Alcohol self help thread II

Chrismojam

Hiya:D

Not been around for a bit....cos been feeling very low and really s**t!

STILL got this heavy cold/cough/sore everything....two weeks on:rolleyes: coupled with sore everything from falling down the sodding stairs...last time I try to be houseproud (:p trust me....if you knew me:rolleyes: )....while I'm off sick!

Hope everyone is ok....I will catch up on posts at some point.....I've been having one of my want to shut myself off episodes...which is why I've not been about.....misereable cow aren't I:D

One bonus of being this ill is....I've felt too low/ill to want to drink:D which is a good thing....even a hot toddy to get rid of the cold held no appeal:rolleyes: ...and THAT is just not known for ME!

Take care everyone....chat soon XXXXX

rose07

jayne.doe wrote:

Rose i have read a lot of your posts on the depression board and from that i know you are having a difficult time. What concerns me is drinking while you are on your meds this is a very dangerous thing to do. I would love to say something to make you feel better but i cant, life is very difficult sometimes. All i do know, and please take it from me, is that life is no better after a drink. As time goes by you have to drink more to numb you. You quickly turn to the bottle when anything worries you or upsets you. In the end you forget why you are even drinking. (maybe thats the point).

I dont honestly know whether drinking is habitual or a disease that you are born with. I dont really care. All i know is the fight to stop is horrendous, and i would say, as worse an addiction as any drug addict has to fight. Take care and please pm me even if its just you would like someone to listen to you. xx

hi jayne

yeah i guess i am havin a hard time at the moment and everythig is getting to me , i feel soo alone

life isnt no good after a drink your def right about that

but i know this sounds awful but i cant remember a time i havnt drank in the last weeks, i just cant elp it, it numbs the pain, it seems to help for a little but then it makes things worse

you are right i now what drink can do, i have seen it do some awful things even mates have died , i know the damage, yet i cant seem to stop

its awful im just soo stuck at the moment

thanks jayne for your support

xxx

rose07

beer2006 wrote:

Hi rose
I see you on the other thread sometimes, welcome to the dark side

Tell us how you drink and why you want to, have you tried stopping while drinking and how long have you been drinking too much, tell us as much as you want to.

hi beer how are you doing?

dark side eh, maybe i should make some darth vader noises :rotfl:

i drink whenever and wherever, to numb pain, i just dont really know how bad it is i constantly want to drink

Al_Mac

Been their rose Anyone you can talk to? Considered AA?

Has something happened to make you want to drink, to hide from?

You can run, you can hide, but honestly it will catch up with you and the drink just makes it worse.

Keep posting, keep talking, we listen. we've been there one way or another.

Al xx

rose07

thanks Al

I have considered AA, but half of me thinks everything is fine, i goe soo confused

i cant even remember things atm

ah as jayne says i am on meds which is bad enough but to drink with them i know is not right and wrong, but just cant help it i am even drinking now , when i know i shouldnt

lots of things have happened Al yeah, just its all built up now

i can feel im starting to go downhill right now because i have been drinking

so for that reason will love yas and leave yas for tonight, as once i feel like this i can get very down, so better go to bed

night night everyone

xxx

Al_Mac

Tip in the sink on the way. Be brave

lewt

Rose the best thing i can surgest is get yourself to an AA meeting as al asked. it was the only thing that could stopme, i couldnt stop me. it got to the point where it stopped working. my body was p1ssed but my head was not. i had a knack at getting p1ssed at the completely wrong moments too(at the begging to middle) at the end it was all the time. i kept trying to prove myself non alcoholic that i could controll the drinking. i tried bloody hard and found out to my kidneys and my marridge almost failure that i was. i had to except that. which was not easy to do. i thought i could carry on taking other mood/mind alturing chemicals.(from the doctor or the street) but i foudf i could not as i was running away from what the problem really was me i had to change my thinking and outlook on life. i like the acpronym I.S.M I Self Me thats what mt illness was all about. i thought i would be ok if only the world changed. i didnt know at the time it was me that had to change. the only was(and ive tried most of them) that i know is going to AA and practising the steps in every area of my life today.

somethings i learned are......

!) after the first drink i have no control over the ammount i take. and if i think i do its my alcoholic voice telling me lies. (its cunning like that)

2) once i had made the dession to have a drink it was like free fall, like a switch had been flicked. and i could lie to myself that i was only going to have one or to. be it session or drink. and i would quit tomorrow.

3) that i had always been restless irritable and discontent with my life and this was a factor in making me feel less than but also speacial and diferent, thinking i could dhange things by throwing a strop. being depressed. anxuios and all that goes with it. scared to go out side. i was never happy with what i had. friends toys as a kid you name it if i wanted it then i got it i didnt want it no more i wanted something ele.

i hope you find you way to AA and the program as it really has changed my life today. i dont need anything now to change my thinking a loving god is all i need to deal with things today. as i said i wish you well and truely hoope you find the fellowship, as to out it bluntly the other options are jails instutions and death in my opinion. pm anytime or if you wanna chat on msn thats ok too. also i have a copy of the AA big book on auido waiting for you if you want it.... Lewt.

Remember the first step is admitting you have a problem and you have done that, Well done! now think about getting the help needed to recover. try not to pick up a drink tomorrow and give AA a call. 0845 769 7555 we can help.

lewt

Ps God bless, you'll be in my prayers to night.

jayne.doe

rose07 wrote:

hi jayne

yeah i guess i am havin a hard time at the moment and everythig is getting to me , i feel soo alone

life isnt no good after a drink your def right about that

but i know this sounds awful but i cant remember a time i havnt drank in the last weeks, i just cant elp it, it numbs the pain, it seems to help for a little but then it makes things worse

you are right i now what drink can do, i have seen it do some awful things even mates have died , i know the damage, yet i cant seem to stop

its awful im just soo stuck at the moment

thanks jayne for your support

xxx

I have to say i dont think aa will help you. Your problem stems from this terrible depression you have its awful. I feel for you and there is nothing anyone can say or do that will help at the moment thats why you need the drink. I only know this coz i have been there. I just have to say it dosent help. In the long term you switch from one drug to another. (your meds). You need to understand how valued you are. Your self esteem will grow. Coz from what i see you are a good person and it takes time but you will realise that, drink wont do that for you. Trust me. I see your posts how many times do you help other people Rose.? You are not selfish you just need some time. Take some.:o your worth it.

lewt

janyne with respect i dont think you can tell anyone weather AA will work for them or the reasons to there drinking. as far as im consereced alcohol is a massive depressaint. and that could be the course of the other posts on other threads.

can i reffer you to brodevs post 2 pages back at the top. please. please dont get offended, but alcoholism is a matter of life and death and telling some you dont think a certain way of recovery could give the alcoholic voice in their head a nice little excuse to go drink themselves to death. im not just talking about rose here but anyone posting here or anywhere alse asking for help.
sorry but im passonate about helping others and i didnt think you post helped.... hope your ok btw.