The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

onestep

Juju how're you doing? I've had a temp rise this morning (13dpiui) so my head is all over the place again. I'm not going to test again until tomorrow now. Seeing just the one line makes me feel so dreadful. I spoke to my mum via Skype last night (my parents live in Portugal) & she of course asked how it was going. When I said it more than likely hadn't worked she was so disappointed it made me feel even worse... & I wish I hadn't told her at all. If we do any more treatments I will keep it quiet I think. Telling people it's a no-go just rubs it in.

jujugaboo

I am a bit better today. OH took my out for lunch yesterday and I just ended up crying in the place. I texted everyone my result and all the lovely messages make me feel worse and cry more. It's hard to keep it from everyone as it's such a big part of your life. AF hasn't turned up yet, I kinda hoping it doesn't and the test was wrong. I have stopped my pesseries and steroids. I don't check my temp rise much but it has been higher. I hope it's not all over for you and there is some hope. X

chickpea

Hope lives...

jujugaboo

Oh AF has turned up now!.

Primmer

Huge Hugs juju x

chickpea

Sorry JuJu - for a moment, I thought a double miracle might be on the cards, but no.

Hope you get halfway useful feedback from the clinic at least and know where you stand as regards next steps.

Time to crack a decent bottle of wine methinks..failing that, any bottle of wine..

I'm having a little glass or two of red tonight - not because AF is here but because I'm cracking under the 2ww strain..

onestep

Juju I'm so very sorry AF found you. Get that wine open & join chickpea.

I'm going to have a glass too I think. I've had the odd cramp today.. Not reading anything into it though. Had some nausea today too, but that's from eating too many HM choc brownies

onestep

Well there we are. AF found me too.

Winky,_The_House_Elf

So sorry Juju and onestep.

I'm afraid I'm back in here too. Our little miracle has come to an end.

I had spotting, and as it was just a tiny bit, more a smear and brown I didn't panic but still got it checked out.

The scan showed no heartbeat. I was 8 weeks along. The world stopped still, all I could hear was DH howling like an animal in pain.

2 days later I am waiting for nature to take its course. If it doesn't they'll do an ERPC.

Why does life have to be so unfair?

lisawood78

Oh ladies, I am so so sorry.
This roller coaster sucks no matter how many times you jump on board.
I am so sorry for all of you, hugs for you all. Try to take some time out to grieve and move on only when you feel you are ready/can do so.

LW78