Alcohol self help thread II

lewt

feelinggood wrote:

You wanted to share at an AA meeting?

i do share at most AA meetings i go to. But i wanted some of the older people to come and share abiout the program at C.A

lewt

Al_Mac wrote:

Beer, friends bought a chateau and some gites a couple of years ago, the children picked up the lingo easily, the dad picked it up reasonably easy, bacause it didn't bother him when he was wrong. The Mrs gets embarrased getting it wrong, so is behind.

But as I got thrown out of French at school for being carp, maybe not for me

i was made to stand outside of french for 3 years lesson in, lesson out. it always seemed more fun to launch a rubber at the people who would react the most wildly when it hit them than learn french. i can buy a pack of fags and a paper though. by talking aswell not just popinting. so 7 years in total was not lost compelety...

jacd

still here and still not drinking - though its absolutely killling me at times.

I just wish I wasnt addicted and then I could have just one glass and leave it at that.

I'm also eating much more!!! esp sweet stuff that I dont seem to be able to resist.

I think I have 'issues' and have been numbing them with the drink. Hmmn - might need to work on them - if only I knew what they were- or should I say which one was causing the bother cos I have so many.

beer - I'm with you on hte smallholding in France - you'd soon pick up the languge - you dont have any choice cos they'll only speak english as a last resort in the smaller places.

jacd

Al_Mac

Alcohol contains a lot of sugar, the reason I now eat choclate, a lot.

Issues or phobias, seems to be the case for most

lewt

hi jacd, they do say if you wanna know why you drink stop drinking.

for me i thought i drink cause of issuse's in my life. But i now know i drink cause im and alcoholic. an illness which is something the alcohol diagonised.
i can trace my alcoholic behavoir back to before picking up a drink or drugs.
The best place to go and learn about the illness and what to do to fix it on a daily basis is AA, for me. just hearing other people sharing stuff that i thought went through only my head. try it it might save your life.... my pride stopped me from going for so long. and if i had a few wshes one would be that i got there quicker...

good luck.

feelinggood_2

I'm hoping that when I eventually get help dealing with issues from my past, this problem will be easier to cope with. I think pretty much all of my negative behaviour has been me trying to find a way to take the pain away. Alcohol was the one that worked best, so it was the one I stuck with. I probably am just 'white knuckling' it as Lewt says, but I haven't got any choice at the moment - AA isn't equipt to help me with this.

Al_Mac

Now I think I became one. But my dad reckons that my family history have a gene. Apparently there is some belief it comes from my Norse ancestors, I've never looked for proof.

I just accept drinking isn't big or clever and the amount I need to make me brave enought to face life, just wasn't getting less

feelinggood_2

My mum thinks I was likely to pick up bad drinking habits as I was so aware of alcoholism from a young age. I was quite old before I made the link between alcoholism and my mums 'meetings'. She went a couple of times a week since I was very young, so I never really questioned it. First time I got drunk was about 4 or 5 - at a big picnic - they had a wine box, that I drank out of when no one was looking hehe.

lewt

feelinggood wrote:

I'm hoping that when I eventually get help dealing with issues from my past, this problem will be easier to cope with. I think pretty much all of my negative behaviour has been me trying to find a way to take the pain away. Alcohol was the one that worked best, so it was the one I stuck with. I probably am just 'white knuckling' it as Lewt says, but I haven't got any choice at the moment - AA isn't equipt to help me with this.

you dont know untill you try feelie, your just assuming. i told you of some of my past in pm's if you remember. and we have had similar experience's the program helps me except things like that and not let them things consume my thoughts any longer. i cant change anything thats happen all i can do is except it embrance it at times even and move forward to the life promised to me (and it is beyond my wildest dreams).

I have alsorts of excuse's as to why i drank, "2 way up the paranoia from smoking" ,"to block out nasty things that i had done to me", "to block out the nasty things that i did to people", "to make me feel good", "to relax from a hard day,week or month at work or home" " i've been dumped" , "i have to finish with some1 and i need courage to do it" and i lot of other things i will think of later.

I drank/used because i was'nt comftable in my own skin, i didnt like me. other people have things happen to them and they don't go on a 8 year non-stop bender like i did. i didnt know how to deal with life on life's terms. i'm doing alright today though. i dont read into myself to much. and i dont tell myself i'll never drink again. neither do i plan when i will drink.

I thought i was the only one that had had some of the feelings thoughts and been in some of the prediciments i had been in. how ego tisical of me. i'm one person there's huderds of peple, bottom line i thought i was specail and different from all the other people. i know that to be wrong today.

I could also not see how the fellowship's could help me. what would talking about something i didnt want to think about do????? but it did. im still surpised at just how long i lived in misery. dening myself a life i knew deep down i deserved. but today that way of life is optional.:T i i really dont wanna go back to that.

feelinggood_2

Have you ever had counselling or CBT?