The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

jiblets1

Sorry to hear your BFN, lilo, but I'm glad you aren't having too hard a time of it.

Well SHE has arrived today. I'm quite relieved actually, as she's been promising to arrive for over a week now, and the PMT symptoms were just getting too much for me. So now that can stop.
So on the 20th next month I go for my TIC appointment (private) to figure out what we will do for our treatment. Our consultant has already told us that she would rather do ICSI due to OH's morphology, but if there are enough eggs she will do an ICSI/IVF split. When I had my date with wandy and the nurse saw one mildly polycystic ovary, she discussed with me the possibility of hyperstimulation and what that may entail, but I haven't seen the consultant yet since we found out about my ovary. Most of my hormones are fine, but the one hormone (don't know what it's called) that will reveal something about the one PCO isn't back yet.

I don't really know what to expect from here on in, so I was wondering if you lot with some experience can think of questions I should have ready to ask the consultant. I always find if I haven't thought something through I don't know what I should ask until it's too late and I have left already...

ginvzt

Lilo, sorry to hear it was not some more happy news.

AF is not here yet, but I am sure it will be on its way soon enough. I am actually quite glad it stayed away over the weekend with m-i-l being there. (it can be extremely painful and I do feel sick some times).

Is it only me, but as the time passes, I looking forward less to the possible bfp at the time AF due and more to the next month to get on with the treatment/monitoring/etc. Well, if all goes to plan, the next cycle (due to start any day) will be my last one on Clomid and then if I loose enough weight (which is not really shifting), it is IVF. That is if get my next consultant appointment finally (it was due to be in May, but I still haven't got a date for it, and with me taking a month off, I hope I can see him in June before we go away in July).

Sorry to ramble this morning, but I am early at work, and managed to escape without seeing m-i-l (but then I left home 6:50). I might be a good girl and do half a day today and see them this afternoon before they fly off.... But I better now (you see me being torn in two pieces?)

ginvzt

Where is everyone??? I need a good telling off and to take my mind of things.

I don't know what is going on with my body - it is CD29 and I have no symptoms AT ALL!!!! None I could assign to AF being on its way or anything else. For last how many months I used to have at least few days of spotting before AF, different niggles, etc. This month - nothing. Last non-clomid cycle was 26 days. It is annoying. I want to know!!!!!

(I know, AF will appear now suddenly with no warning as soon as I stand up from my chair)

toniq

Could be a good sign! Had another mser last yera complaining she felt normal af pains and was upset ivf had failed, bingo she had twins, there is no real way to know till af is late and u have tested! xxx fingers croosed for u! xxx

If u wear white that's guaranteed to get ur af here! xxxx

jiblets1

ginvzt wrote: »

Is it only me, but as the time passes, I looking forward less to the possible bfp at the time AF due and more to the next month to get on with the treatment/monitoring/etc.

I know just what you mean ginvzt, OH and I have hardly BDed the latter end of this cycle (another long one, 44 days this time). We just don't have the oomph at thh moment, I think it's because we have decided to go private, it almost feels not worth the effort until then...

By the way, everyone, it's infertility awareness week. I'm posting links to various blogs I read on my facebook account. It should help spread the awareness (and it could also counteract the fb pregnancy anouncements a little!)

liloandstitch

Hi, thanks for the good wishes, as I said I really wasnt expecting it to be positive so I wasnt disappointed.

I hope you get good news ginvzt, we could do with some more good news on here

Lilo

ginvzt

Don't expect any good news from me. I did a test this morning - negative (not that I expected anything else, to tell the truth). I am starting to get some cramps, so I think AF is on its way, just a bit later this month. Well, with all the travelling and the stress of m-i-l, no wonder it is late.

I am just waiting for it to show up now, so I can ring the hospital for my next scan. Which, if AF comes by tomorrow morning, would fall on Saturday - and I am sure they wouldn't do it then, so would they get me in for Friday or for Monday - who knows.

jiblets1

I had a funny day in work today. I ended up losing my cool with a colleague. I stand by going against what he was saying, but I'm not very proud of the way I spoke to him. So I spoke to another colleague, and said I didn't know how to apologise, cos I still thought he was wrong, but I was sorry for how I said it.

Then a few minutes later I went down to get myself a glass of water, and a few of my colleagues were in there with the door shut talking about how I just lost it. Now that's a little annoying, but I suppose kinda fair enough. But they shut up when I walked in, and didn't talk to me about it. And the one who was actually talking when I went in is not only a colleague, but a good friend of mine too.

I feel now like I'm being a bit of a big baby, but I was definately really upset this morning. And I'm still p***ed off. I found time to apologise to the one I was mean to, and he was great, said sorry for his part in it too. But the ones I should feel easiest to talk to I have just avoided all day. And I should be going out with her tonight, and I guess now we're not - cos I haven't mentioned it, and neither has she.

I don't know if this is me being mental. This is because with all the ttc stress, my work was making things so much worse, and I found I couldn't deal with anything at all when work was bad.
Now we've had a new boss, and I feel that she's making such positive changes to our work and it helps me deal with my life and ttc issues so much better. But other members of staff are far less positive about her. I think maybe they're just afraid to change, but I'm starting to wonder if they can all see something I can't because I really need this to be a good change.

Is ttc making me blind because I can't handle anything else bad? Does anyone else have experiences like this?

toniq

jiblets, ttc is stressful, i have good and bad days and am highly volatile at the best of times, i have to physically take a step back and go spend time with my dog to calm me down, i wouldn't fret too much, if she is a good friend she should underrstand that your under a lot of pressure, hope u did go out and hope today is better for u xxx

ginvzt

jiblets, we all have days off.... Some days are good, some days are bad.

And as for the news, AF showed up this morning, so I am starting my last cycle of Clomid. Got my scan booked for May 10th and I am on half dose (25mg) this time in the hope that it will not result in another ridiculous number of eggs (I think it was 8 feasible last time!!!!)

Lilo - are you still waiting for the witch to show up?...