A whole new world, for now

aren't I an arrogant one? isn't it weird how I can go from total insecurity to assuming worrying about my response to what will be a much sought after job!
yesterday i finally transferred the cash from my ISA to my current account to cover holiday, rates bill etc. I'm panicking a bit as i'm struggling with a lack of income even though i have access to funds currently so I transferred £500 less. I'd set the amount before getting my second commission which should net me around £500 so I just decided to leave the money where it was. It'll put me under a tad more pressure but hey, that's maybe what i need as i'm dithering.
to achieve my target, I need to come up with an additional £945 pcm between now and the end of the year. this seems like an absolute nightmare however, when my first big fee hits, I intend to transfer the £2k I used to set up my business bank account back to personal account so that will bring the monthly target down to £645. that is in addition to the current £400 monthly deficit eroding my personal account. If however, i don't aim for this, i definitely won't achieve it. That's the big learning from this site.
On other news, had dentist yesterday. 6 month check up scale and polish for £16.40. I see this as a worthwhile investment!
I also did some grocery shopping and got a number of whoopsied items inc the 26p bag of salad that become OH's dinner yesterday along with some on offer chicken. i did however spend a total of £45 but £14 of that was on really good meat that will be the protein for 14-16 meals. i also picked up one item for my mum that I will deliver today. £5 went on a mag that had an expensive eyeliner as a free gift. DD likes this brand and it is light to send to the US for her july birthday. (considerably lighter than the Percy Pigs and Tetley teabags that are mandatory!)
I have decided that I have to take one 2 business development activities each day. Today, this will be issuing 2 follow up emails. If I get a job cleared, it may also be chasing up our LA small business unit. I registered with them in April, received a case number with an email saying that there would be a 5 day response and since then, nothing despite a phone call from me. this really isn't good enough esp as I know they get ring fenced funding from central government to deliver this.
anyhow, need to get a cuppa then get a wiggle on. Fingers crossed for my emails.

so, gotta promise of a £200 job in september from one of yesterday's emails. also, made £5 with pa. we have been living off our reduced price haul this week though i met a friend for lunch today. i'd made a purchase for my fellow diner and so just spent £5 on lunch. then used a voucher for a free blow dry at the next door salon. left a £2 tip.
sat and watched the paxman election show last night until after half two. i am tired today and am truly appalled at how things have panned out. the thought of Arlene Foster (see cash for ash) wielding so much power horrifies me.
today i am grateful for
good friends
reliable internet
naptime

I know the money is good. It's waiting til October for it to crystallise that bothers me. Odd sort of weekend. The plus side was that no takeaways were consumed and the car didn't move at all. OH got the grass cut on Saturday before a deluge hit. We also watched a movie together which was lovely but rarely happens.
On the housework side, we cleared paperwork with lots of filing and shredding being done. I'm grateful that shredded paper can go in the brown bin. I've also identified a new home for a teddy bear, bnwt, that dd has agreed to part with. Unfortunately, apart from washing up, there was little to no housework done.
Today, I intend to use a timer, spend half an hour on my living room and fifteen mins in my bathroom then shower and dress in time for breakfast to be consumed along with pop master. I know flylady says to get dressed first but I'd sooner get the heavy cleaning out of the way before being clean and ready to face the world.
I have a prescription to get filled and OH has asked for some salad to be purchased. He likes mixed bags which aren't the most economical but he does eat the contents and it saves on purchasing lunches. Today I would also like to get a work task out the door and have my 2 business development activities to be done.
So, in 45 mins I will
Dust living room and polish
Wash sofas
Brush up and wipe down hearth
Hoover
Wash floor
I will then do a wash done of bathroom, happily I deal with the toilet every day.
All this will be done with a timer. 30 mins living room, 15 bathroom.
I will report back so please nag if or when you see the gaps.
Hope everyone's week gets off to a good start.