Depression Support Thread

slowlyfading

Diamond78 wrote: »

SF, nice to see you hun. Cant remember if its you going paris. Have a lovely time if its you sweety.

alba37 wrote: »

SF, have a great time in Paris. I'll be fantastic, what a lovely graduation gift!

Thanks you two, I'm so excited! Went to get my Euros this morning, woo! :j xx

slowlyfading

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

sf...congrats on the gratuation and hol.

Thanks. I'm so sorry you're feeling so low. (((HUGS))) for you, hope you feel better soon xx

shazza40

hi all

ilgd [hugs] i agree put a dvd that make you laugh. i watched sunday nite experience other month them swearing at the electric shock machine had me giggling and me laughing was a sound not heard for a while.

lady m red really suits you. i done it once and my hair went pink on growing out blonde more ways than 1.

the meds are finally working i feel human again. way hay have done 3 interest free balance transfers. tescos for rac renewal and got the cheapest house contents insurance ever. am really chuffed with myself

hugs to all

shazza x

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

I am feeling better today,throat not so sore and the Strepsils are working well sorry you are having a bad time at the moment ILGD,hope things work out ok soon for you

:hello: Shazza I went out for lunch today to a cafe across the road from me and it was nice,just had a small cooked breakfast and I ate it all

I am relaxing tonight and going to take it easy,Marquee is up for tomorrow for our Carnival week as it starts officially at 10am tomorrow

love and light,

Katie xxx

alba37

Glad your feeling better Shazza. And well done on sorting out some finances. Everything is so much easier to do when we feel stonger.

Katie, how are you today? I hope you are feeling better.

Anni, have you done your hair yet??

The sun is shining here today, but have lots to do indoors... typical!

Hope everyone is ok?

A x

alba37

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

I am feeling better today,throat not so sore and the Strepsils are working well sorry you are having a bad time at the moment ILGD,hope things work out ok soon for you

:hello: Shazza I went out for lunch today to a cafe across the road from me and it was nice,just had a small cooked breakfast and I ate it all

I am relaxing tonight and going to take it easy,Marquee is up for tomorrow for our Carnival week as it starts officially at 10am tomorrow

love and light,

Katie xxx

Ops, got a phone call in the middle of posting and hadn't seen your post!!

Glad you're feeling better Katie. Just take it easy till you're sure it's gone.

A x

Tulip

I will chat tomorrow,it looks quiet on here tonight

Night! Night! everyone


love and light,

Katie xxx

slowlyfading

night Katie xx

Tulip

slowlyfading wrote: »

night Katie xx

Night SF hope you are ok sleep well


Katie

Horasio

I have been so tired lately after my leg trouble, family illness and my bad cold. Fairly typical after a major trauma and activity.

Our son has people round and whilst he is being OK and quiet, I am finding it unsettling having people pass my window to see him at this time of night (midnight). He is moving to his own place soon so he won't bother us but tonight I didn't want people outside my room. They have been quiet and on any other night, it would be fine.

I asked my OH to tell our son to stop his guests going past my window so often. He rang him to say that and there was no problem but there will be another person going past later and it is really unsettling me tonight. On other nights it wouldn't be such an issue.

The trouble started when my OH wasn't understanding about how I was feeling about his, needing peace after my illness and how tired I am. Whenever I feel tired after anything gruelling, he acts horrible and he said I was being unreasonable. I find that offensive given I have been keeping going doing jobs and generally keeping my spirits up. I simply want time out from the everyday stuff to get over this tiredness and I am being called unreasonable for this.

I felt very scared by him (he looks really scary when he gets angry) and I don't need this on top of getting over my illness and trying to relax. Whilst I haven't been hit, it feels like a slap in the face and I feel really depressed. Not only am I tired but he has upset me. He says he is sorry but then flares up again when I state how I feel. I feel I have to watch how far I go with what I say and he makes things uncomfortable and I feel bullied by this discomfort and have done for many years.

I eat and drink things to cope with this feeling but I am so tired now, I need to take it easy. I haven't wanted to cook or do the mundane stuff this week. I have found everyday things a mega chore and putting the face on a drag. Somehow he makes me feel wrong for this and I am sick of it tbh. He isn't going out to work just now, so can do more around the house but I have to half do it for him and ALWAYS have to ask and check as he forgets to lock doors or shut fridges etc.

Whenever anyone else offends me, I feel he wants me to shut up and never deals with them. If I am not the sweet dutiful wife, I am unreasonable. I hate housework and chores at the best of times and feel I do heaps even tho he is at home. He does do other things but it is the relentless day in day out every bloody day of the same old on top of being ill or wanting time out to recover.

A few days ago, I was feeling really close to him and wanted to be with him but when he does this to me, I feel alone, betrayed and scared. I want to get my own place. I am made to feel wrong for feeling tired and wanting peace when I need it. I can't work or do anything tiring as I am made to feel wrong for wanting to relax.

We are having to find a new place to live soon and I don't want to live in a place where I feel anxious about feeling tired and wanting to relax with my OH around.

How can I get over this feeling of feeling wrong? I know I am not but I feel ill again.