Calling all you night owls

smashedbooboo

Cheeky barstewards, bless em. I dont venture over to the arms. But its a good thing they have one over there as well. x x x x x Is it called the night owls.

Just_Me_4

I bet none of them are up as late/early as you lot!;)

pamril1

butterflylady wrote: »

Hi Guys,

Its been a long time since I was last on this thread, when my MIL was taken poorly then to let you know that she had past away.

So tonight I'm up wide awake can;t sleep, I shouldn't be its a work night and I need to be up in less then 5 hours. However had a row with my OH, his Brother and wife have tonight well yesterday now had their first child a little girl. I'm really pleased for them, I can't wait to meet her.

However this is all a bit hard for me as I lost a baby last October so would have been due around now and am also desperate for another child (my DS is 1 next week). I'm one of those people whose only desire is to be a mum I love doing it.

So we;re talking about y I have shed a tear or 2, and OH told me that the baby I lost last yr wasn't a baby, it was 2 early to be a baby!! The baby was a baby to me!!

Having another baby also comes up into conversation, i say we wont have anymore cos to be honest he doesn;t want any more (he's lost both his parents this year so doesn;t want children they wont see) and he has told me he only had DS to keep me happy. Not the right reason to have children. He loses his temper at me shouting that all I talk about is having more children and that I never let it drop.

I have tried really hard not to mention it recently, but when your broody as hell as you know theres a good chance your body wont let you have another baby if you leave it to much further. Then its a really struggle but trying I have been.

So now I'm totally stuck as to what to do

So sorry to hear of you recent loss it's hard for all concerned I know.
I have endometriosis and was told I would find it VERY hard to conceive I now have two children but it was not without it's fair share of problems or concerns. I also had a miscarriage (very early in pregnancy) in 2006 and I know what I lost was our baby it effects me to this day I often wonder "what if?". Grief effects folks in many different ways your OH shouting and not wanting a child may be part of his greiving process nothing personal to you I am sure he loves you. Maybe he secretly grieves for the baby you lost but dare not say so for fear of upsetting you. My OH did this we almost seperated because we did not talk to each other about our feelings.
You have to talk to you OH and be honest about your feelings believe me it helps to get it off your chest, tell him you realise he is grieving and you know and understand his pain and that you are grieving too for he baby you both lost and you need to be together on this to get through it.

butterflylady

Thank you smashed for your kind words, I'm so sorry about your baby and that the IVF failed. It also ways seems that the people who would be the best parents have the worst journeys in becoming them.

I think your advice about posting or PM'ing my thoughts rather than just speaking my mind to my OH is a good idea.

Unfortunately I can;t go into my DS as that is where OH has decided to sleep tonight!!

Night-owl_6

Night-owl_6

butterflylady

OK, who made the thread go a funny size, and how do we get it back right again?

Night-owl_6

I did - Oops

Just_Me_4

I'm going in a bit guys I'm so sorry you guys who are having a hard time of things. Lots and lots and lots of hugs from me, hope you manage to get some sleep tonight. If any of you hear from Pix give her my best wishes.

:kisses:

butterflylady

Thats ok Night Owl I was worried I'd done it!!!