Alcohol self help thread II

Murtle

Having spent many eveings reading my way through the whole of the first thread and this one, it has been an incredible rollercoaster ride, the highs and lows but most of all the support, care and pick me ups that have happened. Al Mac I wishing you all the best, family get togethers can be such a nightmare and yours doesn't sound fun, but you have the best allie in the world and you can always leave You have come so far, don't let them get you down.

M

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trafalgar_2

Al_Mac wrote:

Anyway wish me well :cool:

WELL..............:D

micheleen

WOW :eek:

You are in for busy weekend Al, but at least you're expecting the 'Spanish Inquisition'. Maybe Mrs Mac could take some of the heat off with a quiet word to sis and BIL , pointing out that too much attention will stress you and only make things harder for you . Maybe the same for father ?

Wishing you lots of luck, I'm sure you can survive it :A

ps Nothing pathetic there, talking about your fears can help to ease them

brodev

Al_Mac wrote:

Anyway wish me well and that I survive the start drinking weekend from hell:cool:

If you say that this is a "start drinking" weekend then you may and you may not survive it. (I honestly hope that you do) If, However, you say that no matter what happens TODAY I wont have a drink then you will survive TODAY. That is all that I can promise myself and all that I can offer you.
Although this may seem a little heartless (well it did to me when some said something similar to me) in actual fact if we can learn to concentrate on today life does become easier and we don't have tomorrow to worry about.

Al_Mac

Thanks brodev, think it was more a case of this is the sort of thing that could start me off, it wont, Mrs Mac wont let it

brodev

Al_Mac wrote:

Thanks brodev, think it was more a case of this is the sort of thing that could start me off, it wont, Mrs Mac wont let it

I hope neither will MR Mac
If I knew how to put in a smiley I would have put a blue winking one at the end of the above

ac

my turn then ? :rolleyes:


went to AA yesterday......didnt speak but exchanged some
contact numbers & msn addies

ive got to the point now that i cant wait for thursadays....
i love going, feeling like i belong, it dosent matter if my
share dosent make sence.... cause i no.... someone in the room
will understand and sneak i smile out of the side of their mouth...
there were some really funny shares yesterday.. we were
nearly crying with laughter over the stupid STUPID
stuff alcohol does to use and wot it can make us do...

i feel much calmer when ive been i meeting......
usually i have this 'thing, urge' feels like a flame lit inside me'
its hard to explain
always feel i need to be doing something but not sure wot

but when ive been a meeting its gone... flame gone out...

i feel peaceful, calmer... mellow.. its like the moment in
the matrix... when neo comes back to live and nijas off the bullets...
catches one... looks at it.. turns it around and sends it back...

i feel indestructable...........

i no ive been here before and its my second time of being dry
but this time i do feel different..
this time i can see a life without any kind of alcohol
last time was different...
i couldnt see .... not forever
this time i no i cant ever go back..... i can never be
'normal' were alcohol is concerned.. and i can handle that
its finally in my thick head.....
it will only take one drink to get me !!!!!!.....
because there never is one drink for me...i cant 'do' one drink
so if i dont do the first drink......i will be ok..
well more than ok..... a sober alcoholic xxxx
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went docs this mornin.......

the problem i was off sick with has been sorted for now
he asked me how i felt about returning... he dosent want
me to get stressed out... i said we wont no if i dont try....
dont think he wanted me to go back... hes given me till the 21st off
said see how i feel.....wants to see me in 2 weeks to see how im coping..
he asked me how ive been...... told him its been an emotional week..
told him wot OH had said to me re: telling him....... he reassured me
about the kids i told him it was OH's insecurites not mine(started crying)

told him this time i felt different and have support...
i am determined to stay sober......
forgot to tell him about rash (but its nearly gone)
forgot to tell him about my wishy washy head(but dont think
thats anything todo with the absence of alcohol)
forgot to tell him i aint eating yet.
o never mind......
at least at this rate i'll loose the weight ive put on through the alcoholism..


right thats me done......need another coffee now


xxxxxxxxx

jake2

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your a star babes give her a star tiger:T :T :T :T :T :T :T

micheleen

One star for ac coming up

Here you are hun so pleased with how you're doing

ac

o my......

wot abig one :eek: & sparkly too

well thankyou kind sir :rolleyes:

i do hope mr mac wont be jelious of my post being bigger than his