lilmissmups moving on and hopefully upwards diary!

Fire_Fox

lilmissmup wrote: »

Awww hun i really cant imagine how hard it is for you having him there, my ex left the day we split as i couldn't bear to have him in the house with me and not "be with me" although he then tried to say i made him leave, yes maybe but i did it for my emotional well being, do think maybe if he had stayed we could have talked about stuff again but i doubt it.

Keep chatting on here to me

Once he moves out I really don't think I will ever see him again. I cried all evening yesterday and all day today on and off. I wanted to be calm and nice by the time he got in but I am in pieces now.

lilmissmup

Awwww *big hugs*.

Whats the sleeping arrangement? Can you sneak off to bed and pretend to be asleep so you don't have to see him tonight?

Fire_Fox

Sleeping arrangements are 'normal' in every sense. I tried to hide in bed last night, but he always knows I have been crying. He is home now just got caught up, but your mind runs riot! Thanks for caring.

lilmissmup

God that must be hard on you too.

You know i am around if you need to chat, sadly i have seen loads of MSE regulars have relationship problems over the last year. :rolleyes:

I am praying next year is better than this one for me and a lot of others especially as I have had other !!!! this year to deal with too not just the break up :rolleyes:

Fire_Fox

In many ways it's easier, some of the time I can pretend everything is fine. I am sure next year will be good for you, if you are brave enough to let it be. You have ideas of moving and/ or studying you should make a change.

stacy

That book looks interesting lilmiss, i like the title. if i ever split up with my bf ill be reading that with a tub of ice cream lol And with him playing xbox like he is that day will be sooner than i think! Really fricken annoys me!!!! he is not 10 he is 26! I finished work at 10 all i want to do is chill and watch tv.

lilmissmup

Stacy my ex used to play xbox all the time but it was in our living room but when he got his laptop he just sat in our spare room and it was even worse as he just started playing second life (like online sims) and thats when he really started to shut me out :rolleyes:

I am terrified of actually making any more changes though FF I know i shouldn't think like this but if i move away theres no chance for us.....not that there is anyway. But i still really want us to get back together.

Its 2 months today since we split so i am feeling a bit low sorry. I haven't spoken to him since Tuesday but text him this morning asking how he was, no reply though yet.

wendz86

Even though you are down as it has been two months you do sound so much more positive in general. Also sounds like you are being a great support to other people in a similar situation. Just keep going!

Fire_Fox

(((((hugs))))) Wendz86 is right, you are helping others (me for one!) work through a similar situation.

lilmissmup

Thanks Wendz.

I am not wandering round like a zombie these days at least. Just dreading hearing he is with someone else as scared i will go back to how i was when that happens

I spent £130 on my eyes yesterday, £20 on the test which i will get back from work and got a new pair of glasses and a decent pair of prescription sunglasses as i have some cheapy ones.

I got told my pupils are 3 times bigger than a normal persons :rotfl: I am weird lol