*Daily chat thread 1st Jan 2009 ** HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

Burlesque_Babe

lennymfo wrote: »

Oh BB dont feel odd, i think we all have moments like this but something to repolarise us and put things into persepective. What do you think it is that has knocked you out of sync?

not sure Lenny A mixture of facing up to the thought of re-starting a diet tomorrow and the surety of failure at some point. The amount of teaching prep. ahead over the next few days, the 'nothingness' ahead tonight with OH - I haven't even bothered to think about what to do other than get a takeaway and get Triv. Pursuit out - again - and the fact i'd rather be online with my friends. My financial situation is just a mess at the moment, again, even with 3 jobs, I haven't earned enough to pay the bills and my savings are diminishing too fast to even think about.

skint_spice

BB, totally agree with Spud - it's all the reviewing the old year and waiting with trepidation for the new year not knowing what it's going to hit us with. I'm wondering where my happy ending has gone... although I'm quite looking forward to 2009.

spud30

Sammy, I dont think you sound harsh at all. Again, I'm unaware of the circumstances of the break-up etc (nobody tells me owt round here :rolleyes:)

It is a particularly bad night to leave anyone on their own x

Burlesque_Babe

to be fair, 2008 was a good year for me.

I got a job, albeit a poorly paid one and I started to put the carp of Cruella and all the terrible things that happened with her in 2006/2007 behind me. I re-trained and was successful in re-starting a new - if bitty - career teaching adults. I have found a brand new confidence to start standing up for myself - something I have never had before.

I just think ..............oh, I don't know what I think.........

skint_spice

It is a bad night to be left on your own Snags but if he's really poorly maybe he can't face the drive - tis a long way.

BB, don't think of the diet as deprivation just concentrate on how much better it's going to make you feel.

spud30

Burlesque_Babe wrote: »

to be fair, 2008 was a good year for me.

I got a job, albeit a poorly paid one and I started to put the carp of Cruella and all the terrible things that happened with her in 2006/2007 behind me. I re-trained and was successful in re-starting a new - if bitty - career teaching adults. I have found a brand new confidence to start standing up for myself - something I have never had before.

I just think ..............oh, I don't know what I think.........

As I said the other night, I've noticed in recent weeks/months, you're starting to become a bit more brave and ballsy :T

Maybe it's unnerving you a bit, might just take some getting used to

immoral_angeluk

Aww BB. You've had a lot of change recently and it's bound to catch up with you at some point. Just take each day as it comes hun. xxx

Snaggles

spud30 wrote: »

Sammy, I dont think you sound harsh at all. Again, I'm unaware of the circumstances of the break-up etc (nobody tells me owt round here :rolleyes:)

It is a particularly bad night to leave anyone on their own x

:rotfl: You might regret saying that, as I have just sent you a world record breaking length pm :rotfl:

Snaggles

Sammy it wasn't harsh hun - actually that was the source of our last little 'blip', that we had both rushed into things too fast. We have calmed things down a bit and are taking it a bit more slowly, and things have been lovely.....REALLY lovely.

When I'm with him I never doubt for a second that he loves me, so why do I doubt it so easily every time something like this happens?

Burlesque_Babe

cheers guys. It's just hard to describe. I feel like I have a weight pressing against the base of my head all the time but I can't let go.