6 July DFW Chat Yes, it's Monday Again!

spud30

bookseller1980 wrote: »

I'm the same - if things are going too well or I've had a lots of nice times I just wait for what is going to go wrong to compensate.
Although just lately I get out of bed expecting nothing to go right. It's a horrible way to live!
Sorry.

You could be describing me there Bookie

Lucifa73

becky_rtw wrote: »

Guys - do you feel that way because you feel like you dont deserve to be happy perhaps so you sabotage the good times too ensure you are not??

I still have good times Becky but I guess I know that life can't be like that all the time. I don't sit thining I had a good day yesterday so I'm due some carp. Just sometimes my vivid and overactive imagination paints a black fantasy instead of a white one:o:confused:

And the whole time there is a rational side to me telling not to be so flipping stupid...

Voices in my head/split personality - maybe I should call some men in white coats:eek:

beanielou

Huggs to all those who need them~esp Bunny,Bookie Maz,Luc & EBQueen

Really tired at the mo & struggling a bit.Oh joy.

Maz~Glad Erin is ok~no news on house?
Can u get time to fill in forms for council?
Cant believe Rach is only 30!!

Raining here so much earlier there has been flooding.
Thunder & lightening & power cuts.
So the groud will be the usual mudbath for T in Park.
Wish Id done B&B now but best not as so low in energy.

Catch u all later xxx

bookseller1980

becky_rtw wrote: »

Guys - do you feel that way because you feel like you dont deserve to be happy perhaps so you sabotage the good times too ensure you are not??

I actually think that I deserve to be happy but have no hope of ever being so.
When DD was having the baby I used to store up the things thatwere going wrong in my life as a sort of insurance that all would go well with her delivery. I know it's mad.

Send the men in white coats to me when they have sorted you Luc!

becky_rtw

Fair enough - I was just wondering - think some of my friends are like that too - I'm a glass half full kind of gal, just lucky I guess although I am very naive so it has its downsides

Burlesque_Babe

Back from my teacher training course. Handed in my research project at the end of the professional discussion - it's a week early so here's hoping it is all ok! Just got a couple of lesson plans to do and pop into the practical folder and hand that in at the last session next week then that's a bit more of the qualification done.

Bun - glad you are having a good time - apart from the heckling - whoops!

If I feel everything is going well I sometimes sit and start analysing everything in my head trying to find stuff that might go wrong. I know OH can be a pain, but I don't feel that is something that can go 'wrong' because I know how to handle him. If I feel really buzzy and happy (even though I've no money etc!!) I think - why do I feel like this? I don't have anything exciting happening in my life to be excited about!! So perhaps - yes, I look for things to sabotage how I feel -probably because then if there is anything it won't be so much of a huge come down.

Pooky

becky_rtw wrote: »

Guys - do you feel that way because you feel like you dont deserve to be happy perhaps so you sabotage the good times too ensure you are not??

I can relate to that. I'm never aware that I do it but can look back and see that I was instrumental in the "bringing it down" part. Strange

Luc - loving the blog - keep it up - it's something I wish I could have done a few years back to sort out what was going on in my head....I'm a real bottler of emotions, the day I phoned my best friend and told her I'd left my ex husband she was shocked.....said she hadn't an inkling that I was unhappy....keeping things that well hidden it's good for you and creates a lot of demons.... Did you find a way of talking to your mum at all?

In other news - DH has been signed off for another week and they're sorting an MRI scan :eek:

E-bay_queen

Im back.
Im moving out the family home as he wont move out. Moving in with a friend till i get some money together and get a flat or something. He wonts me to stay here but i cant cos I cant stand to look at home. He make me feel sick! I trying to stay Strong But last night it got a bit to much and just broke down while i was having a walk down the beach. We got a house together, debts, bills and just book a bloody hoilday as well to cuba.

Need to cancelled the holiday and get the Debts cleared asap.

(Land_of)_Maz

I decided what to do about Rach's present.....

we have a friend who does all Rachel's beauty treatment, so am sending her a cheque to cover Rach to go for a pedicure or something... no point asking Rach to go anywhere cheaper as she'd never slum it at a college etc, and i know she only really like to go this one woman, so i'll send her a cheque and that's it sorted..

i've drafted a voucher type thing that can go in with her card..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL



Please use this voucher next time you go see our chum Laura

Treat your 30 year old feet to a…. PEDICURE


Lots of love from Maz n Erin


Xx x xX

Lucifa73

Pooky wrote: »

I can relate to that. I'm never aware that I do it but can look back and see that I was instrumental in the "bringing it down" part. Strange

Luc - loving the blog - keep it up - it's something I wish I could have done a few years back to sort out what was going on in my head....I'm a real bottler of emotions, the day I phoned my best friend and told her I'd left my ex husband she was shocked.....said she hadn't an inkling that I was unhappy....keeping things that well hidden it's good for you and creates a lot of demons.... Did you find a way of talking to your mum at all?

In other news - DH has been signed off for another week and they're sorting an MRI scan :eek:

Thanks Pooky. Haven't spoken to Mum yet. I think I'll wait until I'm at theirs in August and broach the subject then. Really not feeling strong enough for her 'advice' just yet. Plus I know once I tell her its something that is likely to be thrown back at me over and over again for the rest of my life:rolleyes:

Sorry to hear about DH - what happened? I think I missed it?