**Weekend Chat Thread 27/28 June **

bookseller1980

sallyx wrote: »

No need to feel Scared Bookie....think positive, about your new life, new beginnings and a happy future with less stress

I'm a bit like a pendulum at the moment. If it all works out it will be everything you say.:D
But in the meantime I have no job, no income, a big mortgage and will probably have no house!:eek:

Burlesque_Babe

morning all.........yawn.........trying to get a few bits done before it gets too hot. Minimum of 27 or 28 here today bored of it now :rolleyes:

becky_rtw

Well had a quick nap and some sports drink to re-hydrate and I feel fine now

I love my hamster

sallyx

Is it really that hot with you BB, is the sun out?

daphne_descends

Sorry for being and posting like an idiot last night. God I am stressed. Just stressed. Too much going on, too much has gone on.

I hate this multi-quote, it doesn't work, there is supposed to be one from Bookie here - Bookie thank you, I am okay, I really am, things just build up a bit, they are calmer today I might have my head in the sand a bit in that regard but one thing at a time, right?

tbsouth2004 wrote: »

oh DD loads of love and stuff I know exactly where your coming from I feel the same most of the time not gone out with the girls cause thought should save the money but hubby went out anyway keep your chin up x I am a sad no poster usually but don,t like the tone of your message I want good things for you be strong .

Thank you xx I don't recognise your name, you should post more

becky_rtw wrote: »

DD - you wont be able to go from a standing start to running 5k in three weeks unless you have been very fit recently - however, you will make progress in that time.

The key is to set realistic goals - even its only to run the last 1k and then use this race as a motivation to get started and a notch on the way to better things

Hope you feel better soon!!!

(I have a hangover )

Becky, thanks - ot sure on my fitness levels really, not great but better than, say, six months ago - I guess I'll just do what I can, it is a Race for Life so I shouldn't get hung up on how much I run but part of me goes into a self-sabotage mode because I used to be good - hard to admit to being back to a beginner, if you see what I mean. I am going to go for a run when I have posted this so I'll see what I can do.

jinky67 wrote: »

A few things spring to mind.........

• you are stressed
• you may have a thyroid problem........my old boss sounded a lot like you, never able to switch off, mind scatty, turns out she had an over active thyroid.....please get it checked out
• or you are depressed.....but haven't reached the admitting it to yourself stage:cool: cos I was very much like that before i admitted it to myself

please go the Docs and get checked out hun:A:grouphug:

Jinky! :kisses3: where are you these days? Hmm stressed, yes, depressed? Oh probably. V hard to admit though. I have had a few, uh, close to the edge moments of despair but then when they're over it's SO easy to ignore and pretend it didn't really happen. Something has to give but what?

And Sally thank you for caring, I wish I was on more to be honest to try to give advice to others, I do read but often just lurk I hate feeling like a leech...

OH is getting annoyed because I said I would run twenty minutes ago so I am going NOW, and it's getting warm... maybe it will clear my mind a bit

Burlesque_Babe

sallyx wrote: »

Is it really that hot with you BB, is the sun out?

they were saying on the radio that it would be that today - yep. Sun isn't out yet, it is quite overcast. I'd say it is about 18 or 19 at the moment but the sun is behind the clouds and I don't think it will be long before it burns through. It was incredibly sunny when I got up at 7.

I'm off to take Charlie out now before it gets too hot. I'll have to stay away from the park and a couple of other places as it's a race for life today and the place will be heaving.

Ames

DD, I know that feeling and you really need to get help. It is so easy to forget the really bad moments, but if you do that for too long they'll just get worse. It's so much better and easier to get help now than wait until the despair is constant and you do something you'll regret.

Bookie, I know how you feel too, just about every decision I've ever made I've swung between it being right and it being wrong. But you've made it now, and you've decided after a lot of thought that it's right, and so it will be.

I wish the weather was nice here, it's all overcast. Then again, I'm taking my sister out for a driving lesson and would hate it to be nice and sunny while I'm stuck in a car! So I'm hoping it'll get nice after the lesson so I can sit out for a bit.

schoolrunmum

Oh dear,just seen that I posted at 1.46am ..never a good idea to post when pished! Seriously hungover now......

Hey DD- I LIKE YOU- you post away as much as you like!!!

InkyCats20

Morning everyone :hello:

Misty & very muggy here

daphne_descends wrote: »

Why do I always share stuff when no one is here? I did this last flippin weekend too. And I have no place here anyway, not really... am I the last person to go to a meet? Do I hide too much? Am I not honest enough? I don't feel liked. But why should I be? :rotfl:

As I've said before DD, I don't "know" you as well as some of the other posters but you've as much right to be here as everyone else & of course we all like you, that's why we're all concerned when you seem so down - have dodgy hug :grouphug:
With regards to being the last person to go to a meet, I haven't been yet, even booked the hotel for the Manchester meet & cancelled 2 days before 'cos I wasn't feeling brave enough :eek: & I think that the Manchester meet was only Spud & Bookie's first time.
So we'll look forward to seeing you Weymouth in August or the one after that in Bristol in September - yes ?

bookseller1980 wrote: »

Today I have church :A, then out to lunch. Them my brownie leader mate is coming round and we are going to apply for the registrar job and sit in the garden and put the world to rights.

Go for it Bookie - I did my job application yesterday afternoon

daphne_descends

Ames wrote: »

DD, I know that feeling and you really need to get help. It is so easy to forget the really bad moments, but if you do that for too long they'll just get worse. It's so much better and easier to get help now than wait until the despair is constant and you do something you'll regret.

Bookie, I know how you feel too, just about every decision I've ever made I've swung between it being right and it being wrong. But you've made it now, and you've decided after a lot of thought that it's right, and so it will be.

I wish the weather was nice here, it's all overcast. Then again, I'm taking my sister out for a driving lesson and would hate it to be nice and sunny while I'm stuck in a car! So I'm hoping it'll get nice after the lesson so I can sit out for a bit.

Thanks Ames, I know you are right - I feel I have lived 'with' depression my whole life and usually spot the warning signs, and for the last few years I usually have felt able to tackle it in the early stages, when that 'can't be bothered' feeling is just beginning rather than dominating. With a baby I always feel scrutinised by doctors etc as it is and you fear giving them ammunition. I have tattoos and I have scars from self-harm as a teenager (something I really HAVE left behind) and just feel so judged.

schoolrunmum wrote: »

Oh dear,just seen that I posted at 1.46am ..never a good idea to post when pished! Seriously hungover now......

Hey DD- I LIKE YOU- you post away as much as you like!!!

Awww thanks SRM, I like you too hope the hangover eases, they always seemed worse to me in hot weather <distant memory>

Ok. I feel sick but going to say it anyway. Then am REALLY going out there, had to help OH get DS ready, they've gone on a boy's trip to the park. A month ago I was pregnant and I had my booking in appointment and was going to book my scan... then it ended. Physically was rough, mentally tried to focus on the good stuff, my god it has made me appreciate DS about ten billion times more and how much he still needs me, how much HE is still a baby... so tried to focus on moving on and changing my life for the better. Holiday was healing, OH and I talked about it a lot, but think we tried to leave it behind, if you see what I mean. We went to Weymouth one day and when it was time to drive back to the cottage (an hour away) I just couldn't get in the car. I told him to take DS and keep him safe and just leave me there. I shouted at him to get in the car and to please drive off and leave me there with nothing, nothing, and just go. I have no idea what I was planning. I wasn't really thinking, I just wanted my baby safe and happy and not with a sad mummy stopping now as I am crying and maybe running (walking :rolleyes: ) will clear my mind. I am sorry. It is a beautiful day, not a day for this.