The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

QQuaver

sarahs999 wrote: »

Every day of the pregnancy and for some time after, until various hormonal things settle down. Bleargh.

That's a lot of injections:shocked:
But it'll be worth it in the end:o

jujugaboo

toniq wrote: »

Lol Juju u will love this, i'll let u post it if u want as i'm laughing too hard! there's a comp on their site!
http://www.crystalspring.co.uk/competitions.php

xxxxxx

LOL, someone has already posted it (damn those newbies), hopefully you will win if you have entered, I have.

XXX

nichart20

sarahs999 wrote: »

Um......


I just got a BFP!

:j Congratulations :j x x

chickpea

Congrats Sarah -

What a lovely surprise. I do hope this one is a sticky one.

I'm pleased for you (and a big bit jealous. But I'm almost too tired to feel jealous anymore..)

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I'm CD18 - still no +ve OPK but a strong line, so it's imminent. We're DTD every other day until I can say for certain it's a +ve. We're both feeling a bit 'meh' about it all this month, but we'll keep at it.

Had some 'false hope' last night. I broke out an OV test AND a IC test in a plain packet (that I ripped open by accident.) It had a blue bit on it, not green. green (IC HPTs are usually Blue and IC OPKs are usually green). So I peed on both just out of interest and got a double line on both. Just for a minute I thought..could it be?..but then I tested again and of course the answer was 'no', It was just a blue OPK that slipped into the mix in my 'fertility bag'. Oh well - false hope is better than no hope I suppose.

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Feeling gloomy today.

I'm supposed to be going to a (direct sales style) party tonight - but I'm going to bail out. The hostess is heavily pg, why put myself through it?

I had a meet up with my old NCT groups. I overheard one unintentionally tactless comment from one heavily pg NCT competitive mum to another heavily pg NCT competitive mum: "Oh Carol, you're the last one again!" (they've all now had their second round of babies, with Carol due next month).

I did say "Not quite" under my breath. They didn't hear me though. Kind of symbolic really, I feel like there's no-one wants to hear me right now.) Then I went to cry in the toilets and it sent me into a tailspin of depression that hasn't lifted since.

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GP's tomorrow (weight clinic - not going well, and I don't know why), acupuncture on Thurs night, GPs again on Friday (needing valium right around now) - and I also need to do the CD21 blood test at the hospital on Fri) and then reflexology again on Tues.

My husband, my acupuncturist, my reflexologist, my GP, my nurse, you lot on here, and two of my friends - these are what I regard as my support system at the moment.

Thank you to all of you!

Murray

Congratulations Sarah!! :j:j Fab news. Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy. :D

Good luck Juju, I've got my fingers crossed for you.

Keep up the bd'ing Chickpea!


I'm picking up my new car on Friday which I'm ridiculously excited about! I cant concentrate on work this week at all. It was my one AF arriving purchase! Obviously I would prefer a bfp but if one had come along, I wouldnt be getting my nice new car so that's a little consolation for them taking so long to get my cyst removal op booked in!

sarahs999

Bless Chickpea you sound so sad. Have a dodgy hug:grouphug:

These TTC roads are so long and complicated. I was looking back at my charts and I realised that with each successive miscarriage I had remembered fewer and fewer dates - I know exactly how old my child would have been from my first mc, but my third one? No idea even when it was that I got pg, let alone what the due date was.

It's the same kind of thing as being around pg women when you're not. It's tiring and you learn to distance yourself completely to stop it hurting, but then you isolate yourself and that feels sad too.

xx

Chocolate_Cookie_Monster

Hugs Chickpea. You are proper in the doldrums at the moment aren't you. But your positive OPK should be your beacon guiding you (sounds very corny he he).

I know how you feel about not being heard. I'm afraid I have no answers for that. I seem to shut myself away too which probably isn't the best thing to do - but usually after a good cry and a brush of myself down I pick myself up and hold my head high just carry on.

I watched OBEM last night - I shouldn't but I can't not. There was a woman on there (they don't talk about fertility much - probably too taboo) and she said that when she was trying she thought every symptom even an itchy chin was a sign of PG (which made me laugh). And then she annoyed the !!!! out of me by saying - "I really wanted a baby and if you want something hard enough you will get it". So it made me question whether I want this enough but I realised I do. I DO!!!! And then at midnight last night I could hear (just) the newborn baby in my next door neighbours house screaming and I smiled knowing that I will have a good nights sleep for now:rotfl:. I have that to come (hopefully)

Murray

Chocolate_Cookie_Monster wrote: »

And then she annoyed the !!!! out of me by saying - "I really wanted a baby and if you want something hard enough you will get it".

I read in the paper yesterday that Mel B said the same thing when she announced her pregnancy in Ok or whatever mag it was...it really grated with me too! :mad:
If only it was that easy I'd be a mother, a millionaire and married to Jonny Wilkinson (:shhh: dont tell DH!)

Chocolate_Cookie_Monster

Murray wrote: »

If only it was that easy I'd be a mother, a millionaire and married to Jonny Wilkinson (:shhh: dont tell DH!)

Or David Beckham

Murray

chickpea wrote: »

Feeling gloomy today.

I'm supposed to be going to a (direct sales style) party tonight - but I'm going to bail out. The hostess is heavily pg, why put myself through it?

BTW, I'd bail that one too...I hate those things and always feel obliged to buy more overpriced junk that I'll never use! You could use the spare evening to have a bit of 'me' time instead. You could stay in and watch a feel good film or get a magazine/book and have a nice steamy bubble bath