Depression Support Thread

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

wow Anni the picture is gorgeous I have been to sleep but I just woke up to quickly come on the internet again,I wont be on in the morning when the forum is shut down but I will chat again after 9pm when its open,I will miss chatting thoughout the day but I know the maintenence has to be done

chat tomorrow night

Night! Night!

love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

Thanks Katie hun.

I'm going to miss MSE tomorrow. I'm planning on staying up most of the early hours of the morning to get my fix. :rotfl:

xx

Tulip

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Thanks Katie hun.

I'm going to miss MSE tomorrow. I'm planning on staying up most of the early hours of the morning to get my fix. :rotfl:

xx

Dont get too tired Anni Just ordered Mama Mia the dvd from Amazon,cant wait to get it

right back to bed for me so I can sleep chat tomorrow night after 9pm,will miss the forums but I will keep busy tomorrow thats for sure :rotfl: chat on MSN if I see you online tomorrow

love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

Ooo it's out on DVD already? Awesome.

Night night hun.

xx

Tulip

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Ooo it's out on DVD already? Awesome.

Night night hun.

xx

No its not out on dvd until November 24th,I just preordered it tonight to make sure I got a copy


love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

Ah cool, Katie.
I do that with DVDs and CDs.lol.

LadyMorticia

Okay...I'll be brave and post my poem which I'm having published....
I think I may have posted it before but I can't remember.lol.

What Mental Illness Feels Like
It feels like you're a prisoner
In your own mind
Holding you hands up to your
Looking glass eyes
But not able to escape

It feels like being close to yourself
All the time
But not knowing who you are
Wanting to get close to others
But terrified of letting them in

It feels like wanting to kill all your emotions
So you don't hurt anymore
It feels like the physical pain you cause yourself
Just to kill all the pain
You hold buried inside

It feels like starving your body
Because you feel like a bad person
And like you need to be punished
For all the things you've done - past and present
That those around you say weren't your fault anyway

It feels like memories
Haunting and teasing you
Always there, and never going away
All the things they did to you
And the way they made you feel

It feels like fear
Fear that this is all you'll ever know
That all hope is lost for you
And people will give up
And label you something you're not

It feels like being free
Finally finding someone else
With Borderline Personality Disorder
You can understand you
And at last....
Your lips aren't silent anymore

Tulip

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Okay...I'll be brave and post my poem which I'm having published....
I think I may have posted it before but I can't remember.lol.

What Mental Illness Feels Like
It feels like you're a prisoner
In your own mind
Holding you hands up to your
Looking glass eyes
But not able to escape

It feels like being close to yourself
All the time
But not knowing who you are
Wanting to get close to others
But terrified of letting them in

It feels like wanting to kill all your emotions
So you don't hurt anymore
It feels like the physical pain you cause yourself
Just to kill all the pain
You hold buried inside

It feels like starving your body
Because you feel like a bad person
And like you need to be punished
For all the things you've done - past and present
That those around you say weren't your fault anyway

It feels like memories
Haunting and teasing you
Always there, and never going away
All the things they did to you
And the way they made you feel

It feels like fear
Fear that this is all you'll ever know
That all hope is lost for you
And people will give up
And label you something you're not

It feels like being free
Finally finding someone else
With Borderline Personality Disorder
You can understand you
And at last....
Your lips aren't silent anymore

Great poem Anni,you must be so proud thanks for sharing

I am off now


love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

Thanks Katie.
Yeah. I'm hoping that those who read it and suffer from a mental illness won't feel so alone and will know that there is help for them out there. If I just help one person to realize that, then I have succeeded in my life.

Night night hun.

xx

Amber_Sunshine

I can identify with most of that.

Seems Mr S didn't mean what he said about starting again, or doesn't really believe it. I want to cry but there is nowhere private to cry. I'm going to be alone, and please nobody tell me that it is better to be alone that in a relationship that isn't working, because being alone SUCKS, and I feel so lonely. I don't want a friend, I want a partner and a companion. Seems like he wants the best bits of me, but isn't prepared to put in the effort that a relationship needs to make it work. I'm never going to trust anyone again, it's not worth it.