My attempt-at-being-honest-about-how-much-I-spend-in-the-hope-to-reduce-it diary

notenoughcash

Thanks scrooge, that'll be even more money saved next time I shop, and I'm going to try more cheek too, I wouldn't usually dare ask for someone to top something up but I'm going to give it a try!!

Shopaholic, you have made me believe there is hope for me. I don't want to be with this guy and wouldn't be if he was the only man on earth after what he did to me, but I am still so desperately in love with him! (well the fake him any way) I don't want to be but I just can't help it, it's so difficult to explain. I worshipped the ground he walked on and I was so sure I would be with him forever I made excuses for him about the way he treat me because his promises of a rosy little life were so convincing. I can't wait until I'm ready to meet someone again, and hopefully, finally, actually be happy!

shopaholictiedtheknot

notenoughcash wrote: »

Shopaholic, you have made me believe there is hope for me. I don't want to be with this guy and wouldn't be if he was the only man on earth after what he did to me, but I am still so desperately in love with him! (well the fake him any way) I don't want to be but I just can't help it, it's so difficult to explain. I worshipped the ground he walked on and I was so sure I would be with him forever I made excuses for him about the way he treat me because his promises of a rosy little life were so convincing. I can't wait until I'm ready to meet someone again, and hopefully, finally, actually be happy!

Obviously I don't know the whole story with you, but for me (and this might sound a bit weird) I made a list of all the horrible things he had done and lies he had told and kept it in my purse to remind me whenever I needed it and it really helped me to see that he was no good for me and that our life was just never going to be the way I wanted and neither was he, the man I am married to now is the complete opposite in every way and I am so lucky I found him - bizarrely I met him when I was trying to contact the nasty ex in a fit of annoyance one new years eve, I mis-dialled the number by one digit and got my hubby and we got talking - the rest as they say is history!! strange but true!! There IS hope for you so hang in there girl!! ((hugs)))

notenoughcash

Wow, what a way to meet someone, you do know that next time I get peed off and hit the vodka I'm going to randomly start dialling numbers now!!

shopaholictiedtheknot

notenoughcash wrote: »

Wow, what a way to meet someone, you do know that next time I get peed off and hit the vodka I'm going to randomly start dialling numbers now!!

LOL thats what all my single friends say

notenoughcash

Well I heard some fantastic news the other day, the ex has got dumped by his new girlfriend for being an !!!! just like he was with me even though he swears blind he never did anything and it was my mind playing tricks! I've always been a strong believer in karma, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!

So I've been and splashed out a little but still haven't gone beyond my budget. Was passing tesco late afternoon so nipped in and got a fivers worth of reduced bargain meat for the freezer, bought myself a new pair of jeans (£6) and the boys a new t-shirt each. Plus my cleaning stuff from wilkos. Tried to stick to as many essentials as possible but still felt good walking home with a few bags of shopping!

My mum came yesterday and offered to take the boys for a night next week so I'm considering going for my first night out since I can't remember when if I can find anyone to go with! If I'm going MSE I'll invite girls round and stay in but would be nice to get out for a change. A couple of hours in the local won't break the bank but I think will do me the world og good!