Alcohol self help thread II

RacyRed

Errrrrrrrr Spikey,

wot the hell you on about

gentlepurr

good morning all!

hope everyone is ok.

xx

Quickbrew_2

Morning Gentle - I am kind of here - in and out cos I'm working.

How's things with you? How long till your holiday now - are you looking forward to it? xx

gentlepurr

hiya quickie!:D

i'm supposed to be working too:D

not long to my hols now! went for jabs last week, and malaria tablets! £150 for yellow fever jabs, cos not available on nhs, then £68 for malaria tablets, because ds had a bad reaction to the cheaper ones last time, hells bells, it better all be worth it!

xx

Quickbrew_2

I'm sure it'll be worth it - anyway - you will be imune to everything now

Think I need a holiday too - somewhere warm - fed up with being cold! A complete break from usual triggers would be good atm.

Best get back to work tho - better start saving I think xx

gentlepurr

Quickbrew wrote:

I'm sure it'll be worth it - anyway - you will be imune to everything now

Think I need a holiday too - somewhere warm - fed up with being cold! A complete break from usual triggers would be good atm.

Best get back to work tho - better start saving I think xx

qb, i have been immune to everything for the last 10years chuck!:rotfl:

i am looking forward to my holiday, but i dont know what to expect, or how it will pan out with oh coming with us as well. dont know whether it will all just flow, or whether i will bite my tongue, or whether he will just do his own thing on his own, so its all a bit surreal tbh. at least it will be an experience, if nothing else:rotfl:

xx

Quickbrew_2

I suppose that's one way of looking at it! Hope it goes well and sometimes, when it's something you kind of dread - it always seems to go better than you think it will - hope so anyway. At least it will be neutral ground and a new environment for all of you. xx

gentlepurr

i've been thinking the same, usually when you're not looking forward to something, it turns out to be ebtter than you expected.

xx

beer2006

I no longer feel I can post on this thread.
For reasons that are my own, I cannot continue posting my feelings here, I hope that anyone that feels they need any sort of help, can continue to reach any of us on the addresses at the start of the thread.
None of us are going away.

What comes next is my own take on alcohol abuse and after that, a take from the other side, a person whose life has been subjected to alcohol abuse from her partner.

I wish you all the best and I hope you start and finish your journeys with happiness. This is not the end, this is just the end of my posting, I hope you all will carry it on.










It feels like its a tree growing out of the centre of me, that tree is my personal alcohol tree. Everything else on the outside is saying, you don't want to do it and you don't need it.
The tree in the middle is strong, it can push its way through anything and it keeps growing, I can't kill it and I can't stop it.
The tree is me, its the centre core of me, the bit of me I hate, the bit that makes me what I am.

Sometimes I cut a few twigs off, keep it down for a while, but I always know its there, I can feel its strong wood inside me.

If I feed the tree with thoughts of drinking, or I give it some alcohol, the tree takes over completely, sometimes with superhuman strength I can find some mind weedkiller and bash the tree back down and it goes and sulks, so I sulk too.
But its not often I can do this, the best thing I can do is keep away from alcohol, not give myself those opportunites for the tree to take over, not to be alone at home, to stay around people who I am scared I would hurt by drinking. The fear can sometimes put the tree into submission, for a while, it gives up and goes dormant, when its sure my fear has gone, it will come back......



And the other side




i feel a bit like the groundsman who is trying to chop down the tree that just keeps on growing back, no matter what i do, or have done, no matter what weedkiller i use, it has grown back and smothered the window to my heart. eventually, i have become old, and defeated and no longer am strong enough to cut that tree back so i can see the view beyond my window.

gentlepurr

i have thanked you for your post beer, but i cannot let this go with just a simple click on the thanks button. you have changed so many peoples lives by starting this thread many months ago. many of us have travelled long journeys with you, and shared our triumphs, and our heartaches here. we have laughed and cried together, and have been supportive of each other, unconditionally, when the chips have been down.

i would just like to say that i am the "other person" that beer has quoted above, and the hand of friendship that has been extended to me personally on this thread by people who have been struggling on the other side of the problem has overwhelmed me. you know who you all are, and i hope we can still remain friends on here, whatever the outcome of the thread, and i will still remain as a contact name on the first post.

beer, i wish you well on your journey, you deserve nothing but the very best.


thank you beer.

snuggles,

gentlepurr
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