuff. Got uni lecture later and this morning I've thoroughly cleaned the kitchen and put a wash in. Woo hoo, how exciting - NOT!

I'm also worried as I've acquired 4 bites above my left ankle. I can only assume they are flea bites, but our cats are up to date with their flea treatment and my partner hasn't been bitten. The bites are only on my left leg too (my left leg must be tastier than my right :rolleyes: )

Don't know where the bites have come from, so I am now worrying there are fleas in our house. I've gone all "icky" about it and I keep scrutinising the bedroom carpet (we don't have carpet anywhere else) and our bed! Not found anything and my partner says I am just being paranoid.

Going to be AF today. I'm driving to my friends for a cuppa and a gossip this evening, so that should be nice.

Hugs to everyone.
Caz
xxxx

jo1972

Fay, hoping my depressing texts to you last night didn't add to your mood?

mollypolly

Good morning everyone.

A very well done to thoses alcohol free last night.:T

Jo...I didn't realise you were doing so well this month...Congratulations.....you have been hiding away and I thought it was cause you were doing carp:rotfl::rotfl::o

Fay...Good girl for staying AF with so much temptation around. I have to say that if you do completely give up that part does get easier.My DH STILL drinks everyday (even after me setting such a good example:A)
But the alcohol in the house doesn't tempt me at all now.It is so easy ,as you say to slip back into drinking....but the longer you are AF the easier it is to say No.....

Good luck....I think I know You and Jo well enough now to say that you both must cut the chord with alcohol once and for all.
Good Luck some more:D

Love Mollypollyxxxx

ETA.....The red bit includes you too Sir William:rolleyes::D

yellowmonkey

Morning all

Fay sounds like you know what you need to do but cannot gather the strentgh at the moment to make the leap.I am going to have to come to a decision one way or another as well as I would still be smoking if I only tried to cut down :rolleyes:

I am not ready to make the leap yet either but I WILL be AF tonight as I have work at 2:30 this afternoon until 11 so can't drink

Take care everyone

ym

mollypolly

Morning YM

Good luck for today...even though you Can't drink;)

I think quite a few peeps on here need to make that Leap....and believe me I know how hard that is.....but it can be done.....if I can do it anyone can.

All the best
Love Mollypollyxxxx

honeybear_2

No good smilies but lovely bigbear hugs to all

xx

jo1972

I agree with you MP, and my time has come that I can't bandy (sp?) around it anymore, been playing a game for lots of years (16 years in total, first 9 of those in denial ), I could write a book with all the justifications to drink and situations I've put myself in just so I can buy beer without anyone knowing (in fact maybe I should :think:)

Thanks to all for congratulating me on the 10 days, it is appreciated, but the problem is that after a couple of days, I break it by drinking then get another couple of days. This is great if I was a cutter downer, but I'm not. When I drink, I will drink no less than 15 units in one sitting and am unable to do less than that without panicking. If I do drink, then the next day I am back to square 1 with the craving and depression and ultimately the disgust I feel is the worst bit.

If, for example, I didn't drink for the next 2 weeks then a work do came up on a Friday afterwork and I went and had a skinful with my colleagues, everyone else would turn up at work on the Monday saying, oh god I was so wrecked on Friday, didn't we have a laugh!! I on the other hand, would say this, but inside my head be disgusted with the thought of drinking alcohol, I've let myself down.

:rolleyes: yeah I got a problem :rolleyes:

mollypolly

:rolleyes:Yeah...you got a probelm Jo:rolleyes:

But no problem is insurmountable.
Talk to us...talk to DH...talk to yourself....talk to the flippin sky.....but come on girl.....we will help you beat this.

And lets have some fun while we do it:D;)

Good luck
Love Mollypollyxxxx