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poppycracker

Afternoon all *wave*

*big hugs* to meyore, miro, Amber, shaz, sazzy, LM, Tulip and everyone whos having a lurk today...

its a four star 19 room hotel shaz, all posh out front and scabby out back where the peasants slave away! I've got an important job, i wash the dishes :rotfl:.

Wow, sounds like the perfect first date Tulip, here's hoping theres many more to come! You'll have to let me know when to buy my new hat!

The photobook sounds lovely LM, something so personal is something special to be treasured.

I'm off back to work in a half hour.... expecting another quiet night but you never know with this game!

hope everyone has a good evening

PC

Sazbo

meyore wrote: »

He vaguely looked at my teeth for about 30 seconds, asked if I ever got toothache and then that was it. 2 minutes and I was out, I get the feeling I was just fobbed off, no proper examination or anything.

Gawd, that's not very good hun? Was that the first time you've seen him? Did he not take any x-rays or anything? I'd be happier getting a second opinion, but then again I've got dodgy gums lol

And speaking of dodgy, I think I'm coming down with a cold or sommat. Hardly surprising when everyone at work and on the tube is coughing and spluttering:rolleyes: I think a medicinal hot toddy is called for:D

Have a good evening everyone :wave:

Much love to all,
Sazzy xxxxxxx

shazrobo

think i'm losing any sense of normality :rolleyes: dont know what to feel any more. bf says we cant go out cos we cant afford it, he goes out every tues, i have no problem with that, then he's off out sat night too. feel so jealous been almost 3 week since our last night out. dont know why its gotten to me so much but it has, wander why we dont go out more as a couple? is he ashamed of how i look, am i just here for his convenience, cos right now it feels that way.
but i am feeling very very low. took overdose tonight, dont wanna live anymore, cant cope with anything. life is just sooo hard. anyway ambulance took me to hospital, where i was on a&e for 4 hour. they wouldnt let me go, and said if i left they would phone police, as i was a danger to myself. eventually they take me to a ward, where i totally freak out. i have a real phobia of hospitals. so ended up sitting in a corridor on ward for a further 2 hours, til my blood tests came back, and a consultant came to see me.
he really didnt want me to leave, but eventually caved in, as long as i see crisis team tommorrow. and talk to gp.
scared of what ian will think. he already said last week, he wants to be my bf, and not my social worker talking bout my problems. what if he leaves? dont think i can stand losing him, so how can i get over feeling second best to his mates.
sorry for long post, feeling, scared, upset and confused
shaz xxx

Sazbo

Shaz sweetheart, Im on a train so can't type for long but just wanted to say I'm thinking of you xx How are you feeling this morning?

Ian might not to be yr social worker but as yr bf he is sharing yr life hun - it's about being there for you when times are hard and also recognising that you need some fun sometimes too.

Big hugs sweetheart will check in again later.

Take care hun,
Sazzy xxxx

beachbeth

So sorry you are feeling so bad, Shaz. I wish I could call in and hold your hand and make you a cuppa. You could offload to me all you like. Feel free to do that here anyway. Make sure you get the help you need and be kind to yourself. Sometimes we are too strict with ourselves about what we should be doing and this leads to stress. Don't set standards that are too high and just do what you can.

Hugs and best wishes to you. :grouphug:

Id love to see your photobook, Lm. It sounds lovely. What a nice present.

shazrobo

hi sazzy, and beachbeth, and anybody else who's lurking, its good to have friends on here that i can open up to. Ian says he's sick of me being in a mood all time and taking it out on him, he says he's not giving up his mates, never asked him to, just wanted to go out with him once in a while, just the two of us. feeling really low and tired, cant stop crying, still in my pj's. need help with kids they getting older and its more of a struggle, and that itself restricts my life so much, but no help available to me. and it seems my bf, likes a warm bed iykwim, but dosent want to share the rest of our lives, or thats how it seems to me right now.
hugs
shaz xxx

~*Plushroom*~

Sazbo- Been off trying to sort out my bedroom and seething with anger since Sunday, had meant to post but I just couldn't get my thoughts together to make proper sentences about what was happing here. So far the ex is now claiming he didn't break up with me (So, saying you are never going to speak to me again isn't breaking up with me :cool: If you say so mate) and then when I stupidly replied as I was having a bit of a flatering moment about the breakup he then decided to send me two long e-mails that were truly horrible, insulting, and threw things that he had told me were fine back in my face. Then he sent a nice e-mail doing the snivelling "I'll understand if you never speak to me again blah blah blah" routine again. I'm under the impression now that he is trying to mess with my head on purpose. I ended up trying to take a lot of pills monday night because of it, but I managed to force myself to throw them up before I could take too many because I won't let him control me and my thoughts any more. I'm still pretty angry at him - he's just so two faced and the little victim complex he's got just doesn't wash with me any more.

And so the renovating of the bedroom couldn't come at a better time, I need to keep my mind busy and stop myself from replying back in anger - stopping to his level will not help matters. Never date someone who's never had a relationship before you, it's just ridiculous. I could say so much more on what he's put me through this week but I'm trying to stay calm.

LM - Photobook sounds brilliant, so romantic. It's wonderful to see that romance isn't dead. Do we get to see the photobook?

Meyore - Congrats on getting some repairs sorted, no that dentist doesn't exactly sound fantastic but it's great that you've made the decision to find a new one.

Tulip - Ohhhh, so come on then - what's he like?

PC - Does that mean you get to take home 4-star leftovers? Dish washing is very important, who'd want all the nice food on grubby plates - you add to the presentation and posh abience of the hotel with your job!

I'm sure I've missed a few off but I'm trying to type in a rush as I need to go buy cold/flu meds before I sneeze my brain out. Hope that everyone is feeling okay today, hugs for all.

shazrobo wrote: »

think i'm losing any sense of normality :rolleyes: dont know what to feel any more. bf says we cant go out cos we cant afford it, he goes out every tues, i have no problem with that, then he's off out sat night too. feel so jealous been almost 3 week since our last night out. dont know why its gotten to me so much but it has, wander why we dont go out more as a couple? is he ashamed of how i look, am i just here for his convenience, cos right now it feels that way.
but i am feeling very very low. took overdose tonight, dont wanna live anymore, cant cope with anything. life is just sooo hard. anyway ambulance took me to hospital, where i was on a&e for 4 hour. they wouldnt let me go, and said if i left they would phone police, as i was a danger to myself. eventually they take me to a ward, where i totally freak out. i have a real phobia of hospitals. so ended up sitting in a corridor on ward for a further 2 hours, til my blood tests came back, and a consultant came to see me.
he really didnt want me to leave, but eventually caved in, as long as i see crisis team tommorrow. and talk to gp.
scared of what ian will think. he already said last week, he wants to be my bf, and not my social worker talking bout my problems. what if he leaves? dont think i can stand losing him, so how can i get over feeling second best to his mates.
sorry for long post, feeling, scared, upset and confused
shaz xxx

Oh shaz, couldn't post and run when I saw this. I'm so sorry you're feeling so low, you can always rant at us when you need to let off steam. Maybe you should talk to your oh about what you're feeling? The fact is if he wants to be your boyfriend and he wants to be with you then he has to be there for both the ups and the downs - your problems are his problems and vice-versa, that doesn't make him your social worker that makes him your partner.

*big hugs*

shazrobo

hi plushroom, sorry to hear that you've been such a rough time too,
men:mad:
well done on doing something positive to keep your mind busy. i cant even be motivated to get dressed this am, let alone housework or decorating.
shaz xxx

geminilady

shazrobo wrote: »

think i'm losing any sense of normality :rolleyes: dont know what to feel any more. bf says we cant go out cos we cant afford it, he goes out every tues, i have no problem with that, then he's off out sat night too. feel so jealous been almost 3 week since our last night out. dont know why its gotten to me so much but it has, wander why we dont go out more as a couple? is he ashamed of how i look, am i just here for his convenience, cos right now it feels that way.
but i am feeling very very low. took overdose tonight, dont wanna live anymore, cant cope with anything. life is just sooo hard. anyway ambulance took me to hospital, where i was on a&e for 4 hour. they wouldnt let me go, and said if i left they would phone police, as i was a danger to myself. eventually they take me to a ward, where i totally freak out. i have a real phobia of hospitals. so ended up sitting in a corridor on ward for a further 2 hours, til my blood tests came back, and a consultant came to see me.
he really didnt want me to leave, but eventually caved in, as long as i see crisis team tommorrow. and talk to gp.
scared of what ian will think. he already said last week, he wants to be my bf, and not my social worker talking bout my problems. what if he leaves? dont think i can stand losing him, so how can i get over feeling second best to his mates.
sorry for long post, feeling, scared, upset and confused
shaz xxx

Hi Shaz,Sorry you are feeling so low((((((hug))))) have you seen the crisis team yet?and your gp? To be honest i don't think much of what you have said about Ian, it seems as if he wants to live your relationship his way or not at all.As your boyfriend he should be there to listen and support you as i am sure you are there for him.It is natural that you are jealous when he wants to go out with his mates but not you, anyone would feel the same,when we love someone we want to come first in their lives.If he cannot afford to take you out i think it is resonable to ask him to give up one of the nights out with his mates to take you out then at least you are on equal footing with them it is not to much to ask.I know you are scared of loosing him but you managed before you met him and would do again.

~*Plushroom*~

shazrobo wrote: »

hi plushroom, sorry to hear that you've been such a rough time too,
men:mad:
well done on doing something positive to keep your mind busy. i cant even be motivated to get dressed this am, let alone housework or decorating.
shaz xxx

Men are the root of many problems if you think about it MANic depression, MENtal breakdown, MENstral tension, MENapause..I'm sure there are more. I don't know why I've just thought of that - in a very odd mood with the cold/flu meds!

I'm sorry that you're having men problems too, they are so difficult to keep well trained aren't they?

Ah, I found an excellent way to motivate myself- I put everything that needs sorting on my bed so if I want to sleep tonight I have to work my way through all of that my ocd tendancies won't let me just dump it all on the floor before bedtime :rotfl:I know, completely mad.

Feeling any better since last night Shaz? You've always got us here, and if you need to rant about men I have a spare ear.

*hugs*