The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 4

DEBTMONKEY1A

Slight urge 4-30-5-30...passed on drinking some fresh apple juice!

Other 1/2 amazingly 95% back to normal.....stopping the prozac (which can INCREASE anxiety) & increasing other is working brilliantly!

AF for me today!

Miss_Piggy_2

Cutting down/ Giving up August Challenge!

Days
115K 3/31(no target)
69Chick 5/14
Bluenose 4/20
Budget Babe 8/1
Debtmonkey1A 7/21
Different Corner 4/14
Fayjmck 7/31
Fedupandskint 8/30
Foreverhopeful 3/10
Geranium72 7/20
Grey Pilgrim 6/30
Maman 5/10
Mari 0/16
Miss Piggy 13/31
Mollypolly 14/31
Mookyboy 2/16
Price is Right 3/11
Samandsheryl 2/22
Skintscottishgirl 2/24
Time2GrowUp 2/12 (left challenge but welcome back anytime!)
Wanna Bee Free 5/8
Winebox 5/10
Yellowmonkey 4/11

Units
40SM 13/62 3 days
BarshamHillbilly 82/125

Days Pledged : 412
Actual : 116

Units Pledged: 187
Actual : 95

Miss_Piggy_2

Evening all!

Just updated the list - a few absentees who haven't updated in a while? Hope you are all ok?

Eselt - don't let small minded people get to you. They cannot see beyond the ends of their noses and obviously cannot see how far you've come and how hard you've worked. Does make us all realise though how much we have at stake. Lots of ((hugs))

DebtMonkey - glad to hear OH is improving

Cazza - you are doing amazingly! Are you feeling any better today?

BHB - I'm keeping my eye on that figure in your signature you know! Think I may have to bring in MP with her whip!!!!

I had ANOTHER wobbly moment earlier. Had the urge to send OH up shop for wine. It was a struggle but managed to get through it (lots of soda and lime!). WHY is it getting harder!? Argh!

Miss P
xx

cazzasmazza

Hi all,

I just needed to post to get a few thing off my chest. I was so tired this afternoon I had to go to bed and I slept for 4 and a half hours!!! :eek: Blimey.

Anyway, my OH and I had been planning to go to Swindon gay pride today. Obviously due to my comatose state, our afternoon trip didn't happen. I felt a bit guilty, so I agreed to go tonight. We got there at about 7.30pm after a mad rush to get ready (I was still a bit sleepy!).

Urghhh, we got there. In the past I've loved going to gay prides in various locations - Manchester, Birmingham, etc. and those were much larger than the Swindon one, which is tiny by comparison. But I couldn't cope with it. I lasted 10 minutes. I felt like my head was going to explode and I was going to have a panic attack.

There were swarms of !!!!ed up people who'd been drinking all day, hanging around, pushing past me, dancing about, loud costumes, loud music, litter and mess, people everywhere I looked holding cans and bottles of booze and there were beer tents and bars galore.

Add to the mix that I've never really integrated into the large group of my OH's friends, (they have all known eachother for over 15 years, so although they are nice and say hello, that is as far as it goes - I'm never part of their conversations or can laugh with them about their history, as I wasn't part of it - hope that makes sense). I don't think I've ever felt so isolated and panicky in my life.

My OH had to take me to one side, while I had a bit of a melt-down and I persuaded her to stay and say I wasn't feeling well and I left and drove back home and here I am, posting this sorry post.

Panic has subsided now I'm home. Feeling upset still, feeling guilt for leaving so soon, feeling embarrassment for being such a basket case, feeling alone and rather pathetic too.

Funnily enough, I don't want to have a drink. I'm feeling resentful and bitter. Resentful that I've let it get me into this sorry mess in the first place. I think I'd choke on it if I tried.

So I'm in a bad place at the moment. Trying to deal with my physical difficulties during my dry week has been hard enough, now I've got a f*cked up head to deal with too.

Thanks for listening. I just needed to vent and write it down. There's so much more I want to say, but it's all such a mess in my head, I wouldn't know where to start.

Hugs,
Caz
xxxxx

Miss_Piggy_2

Caz,

Lots of ((hugs)). Please please ease up on yourself. You have to remember you are taking away a prop that you have been used to for so so long. And its only been a few days. I saw clips of the gay pride thing on tv and it looked very busy - I don't cope well with those situations myself!

Why not run yourself a hot bubble bath, light some candles and just lay back, close your eyes and relax. You've got so much going on, tons of things running through your head....you need to ease up.

Take care

Miss P
xx

glasgowgirl

Hey Caz,
Sorry to hear how you're feeling. You must be really drained if you're needing all that sleep in the daytime - guess it's been an intense week with so much going round in your head.
I'm here if you want to chat.
xx

115K

Cazzasmazza - sorry you had such a stressy day. I want to go to Gay Pride and Notting Hill Carnival and New Year's Eve in London but I get really panicky with big crowds sometimes too.

DEBTMONKEY1A wrote: »

Other 1/2 amazingly 95% back to normal.....stopping the prozac (which can INCREASE anxiety) & increasing other is working brilliantly!

That is good news.:T

I am doing terribly, still only on 3 days. I feel like I should give up.

glasgowgirl

Don't give up, 115k. Any AF days are better than none. Stay with it.
xx

glasgowgirl

God, I'm bored tonight. Without booze the evenings seem so long. Can't seem to settle to anything. Tried reading the papers, mags, a book. Started watching a film, then switched to a DVD. Restless and not sure why.

xx

Miss_Piggy_2

glasgowgirl wrote: »

God, I'm bored tonight. Without booze the evenings seem so long. Can't seem to settle to anything. Tried reading the papers, mags, a book. Started watching a film, then switched to a DVD. Restless and not sure why.

xx

Oh I know that feeling! When you're drinking the evening seems to fly by! Now I'm not drinking I find myself looking at the clock and being amazed by how early it still is! The good thing is, I've read more books in the last 6 weeks than I have in the last YEAR AND the tea-time washing up gets done!