Eeeeek it's my Race for Life tonight!!!

System

Good luck Sar. cue Chariots of Fire music

tigtag02

immoral_angeluk wrote: »

Oh hun... :grouphug:
I know that what I say won't make much sense at the moment.. I know I wa just numb and on autopilot for at least 6 months after my mum died. But the funeral will help. Sounds daft but it's not about saying goodbye really... it's about knowing that your mum will now be with you wherever you are.. and not just 'at home' or 'at the shops'. Although you won't see her physically... you'll always have her with you wheter you're aware of it or not. I still get little clues every now and then that mum is watching over me. Hard to explain... but whenever I'm having a down day or thinking of her... something will happen that'll make me stop and think 'Mum did that'. You know? Just little things that I always associate with her...
For example the new years eve after she died we had a party at ours. On the stroke of midnight one of her old bells which you wind up and played a little song and hadn't worked for years, all of a sudden started playing, completely on it's own.
I'm a big believer that no matter where you are, death is just like a gap until you see them again. They're aren't gone... they're just somewhere else waiting for you to be reunited.
Take each day as it comes hun. It's the hardest thing you can ever go through and for me it still hurts nearly 3 years on. The pain will ease, but the memories will last a lifetime and remember her as the healthy wonderful person she was, rather than what she was under the disease.

Sending massive hugs and I'm always around if you ever want to vent or chat to someone who's been through the same thing hun.
:grouphug:

This is one of the nicest and most comforting things I have ever read.

THANK YOU

2 mins and counting, I hope you did it it 35

MrsMoney_3

Hope it went ok xx

sallyx

come on I'm waiting in ancipation to see if you have done it.....

immoral_angeluk

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurgh.....

System

immoral_angeluk wrote: »

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurgh.....

Ive told you that when you are feeling fruity not to look at that photograph of me

immoral_angeluk

Well ladies and gentlemen, if you hadn't guessed by the ill sounding post above I'm back. Washed, changed and currently sat looking like a mong with no energy and starving hungry. But you don't want to know about that do you? lol
The race was REALLY hard. I mean not normal hard... STUPIDLY hard. 2km of it was uphill, 1km on road and the rest was uneven fields. I could've done better. I really struggled on some bits and had to walk numerous times. I did run the first 2km without walking. Then spent the rest doing a mix of running/walking. The last km was just horrendous. I hurt all over and at one point was seriously considering stopping. The only thing keeping me going was not wanting to let mum down, but I spent a lot of the course nearly in tears telling myself I was doing rubbish. Stupid I know... but funny what emotion does to you.. As I crossed the finish line I literally burst into tears when I saw the time. Just the sheer enormity of the target I'd been set compared to how hard I'd found it and how much I'd really had to push myself really wasn't possible to imagine until you do it. At one point after I'd finished I couldn't breathe and thought I was going to collapse, so maybe I pushed myself a bit toooooo hard.. but I did it. I finished. Excuse how rough I look in the pic.. I'd literally been sobbing my heart out for a good 5-10 minutes after I'd finished with the emotion of it all. Even more so when Ste and Ashli gave me a hug. Ashli even said 'very well done mummy' in her cutest little voice when she gave me a hug which of course set me off more.. lol



Question is.... can anyone guess my time?

smashedbooboo

32 minutes xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

sallyx

33.50...come on come on

redsquirrel80

Never mind the time, you've made me cry

34 mins.