Lost my darling, old kitty.

lowis

he obviously loved you very much to hang around for so many years...you did the kindest and most unselfish thing for him. someone sent me this poem when my little Stormie died from cancer...it brings me much comfort, i hope it does for you too.

I was chosen to day
I'm learning to fly
the world took me away,
but please don't you cry.

And I chose you today
to try and be strong
so please don't you cry
and don't say that I'm gone.

When you're feeling alone
just remember our love,
I'm up near the stars
looking down from above.

Remember our love
in a moment you'll see
that I'm still here beside you
When you're thinking of me.

sillyvixen

oh poor you!! its like losing a close family member - but he is out of pain now!! i have lost 3 cats and would never have another (2 of them had wonderful long lives) but i cant put myself through the pain of loosing another one in the future!!

hugs to you - it gets better in time.

sharronloves2spend

Deepest sympathy, i know what your going through, my beautiful maddy has mammory cancer and we will do what we have to do when the time comes, in the not to distant future. God bless you for what you did, you gave him a good life and a peaceful end.

Lots of virtual Love
sharron

Maz

Thanks and many thanks again to all who have replied to my miserable post- you obviously have your own grief to carry!

I know it will get better in time and I was sooooo lucky to have him in my life for as long as I did, which makes it harder too, knowing he's not here anymore. There's no one i can talk to anymore, if you know what I mean? He was my only constant for 20 years.

Sharronloves2spend, I hope your beautiful kitty (maddy) doesn't suffer too much, you want to do the best for her and can pm me anytiime if you want to.

In_Search_Of_Me

aww huge hug for you....the problem with our babies is that we love them so much dont we eh and even when we know that we are doing the right thing in making sure they are no longer in pain the guilt is awful on top of the loss...Of course it will take you time to grieve so be gentle with yourself and blub as much as you need to...what a grand old age to reach though eh and 20 years of love cant be bad cant it?!! I had to have macey put down a year ago and still cant bear to bury her ashes and "only" had her 8 years!!
sharonloves to spend...when I found out that Maceys "husband" had a lung tumor I asked the vet how I would know when he should be put to sleep and they were no help but a customer at the vet said to me gently "dont worry you will know" ...and I did. We had time to say goodbye, he was spoiled rotten but one morning woke and he was in alot of pain so I knew the time had come...
So my lovely feline frends ...better to have loved and lost than never loved at all....hugs for you..

Spirit_2

I am sorry to hear your news, a hard selfless decision taken with love in his best interests. I am sure he was glad to go to rest in peace.

Ancalime

I'm sending you my deepest sympathies, It's a horrible choice to have to make and nothing can take away the sad feelings.

Love Ancalime

shelly

I just wanted to add my sympathies. I feel for you at this sad time.

We had to make the decision recently (29th Dec) to have our old lady, Coco, PTS. We got her from rescue when she was somewhere between 18 months and 3 yrs and we had her for 16 years.
She had a tumour removed a few months ago which turned out to be cancer of her sebacous (sp?) gland. On the 19th Dec we took her to the vet as some small lumps had come back around the area of her previous tumour. The vet confirmed the cancer was back.
It shocked us at how quick it had returned. We talked it over with the vet and given her age combined with the fact that her liver and kidneys were slowly packing up we decided to take no further action. We were devastated but determined to make her time left with us as comfortable as we could.

She (along with Lily, our other rescue, who's 3) had a good Xmas with treats of turkey and tuna.
I went to feed them both on the evening of the 29th and Coco couldn't get out of bed. I lifted her out but she just sagged. I fetched hubby and she had got back in bed. I stroked her and could feel her bones...she was struggling to breathe.

By now I was hysterical. Hubby called our vet and he wanted us to take her in but she doesn't travel well so I said no. I wasn't putting her through the journey only to have her PTS.
We called around a dozen vets and finally found one willing to come see her.

She died on my lap, in my arms....I would say peacefully but it wasn't really....I was sobbing like a mad thing
We really thought we had more time with her after seeing the vet. We wasn't expecting to have to say goodbye after just 10 days.

As ISOM said, you know when its time to let them go but I sometimes feel that maybe she wasn't ready, I should have got her some treatment and kept her alive.
I know that's irrational but I can't help feeling I gave her up too easily....I can't see for crying now


She was such a perfect girl. So laid back she was horizontal sometimes. Didn't bat an eyelid when we moved house 2 years ago, nor when we introduced Lily last year.

I miss her so much.....



Oh lord.....sorry to have posted so much on your thread

No-one other than hubby will mention her name so once I have an audience I find it hard to shush.

thanks for letting me get it off my chest

kizzyw

Oh bless you,my heart goes out to you...its never easy.Believe me i know...im currently slave to 5 cats and last year lost my darling Lily cat and also my beloved Dog on New years eve.Despite my best efforts ive yet to get a Cat beyond 13 years tho i must admit their ages have been guestimates as all have been rescued.Feeling a bit nervous as my youngest is around 2 but the other 4 are around the 10/11 year mark.For what its worth take heart in knowing that you gave your baby a loving home and although hard on you, you did the kindest most loving act of selflessness at the time that was the hardest for you.Nothing i can say will ease the pain i wish it could but take each day as it comes things do get more barably hun although we always remember and love them.
Hugs and kisses

c6h4m1

I can't add anything to the above, just to offer my heartfelt sympathy to you. xx