Saving the pennies......

Thank you both so much.

Unfortunately i struggled so much in night i phoned ward who phoned crisis team. Crisis team came out to see me ( and should be coming back with meds) i dont know if i need longer in hospital? My parents ate in there 70s and are struggling to cope with me.

So didnt go out with my friends.

Just went to sainsburys with my dad. Got
Mum flowers-£4
Mum 70th birthday card-£3
Tub of sweets when we see my cousions children in April£4
3x fiber one bars ( on offer) £4.50
Toy for DS for birthday £4.50 instead on £9
Deodrant £1.50
Hot choc £1

I remembered to use my nectar card. Ive got £30 in vouchers to use with ds over half term-if i am well enough.

I am now in bath.

I put a post on another part of forum as i am worried about money. When i do move 'home' not sure if it will really be home without ds? But my cat is there.

Fob is taking tv so i know i need to buy one of them. I am keeping sofa and table and my bed and paying him off £400.

Its so much to take in-my head is a mess xxx

I Spent £7 on food for ds. Ds is living with fob-divorce is STILL really early days. He says he dosent want maintenance. I will have him 4 x 3 hours after school and 1 x 9.45-6 pm on weekend.

I bought ds, crisps, brownie, ribena, apple juice and fish he likes. I have no idea on child maintance. I think bevause fob looks afyer his dad 2 x a week and works 3 other days ds will be intitled to school meals. I will feed him tea. But obviously Fob WILL do wadhing, heating, lighting etc. I feel it maybe beyter to dd money each week-however i LIKE to feel i am doing somethinh-so like buying ds bits.

Right now i get pip and contributed esa-i am still paying half on all bills. If i am in hospital longer than 28 days my pip will stop. I go back tomorrow and see what consultant says.

Xxxx

Yep it is hunny. I am looking forward to my hols espically ones with ds.

Had a NSD

At home with ds after school watching the good dinosaur

Dad is sorting out house price with fib tonight-so we will roughly find out what i will owe my parents back.

I was discharged from hospital-so at least i fong need to worry about pip stopping so 1 good thing.

Ive got to go collect my meds at 7pm as they wernt ready. My dad is driving me. But psychatrist said i can drive not that i have car. But dads goung to add me on insurance come march.

Ive been thinking about saving up to paint my room. Once i move back in. But that coukd be 6 months.

Xxxx

The divorce has really hit me. Ive max out on PRN meds. I was nearly taken back into hospital yesterday when i saw crisis. I NEED to stay strong for DS.

I went to mataland they had LOADS in sale-i bought NOTHING. But we went to morrision i bought DS tea for next week ( mostly reduced meat) spent £21. But £7 was on cardi i might take back. Plus 2 pot PB2 which was £8. Ds he ate chicken breast new pot and peas. Had a brownie a cut up apple and toast and peanut butter-i think he maybe going through growth spurt! He went to carer group tonight. He likes it there.

Saw DS rang and updated tax creduts with actual income-not esteimate. That was a LONG phone call. We will owe it back once fob and ds move out i will stop claim.

I am not sure how i will cope for money i get ESA contribution based and PIP

While FOB is in the house. I am just paying mortgage AND some water-not sure on amount. We need to figure it out. I do all my washing up there ( mums in her 70 she cant do it) and cook ds tea there 5 x a week. And heat up my soup ( i cant swallow-they think its anxiety-so living off soup right now.

It was mums 70th birthday we hope to go to hotel 40 mins away tomorrow and sat night. Because FOB hasnt told me about bills i am unsure of money. Ds is coming down sat for meal ( dad has said he will pay-dont think he should pay for fob but bet he ends up doing so) so i only need money for tea ( soup tomorrow) and will buy my parents a drink-mum will be white wine spritz dad may even have coke and coffee after meal-maybe treat mum to bailey one. So £25. We get breakfast-hoping they may do scrambled egg and tom? I might eat that. Bought cuppa soup for lunch then enterance to playcentre for us all £10. Hope fob will get coffees. Then play on 2p machines-ive got £4 ish in 2ps. Then meal. Fob and ds are leaving at 6pm ish.Sun breakfast. Ds is having breakfast with us at 10am Then will probably take ds to park ( bought loaf of bread to feed ducks today) maybe buy him ice cream ( i know there is snow-BUT he 6 ) so hoping the £50 in bank will be enough. Ive had 1 drink out this week a cogfee with my auntie at a farm shop. I am trying to STOP unnecessarily spending.

Next month i need to work money coming in/going out when i have house on my own. Eek. I hope i can survive.

Thank you for reading xxxx