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  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
    Part of the Furniture Combo Breaker
    Hi

    Woke too early and saw my selfish OH

    He gave me hell for an hour because he thought I said something horrible, started crying, swearing and verbally abusing me, working himself into a state, blaming me and refused to goto work. He didn't care that I felt dizzy and stressed by it. His emotional needs always have to be met and never mind mine. I am put down and shouted at when I feel ill or upset by others. He isn't loyal to me when anyone else upsets me.

    He bought our bin in and he didn't move next doors bin out of the way of our house - I had to do it myself.

    He is a selfish useless fat loser. I can't wait to sell this flipping millstone!!

    I feel trapped here and it is making me feel depressed and irritable.

    Thank God he's gone now.
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Karrie
    Karrie Posts: 1,019 Forumite
    CCStar - I have read your mails over the last two days and you seem to be going down hill each day. This might be a silly suggestion and I apologise if it is but is there anywhere you can go for a few days to gather your thoughts? I know at my deepest hours, I used to want to just go away on my own to put things in to perspective. You seem to be suffocating in your own home and it's not good for you.
    Life is like a box of chocolates, ya never know what yer gonna get ;);)
  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
    Part of the Furniture Combo Breaker
    Karrie wrote: »
    CCStar - I have read your mails over the last two days and you seem to be going down hill each day. This might be a silly suggestion and I apologise if it is but is there anywhere you can go for a few days to gather your thoughts? I know at my deepest hours, I used to want to just go away on my own to put things in to perspective. You seem to be suffocating in your own home and it's not good for you.

    I am waiting on my car then it will free me up - I was hoping to sell the house but it is so slow.

    I tried going to a hotel but it is expensive, so may end up renting somewhere to get my head together.
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Karrie
    Karrie Posts: 1,019 Forumite
    I hope you get your car soon ;)
    Life is like a box of chocolates, ya never know what yer gonna get ;);)
  • Sugar_Coated_Owl
    Sugar_Coated_Owl Posts: 12,379 Forumite
    :hello:

    Tiff, don't burn yourself out hun. Take some well earned rest.

    Ethel, You're gorgeous hun. Maybe it was the depression making you think badly of yourself over the last few days. Your dinner sounds yummy. Room for 1 more? :p

    CCStar, Really just reiterating what others have said. You really need to get yourself out of this situation to give yourself some space and time to sort your head out. It doesn't sound as if this relationship is beneficial to you in any way. It just seems to be making you unhappier each day. (((HUGS)))
    -->♥<-- Sugar Coated Owl -->♥<--

    If you believe, you will survive - Katie Piper

    Woohoo! I'm normal! Gotta go tell the cat.
  • gillette147
    gillette147 Posts: 13,296 Forumite
    Part of the Furniture 10,000 Posts Photogenic Combo Breaker
    Hi folkes,

    Just got back from counselling. I said I didn't think it was going anywhere. She does seem to be getting a handle on what I'm like - but I just think she is going to solve what I do, not what's in my head. Thus I will remain miserable - but be less hassle to others - great, pah!!

    I am copying some new music into my phone and I'm going for a drive in the sun. I feel at a loose end. I don't want to do chores, I want to live. But I am alone so I am reduced to pootling around pretending to have fun.

    I am going to have to do another course to be safe. I have looked into it and I will enrol tomorrow. It's a june exam. It will cost me £800 which is a killer - but I have to invest in my career to get one. I really don't want to go through exam hell again - but I have to cover my bases.

    I love you all and care lots for your happiness.

    CC
    This can't go on. You need to make a change or have a break. No-one can go on indefinately the way you feel xx

    Ethel
    I must look into this boots thing - I do love a scam xx

    RBK
    I am so sorry to hear that you ODed again. But I hope your new resolution sticks xx

    Tiff & Sazzy
    Almost as good as Laurel and Hardy xx

    GL, Blinky, Karrie, elona, and so many others
    Hugs and Handshakes to you all xx

    PS
    I saw Feelie briefly come on msn then probably block 2 days ago. So I hope that means she is ok and maybe well. She ignored my txt message a couple of weeks ago but as long as she is happy somewhere then so am I.

    xx
    Girls are gonna love the way I toss my hair. Boys are gonna hate the way I seem.

    I would rather drown with you than watch the surf with someone else
  • Sugar_Coated_Owl
    Sugar_Coated_Owl Posts: 12,379 Forumite
    Gillette wrote:
    Just got back from counselling. I said I didn't think it was going anywhere

    :rotfl: It's not you, it's me. Sorry lol couldn't resist.

    How many counselling sessions have you had? Might it be worth carrying on for a little bit?

    It's good to hear you're sounding so positive about your career. With your determination I'm sure you will succeed.

    xxx
    -->♥<-- Sugar Coated Owl -->♥<--

    If you believe, you will survive - Katie Piper

    Woohoo! I'm normal! Gotta go tell the cat.
  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
    Part of the Furniture Combo Breaker
    Yes give the counsellor a chance - some you will get on with.

    I agree, he is constantly putting me down or trying to make me feel bad about things, albeit in a subtle minor way or saying ot outright. He blames his being overweight on me, blames why he's getting nowhere on me. I think he engineers this to happen, I get upset then he blames me. He can be very loving and nice, then he either withdraws when things seem nice or when I am low, he gets angry with me like I am doing it to upset him. It isn't nice writing this or coming to this conclusion and of course I stay with this for the nice bits, only to set myself up to getting hurt again and again.

    He keeps saying he cares but when it gets to the crunch, he doesn't - it is all words and no action.

    It has been doing my head in and with the people messing us around with the viewings I am getting sick of these jokers:mad:

    Does anyone know a good letting agency for the whole of the UK?
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • flis21
    flis21 Posts: 1,842 Forumite
    What do you do when you hit rock bottom and there is nothing else you can do. I can see no light at the end of the tunnel. My life is !!!!!!, what is the point in anything? Really don't think I can carry on, been crying (and drinking) most of the day. Hubby is not home until late and he is not that sympathetic or helpful anyway.
    Sorting my life out to give a better life to my
    :heartsmil 2 gorgeous boys :heartsmil
  • flis21
    flis21 Posts: 1,842 Forumite
    I mean it, what is the point. I hate my life. Nothing goes right for me. I hate the way I look, I have no friends, no social life, no money. Get hassled constantly by debt collection agenices. Had a letter from one this morning saying they are sending someone round to the house. Can't stand this anymore. Don't know what to do.
    Sorting my life out to give a better life to my
    :heartsmil 2 gorgeous boys :heartsmil
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