Depression Support Thread

TangledMemories_2

Am I depressed?! I don't honestly know!
I'm currently off work with what's thought to be a stress-related illness - blood test results come back on Monday.
I've got no energy at all, permanent headache and the slightest thing makes me want to cry. Sometimes I just want to to curl up in bed and forget everything. Nothing gives me pleasure any more.
I'm worried about this sick leave too - although I ended up in tears on the phone to my manager and she said to work at getting better instead of worrying about that place...I want to be in work because I don't like being stuck in the house on my own, but then I don't feel mentally or physically capable of being in work.

Am I depressed?

Sazbo

TangledMemories wrote: »

Am I depressed?! I don't honestly know!
I'm currently off work with what's thought to be a stress-related illness - blood test results come back on Monday.
I've got no energy at all, permanent headache and the slightest thing makes me want to cry. Sometimes I just want to to curl up in bed and forget everything. Nothing gives me pleasure any more.
I'm worried about this sick leave too - although I ended up in tears on the phone to my manager and she said to work at getting better instead of worrying about that place...I want to be in work because I don't like being stuck in the house on my own, but then I don't feel mentally or physically capable of being in work.

Am I depressed?

Hiya TangledM :hello: Thanks for posting. Really only your doctor can make a diagnosis hun. Best to wait and see what they say. Try not to worry too much until then - although I know that's far easier said than done. In the meantime feel free to post here.

Take care,
Sazzy xxxx

LadyMorticia

Heylo TangledMemories.

I agree with Sazbo. Only your doctor can make a formal diagnosis. We'd all be very happy to support you though. Feel free to post as much or as little as you like.

xx

shazrobo

hi tangled memories, i agree with sazbo and ladym that only a doctor can make a formal diagnosis, but just wanted to say hello and welcome to the thread
shaz xxx

shazrobo

not having a good day today, son was brought home from school by two police officers, not making excuses for his violent behaviour, but have done everything i possibly can to help him. now if anything happens again they will permanently exclude him, god only knows what'll happen then.
feel like cutting again, so far am resisting the urge but its so hard, problems with ex not helping either
shaz xxx

Sazbo

shazrobo wrote: »

not having a good day today, son was brought home from school by two police officers, not making excuses for his violent behaviour, but have done everything i possibly can to help him. now if anything happens again they will permanently exclude him, god only knows what'll happen then.
feel like cutting again, so far am resisting the urge but its so hard, problems with ex not helping either
shaz xxx

please don't cut shaz hun. please talk if it helps

love sazzy xx

LadyMorticia

shazrobo wrote: »

not having a good day today, son was brought home from school by two police officers, not making excuses for his violent behaviour, but have done everything i possibly can to help him. now if anything happens again they will permanently exclude him, god only knows what'll happen then.
feel like cutting again, so far am resisting the urge but its so hard, problems with ex not helping either
shaz xxx

I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling good hun. ****hugs**** I'm not great at giving advice or anything but if you ever need to just talk or just rant to someone then I'm here. ****hugs****

xx

Horasio

Felt so dizzy and had a sore throat today, I think I have a cold. Didn't sleep too well either. Stayed in bed, watched TV and napped today.

Felt a bit invaded by my OH today, I really need to be alone and quite capable of looking after myself when I feel unwell. He is so intrusive, there is nothing he can do and his presence really stresses me when I don't feel so good or want to be alone. I feel he is offended when I am wanting to rest and relax, and feel pressured in my home to be cheerful and be together.

It is good he is having time to himself to rest himself or develop his business ideas. It has been a grueling month.

He is very subtle but has a way of making me feel wrong however I feel be it happy or needing a rest/tired. He seems to be always 'there' when I want to rest and distant when I want to connect. I hate feeling 'wrong' all the time and it is stressing me.

He interrupts me when I speak or switches off and I have repeat everything 3 times to get heard. I end up having to talk slowly and loudly to him to get his attention. I am feeling like a frump when I do this and feel angry when he interrupts me.

I don't feel connected to him just now and it is stressing me. He started talking about hotels for our trip away at the end of May just as we were saying goodnight and I have felt so sh*te all day and feel tired. His timing is just wrong. He says 'sorry' when I tell him I don't feel up to it but he does it again and again. My neck is so stiff because I am so angry at his stupidity. He has be with me for 27 years and doesn't know the first thing about me and my needs.

I wish I had my own place where I didn't have to put the 'face' on or feel uncomfortable relaxing in my own home.

shazrobo

thanks for the hugs ladym, just feeling sorry for myself at mo, done everything i can to bring up my two sons as best i can, always been there for them, both have learning difficulties as well as severe ADHD, and are a target for bullies, which started his violent reaction towards the bullies, but its getting out of hand and i'm scared for what the future holds. guess part of my problem is that i'm such a worrier. other part is that i probably care too much, but i cant help it, i dont really have any one in my life other than my sons and want the best for them.
big hugs
shaz xxx

ilovegreatdanes

shaz....can only sympathise and send a hug.must be so hard to cope with stuff.kids are so hard at best of times but i think mainstream skool is so much harder for kids today than when i was there.if you are any diff fron "norm", then i have admiration for the kids and the parents.
growing up and hormones is diff enough but if they cant channel their anger somewhere productive, you just know that its gonna be explosive.
all you can do is keep trying, and keep talking it out, if he will let you, as grunts and attitude is getting to be the norm in our house.
i try to think what it was like when i was that age and it was hard.
peer pressure is really bad and bad behaviour seems to get more of a reaction than good, unfortunately.there are so many in a class as well, these days.you only want one trouble maker winding up your son and even if its not his fault, he will be the one whos blamed cos its easiest for the teacher.
is there any activity that he really excels in??something he really enjoys that some of the tutors could concentrate on him with??
if he is excluded, he should get some teaching at home.also could you keep a kind of diary of good and bad days?for him and you....then its something to discuss with the skool and the welfare officer from skool.would some med or therapy help him?
please try to look after yourself for all your family.....remember your son only hurts you cos he loves you and you are the only one he trusts.hes prob desperately unhappy at skool cos they havent the time or resources to find out what coping stratagies he needs.
im thinking of you.xx