Drowning I think

Keemo

Just be positive! You'll be alright then

bestpud

Why are you considering hypnosis? What is it you hope to achieve from it?

I'm a bit concerned you are chasing a 'quick fix' and it may end up costing you more money than you have. There really is no easy route out of this, although I do appreciate how the thought is appealing.

Honestly, you have got to just knuckle down and get the work done, one way or another. It is the only answer right now.

I don't know why your friends/flatmates are rejecting you tbh. What is it you expect from a friendship? I know you'd like to feel listened too when you need it, but in my experience, that is quite a small part of a friendship - in terms of the time spent doing it that is, not what it means, as I know the latter is very important.

Do you talk a lot about your life when you are with them? I know you say you don't tell them you are depressed, but do you talk mostly about how difficult asignments are etc? Because I can kind of see how that might get them down a bit, especially if they don't know you have depression and put it down to your personality. Assuming you otherwise take an equal part in the friendship (taking their views into account/remembering important things in their lives - that kind of thing), I can see no other reason for them rejecting you tbh.

Are you sure it isn't your perception at fault here? It's very easy, I think, to set up a self-fulfilling prophecy when it comes to things like this...

As for the assignments - can you force yourself to finish one of them? I'm the worst at this (I feel I have to admit!) but I think there is something very satisfying about knowing something is complete. Having lots of things going on at once is chaotic somehow and considerably raises my stress levels.

Could you pick one and finish it tomorrow - only one day into December! It may not be brilliant but you can improve it later if you have time - for now, it is surely preferable to get them written? Have a good breakfast (porridge is good 'mood food') and get stuck in?

Just think how fab it would feel to cross an entire essay off your list..!

top_drawer_2

hey,

I guess I'm willing to try anything ... I did go on a course for the emotional freedom technique and that worked ... displacement more than anything though ... I would willing give money to get rid of this, its just endless.

I have been in to the counselling service today and they say they hope the counsellor will be back next week ... theyve been saying that for the past four weeks though so who knows

I've spent all day working on this blasted essay ... and I think ive managed to get maybe 100 words on to the computer, leaving me Tommorrow and Wednesday to get it written. I'm panicking a lot now which I know isnt helpful but I am... I dont know how to break the cycle as I know I'm behind in so many different things and am constantly aware of how much more I should have done by now.

I think they probably find me a bit stressy, I do complain a lot about my assignments plus there's other stuff going on in the house .... its not all about me but (when I'm down) the rejection cuts very deep.

On saturday (after another really bad day with the personality essay the day before) I sat down feeling ok and worked for eight hours (with breaks etc) on one of my seen essays, the one im finding the "easiest" and spent hours working on it but somehow although I know what I want to say, I cant make my words answer the question even though they do IYSWIM. Its like I say one thing and leave a great gaping hole in the reasoning or I just cant get anymore supporting evidence ... I ended up with around 500 words and it isnt anywhere near finished ... I felt so down looking at it, afterall that!! I just couldnt be bothered yesterday so spent the day relaxing/chatting/watching tv etc with one of my flatmates which was so good.

I would willingly give my right arm to get at least one piece of work finished tommorrow ... I'm off to bed now in the hope that an early night will make tommorrow better.

Jen

xx