Depression Support Thread

slowlyfading

Miro, its nice to see you posting hope you remember me.

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote: »

Oh well, at least you've got Britney! I saw one of my idols live the other day - Meat Loaf! Now that is a gorgeous man!

I keep telling myself i'm destined to meet and marry Britney. Of course i'm not, but I have to have some hope in life.

Meat Loaf? I know his brother, Fruit.

Miroslav

slowlyfading wrote: »

Miro, its nice to see you posting hope you remember me.

:wave:

I remember! And how is SF these days?

I've had a quick look back and seems like most have been off on holiday.

I've not been on holiday for 14 years

shazrobo

(((((big hugs)))) miro, good to see you posting, wish it could have been under happier circumstances for you tho. often thought about you and wondered how you are. you are a special guy and will find miss right for you one day.
hugs
shaz xxx

slowlyfading

Miroslav wrote: »

:wave:

I remember! And how is SF these days?

I've had a quick look back and seems like most have been off on holiday.

I've not been on holiday for 14 years

Graduated, and now back at home. Lol could be better I guess! holidays are overrated

Miroslav

shazrobo wrote: »

(((((big hugs)))) miro, good to see you posting, wish it could have been under happier circumstances for you tho. often thought about you and wondered how you are. you are a special guy and will find miss right for you one day.
hugs
shaz xxx

So do I. I shall post more later on it. I'm sure everyone will think i'm just being silly though.

Miss Right doesn't exist for me. Had my chance and it's gone.

I noticed you one of the people who went on holiday! Hope you had a good time!

Miroslav

slowlyfading wrote: »

Graduated, and now back at home. Lol could be better I guess! holidays are overrated

Congrats :T

Holidays are overrated, I just wish I could have one though - a permanent one - asleep - or at least until someone nice came along

slowlyfading

Miroslav wrote: »

Congrats :T

Holidays are overrated, I just wish I could have one though - a permanent one - asleep - or at least until someone nice came along

Thanks! and ditto....

geminilady

Miroslav wrote: »

:wave:

How many people are still left from my last visit 4 months ago?

And how many people remember me?

I hope we are all doing as well as can be!

I've stayed away as i'm trying to change as many things as possible, but all is not going too well.

I'm having a crap time right now and have no support, so may pop back later and post about it. No-one else I know is taking me seriously. Flatmate is too a point, but i'm about to blow my lid with a few people and want to avoid it if I can.

Fed up with people taking the preverbial pee.

I'll be back once i've gotten over my binge session that I now regret. Let myself down today for the first time in a while, all because of stupid bar stewards who just don't LISTEN!

I'm so close to just losing the plot and telling people where to go and giving them a friendly slapping and i'm someone who disapproves of violence more than most.

Let me recover for a short while and i'll be back if I see anyone around!

Miro:j :j :j :j Welcome back:T great to see you posting,might sound silly but i worry about people when they stop posting and i think you would be very suprised at how many of us were thinking of you.Tiff is on holiday and i know for a fact she will be really glad you are posting when she returns.

Miroslav

Right so here's where the story continues from April when I last entered these shores...

In short, I changed my eating, sleeping and activity patterns and although it's not made that much difference, I go to bed knowing i've made the effort!

So, now I get a work placement. I won't say where, but it's for a big national organisation which has many many visitors a day, all in need of help and guidance and with about 1400 staff in this 'branch' alone.

So i've been at it for 4 days and one part of my placement is not working out. I'm told before I start the placement that if one part i'm unhappy with, I can transfer all my time to the other department.

So after 3 days of one department, where barely anyone spoke to me, some refusing to acknowledge me and a couple fo snide remarks that they didn't think I would hear, I decided it was time to transfer to the other section permanently, as they helped me, advised me and taught me what I needed to know. The other option was to get extremely angry at the people who weren't making me feel welcome - something i'd rather avoid!

So I see my advisor - but I now cannot transfer as there are not enough places me for me to transfer too, unlike what I was advised before I started.

I'm then told, the department I do enjoy, my work time is changing. I now have to work during my counselling period, something I was told that I wouldn't have to do, as they are extremely flexible.

I could not attend on Monday as I had a panic attack. I phoned and e-mailed. When my advisor met me today, he ignored that and put me in as worked. I tried to tell him, but he wouldn't stop babbling on.

I'm not the best communicator, that is a downfall I have. I either say it quietly or forcefully if someone is not listening and it comes across a s aggressive, but I have not been forceful yet as I don't want to get more people on my back!

On top of all that, my Job Centre advisor is bombarding me with e-mails about job vacancies - this before the placement - voluntary, non paid placement, had started, thinking I was now able to work!! No proof that I was ready or anything! I have a PCA assessment Sept/Oct that I shall no longer pass and no-one is listening to me!

I've been lied too by so many people about what times I work, what departments, what I can do and what I shouldn't have too, that I would be supported etc etc and when I raise the point that these things aren't true, I am ignored. I'm treated like a nobody by one section, who clearly don't want me there and people are putting pressure on me to do things I don't want too.

I have 2 options - really get angry so they DO LISTEN or let it continue the way it is, and it's not going to be the last option.

I am so angry at being lied too, treated like a nothing and the promise of support being swapped for pressure on me and nobody taking any notice of me.

The only time people listen is when I raise my voice, and then I get in trouble, not the liars, users, abusers and complete a-$-sholes.

So i'm miserable and angry and need a rant! This life is just not for me as I just can't get anything right.

Please someone tell me a way of telling them they are all useless and not listening without me losing my temper with them!

Please