Right, Third time lucky, I will do it this time

angie_baby

Morning,

Really need to update sigs tonight! Have been getting the train in all this week so thats extra money, plus i had to get a train home one night.

Should have some overtime coming this month, ive used a half day holiday for Joes meeting the other day so i didnt wipe all over time out.

Hoping Joe will try his hardest today and get no white slips.

Best get on with some work considering im here early

angie_baby

This is a compleatly selfish post. My diary is so depressing!

Ive just read my diary and my old one.

I hate to admit it but i think i might be slightly depressed. The amazing highs and the low low's.

Sometimes i feel like throwing work in (today) and just going onto benifits like everyone else where i live. Im sick of hearing about x and m going on holidays when none of them work and they are taking there kids out of school time (im a bit bitter as i wasnt allowed to take Joe out last year and lost a free pontins hol and a hol abroad)

Im at work today and ive cried, twice, i feel proper sick - have thrown up and my head is banging so much i feel dizzy.

I have phoned the doctors and can get an appointment for Sat 2nd May.

I just want to run away with Joe. I want to go to my osteo and i want my teeth sorted. All these wants! And i know the reason i cant have them is because ive been crap with my money.

And i miss my mum, i want to talk to her, she always seemed to have the answers.

I want to be at home and i cant.

angie_baby

Well Joe rekons he has got 1 white slip, but nothings come home with him. Joe asked the teacher infront of the childminder about if he had a white slip and again the teacher ignored him, looked at the childminder and then walked off to talk to another parent.

I tried to call the school but it is going straight to message bank.

Will just have to bring it upn on Wednesday's meeting. Im not going to punish Joe tonight as the school havent done what they said they would. He also hasnt got his report card that was promised.


Money side.......

I had Mc'D's for lunch - it was crap! Choc milkshake was good though, and im going to have drinks with people from work tonight, will only be there for 1/2 hr though as i have to collect Joe.

Also bought more ciggs, i have smoked over 60 this week, and writing it down has just made me feel ill!

robsmum_2

Hi Angie, Just checked your posts for today and they made me feel sad and want to come and cuddle you. I don't wish to pry and ignore this if you wish but when did you loose your Mum? I lost mine just over 3 years ago and I miss her so much. I saw her every day . She was my help, best friend and Mum. My heart went out to you with "I miss my Mum and she seemed to have all the answers" - I have said that so much over the last 3 years. Last time I said it was a month ago.
I do think you are depressed and this is making everything seem far worse. If you get Sick Pay I would suggest you take a few days off and have a bit of time out.
Please feel free to PM me at any time, I send you a big hug and lots of love.:A

angie_baby

Morning all,

Not so sunny today here, its always the way!

Not up to alot today, just going to potter around the house, clean a bit and get uniforms and work clothes ready for next week.

Need a list me thinks

1.) [STRIKE]Clean kitchen[/STRIKE]

2.) [STRIKE]
[/STRIKE]

3.) Bathroom floor


4.) [STRIKE]Make some of twinks hobnobs for Joes lunches[/STRIKE] Made flapjacks instead

5.) [STRIKE]Meal Plan[/STRIKE] :rotfl:

Thats about it really, oh and Joe needs to do his homework.

angie_baby

robsmum wrote: »

Hi Angie, Just checked your posts for today and they made me feel sad and want to come and cuddle you. I don't wish to pry and ignore this if you wish but when did you loose your Mum? I lost mine just over 3 years ago and I miss her so much. I saw her every day . She was my help, best friend and Mum. My heart went out to you with "I miss my Mum and she seemed to have all the answers" - I have said that so much over the last 3 years. Last time I said it was a month ago.
I do think you are depressed and this is making everything seem far worse. If you get Sick Pay I would suggest you take a few days off and have a bit of time out.
Please feel free to PM me at any time, I send you a big hug and lots of love.:A

Thanks robsmum,

No sick pay where i am #

And i do hate to admit that i am a bit depressed, and its scary admiting it.

I need to stop getting so stressed though as i get stressed, then cant sleep, then get a mirgrane as im tired and stressed and then cant sleep again so i feel like im in a horrible circle that is so hard to break.

I want to start running again, and Joe is old enough now to either follow me on his bike or play in the play ground while i run around the park. Even though i know im not very fit at the moment it does make me feel better and helps get rid of some of the stress.

My mum died over 6 years ago now its sad but i still have her ashes at home with me. I did write a really long post but decided to PM you instead robsmum.

angie_baby

Well, ive gone through the freezer and cupboards and have kind of meal planned for May.
Things may swap around, but i need to clear out the freezer and spend as little as possible as my slow cooker and broken and i would like to replace it. Also summer is coming and i want to clear some of the heavier bits.

So this is what i can plan without buying too much, would only need veggies / fruit / milk really, not much meat. And ive still got a bag of quorn mince, 250g mince beef and a bag of quorn pieces left. Just cant think of anything to do with them at the moment.

Sun L [STRIKE]Mozzarella and tomato rolls[/STRIKE]
D [STRIKE]Toad in Hole, boiled pots, veg and gravy[/STRIKE]

Mon [STRIKE]Spaghetti bolognaise[/STRIKE]

Tues [STRIKE]Sausage and Chips, Had beans on toast with a fried egg![/STRIKE]:o

Weds [STRIKE]Fratta and baked beans = Had fish, chips and peas [/STRIKE]:)

Thurs [STRIKE]Fratta and baked beans[/STRIKE]

Fri [STRIKE]Need to think of something [/STRIKE] OUT AT DADS

W/B : 02/05

Sat L [STRIKE]Sandwiches / Soup and rolls[/STRIKE]
D [STRIKE]Mac Cheese [/STRIKE]

Sun L [STRIKE]Sandwiches / Soup and rolls[/STRIKE]
D [STRIKE]Plate Pie, mash, veg and gravy[/STRIKE]

Mon [STRIKE]Steak, mash, veggies and gravy[/STRIKE]
[STRIKE]Soup and Rolls[/STRIKE]

Tues [STRIKE]Pesto Pasta[/STRIKE]

Weds [STRIKE]Fish Cakes, wedges and baked beans[/STRIKE]

Thurs [STRIKE]Veggie Sausages, mash, veg and gravy[/STRIKE]

Fri [STRIKE]Stir-Fry beef noodles[/STRIKE]

W/B: 09/05

Sat L [STRIKE]Fried Brunch[/STRIKE]
D Chicken Kiev’s, boiled pots and veg

Sun L Sandwiches / Soup and rolls
D Shepherds Pie

Mon Mac Cheese

Tues Fish in Sauce, mash, veg

Weds Plate Pies

Thurs Spaghetti bolognaise

Fri Stir Fry noodles and quorn chunks

W/B : 16/05

Sat L Sandwiches / Soup and rolls
D Meatballs and tomato pasta

Sun L Sandwiches / Soup and rolls
D

Mon Veggie burgers and chips

Tuesday Meatballs and tomato pasta

Weds Prawn veggie fried rice

Thurs Chicken and veggie egg fried rice

Fri Soup and rolls

W/B : 23/05 – Half Term, Bank Hol Monday, Joe at camp Tues & Weds, back late on Thursay

Sat L Sandwiches / Soup and rolls
D Mac Cheese / Soup and rolls

Sun L Sandwiches / Soup and rolls
D Shepherds Pie

Mon Tom Pasta

There is a few gaps but they should get filled in along the way

angie_baby

Evening All,

Got quite a bit done today

Did do :

Kitchen
Flapjacks for Joes lunches
Sandwiches for Joes lunches made
Sausage rolls for Joe lunches made
dust and hovered living room and wiped down sofas
went to tescos and only bought milk
Joes homework - most of it

Im now watching scream 3 before i crawl off to bed. Joes tutor is here tomorrow and ive a few things that i need to do tomorrow.
Im going to go for a short run tomorrow too, just starting off with 5 mins on 5 mins off for half hour or so. Joe gets to go to the park too.

Weekends always make me feel so much better

angie_baby

Morning All,

Did go for a short run yesterday, only 30 mins, but its a start, going to do it every other day until i can increase the amount of time im actully running, not just walking. Felt better for it though.

Joes tutor was good, but still more money sent. I found my old card for the sunbed as well, i bought it last year but never really used it. Going to pop in tonight to see if its still valid, if so im going to have a quick blast, (i know there not very good for you) but im so pale i think that it will do me good. I always seem to look skinnier too when ive got a bit of tan, and then hopefuly i will dare so show my legs if the sun reappears!

Im so looking forward to pay day, iove worked out Mays budget and i should be able to pay at least an extra £100 off Vanquis - but i did add £50 to it for Joes holiday.

Hope everyone is having a good start to the week. I was mega organised this morning, Joes lunch just needed to be put in his bag, PE kit and book bag were ready at the door. And all our clothes were ready and ironed, with an iron not GHD's , i even made sure Joes porridge was ready to go in the micro last night. Much smoother start to the day, i dont know why im not more organised! Makes life alot easier. Now i just need to work on getting breakie for myself, i just cant face food first thing, and then end up piggin out, any ideas

Anyway back of to work!

robsmum_2

;)Hi Angie, replied to your PM. Glad you had a good weekend. Good on you starting to run again, slowly is the best way.
Getting mornings organised will really help combat the stress your under. Menu plans look good.As for your breckie, I had to smile. Reading your posts I sometimes feel I've written them! I hate breakfast and due to M.E. Don't pay the whole £100 to Vanquis if it won't leave you a bit for TLC whilst Joe away. Nag over!x:T