Depression Support Thread

Diamond78

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Heya lovelies.

Sorry I haven't posted. My internet has been down.

You are so beautiful Tulip. Keep the photos coming.

My exes new fiancee has started talking to me on bebo for some reason. There has to be some ulterior motive. If I was his new girlfriend then I really don't think I'd be sending his ex comments and messages. Or maybe that's just me?
She wants me to add her on msn but I'm not going to. I'm not going to put myself in a position to get hurt. And plus what has she got to say via msn that she can't say to me via bebo anyway?

I am so on edge today. I have palpitations and I'm just really jumpy. The tv keeps making noises and making me jump. And I also keep having dreams about my old stalker. I still see him about sometimes but I try to avoid him. He makes me really uncomfortable.

I managed to get dressed today. I know it may not be a big thing to some people but it's a big thing to me at the moment as I'm struggling so much that sometimes I just can't be bothered. I promised myself I would never get to a point where I couldn't be bothered to look after myself but sometimes these promises can't help but be broken, no matter how much we try to ensure that they are kept.

I'm sorry if I sometimes appear to be self-indulgent. I'm not, really. Just sometimes I need an outlet for my thoughts and emotions, otherwise I internalise them and then take them out on myself.

Love you all
xx

Hi Hun, sorry to hear your feeling a bit on edge.I really think she shouldnt respond to ex's girlfriend.Dont add her and dont speak to her.They are not worth it.Or he isnt.She could be nice but could be trying to get info out of you.They are both best avoided.
I am not dressed yet but need to as sons not well so need to go out and get him some cough medicine. I cant be bothered a lot of times and have really slipped into not taking care of myself.I look ill and rough but I just dont have it in me at the moment.
Carry on avoiding your stalker hun, if you feel afraid then contact the police.Hope you have a better day today.Hugs xxx

shazrobo

hi all, hope everyone is well
well done ladym, on getting dressed, i know how hard that can be, when we have bad days. i too wouldn't talk to ex or his new fiancee,
diamond, sorry to hear your back is staill playing up, and that your not sleeping well again
tiff, hi hun, good to see you posting agin, how are you hun?
ilgd, i get worried too hun, when things dont work on comp, but like somebody else said, they prob just suspended your account, after putting in wrong details, hope it sorted soon hun
tulip, hope you have a great day hun,, i love getting my hair cut, i keep mine short too, easier to manage
sazzy, howe are you today hun, just noticed that you have added me to your msn, will chat on there soon,
not been up long, sons let me have a lie in as they know i'm feeling poorly with this cold, best go make them something to eat, before they accuse me of starving them lol
big hugs
shaz xx

LadyMorticia

Diamond78 wrote: »

Hi Hun, sorry to hear your feeling a bit on edge.I really think she shouldnt respond to ex's girlfriend.Dont add her and dont speak to her.They are not worth it.Or he isnt.She could be nice but could be trying to get info out of you.They are both best avoided.
I am not dressed yet but need to as sons not well so need to go out and get him some cough medicine. I cant be bothered a lot of times and have really slipped into not taking care of myself.I look ill and rough but I just dont have it in me at the moment.
Carry on avoiding your stalker hun, if you feel afraid then contact the police.Hope you have a better day today.Hugs xxx

Heya hun,

That's what I'm going to do - not respond to her comments, messages or anything. I think it might have been my ex who asked her to add me. No idea why which is why I think there is some motive behind it. I don't want to appear rude by not responding to her but there has to be some reason behind it all. I spoke to my best friend about it and she agrees that there must be some motive behind it too. At first I thought it was just me being paranoid but now I know it's not.
I really hope he doesn't treat her how he treated me because I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I do think they are moving too fast r.e. getting engaged though. They've only been going out a week and a half and only known each other for two weeks. It doesn't bother me as such. I mean, I'm not annoyed or anything but something seems odd? Guess it just still hurts a lot. It takes me a long while to get over being abandoned. I still haven't fully recovered from all the other times.

I hope your son gets better soon hun. Being ill is no fun - especially for children. How old is he? My foster sister used to hate getting ill on school days and would cry her heart out if she had to miss a day of school.lol. Bless her.

Don't worry. I'm dressed and still look rough.I don't have to see anyone though or go out so I feel for you. I have to go out on Monday though. I have to pick up a prescription from the doctors. Not that my pills work or anything but I take them in the hope that one day they will kick in.lol.
Do you have any plans for this weekend? The new series of Doctor Who starts tonight so I'll be watching that and I might start my scrapbook. I have a lot of goth and rock magazines and they are taking up space so I'm going to cut out the articles and posters I want to keep and put them in a scrapbook to keep them all nice and tidy.

My stalker used to go to the same drop in as I do. He used to say really creepy things to me and I accidentally mentioned it to a worker there and they had a word with him and he got a warning. I found out that I wasn't the first girl who had said something to the workers there though. A few girls in the past had said something too. Once in a room full of people he said he saw a gothic wedding dress and was going to buy it for me. I got very creeped out - as did one of the workers there. Sometimes I see him and I can't avoid him and he asks me to go out for a drink with him but I just make up a quick excuse and leave. He really freaks me out.

I realize this reply is now rather long. Sorry. Sometimes I get carried away.lol.

xx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Benthosboy :hello: Martyn, I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling right now. If you need to talk things through, feel free to post on here. We will try to help and support you as best we can.

Do you have a good social network of family/friends that you can talk to?

Diamond78

LadyM, well done for getting dressed and deciding not to respond to ex's gfriend.Beleive me you are doing the right thing. Dont worry what she thinks or how you come across. She will see sense herself and realise what he is like.If u tell her, he will turn it around on you and say all sorts.I know it hurts but it will take time hun.Patience and time is a great heaer.
My son is 6 going on 16 lol.He is great tho, such a strength to me, he keeps me going.I think the change in weather has given him his cold and cough.Most medicines tho dont help but I will still have to go out and get it for him. I should be out looking for some where to live but Im so tired of looking as no one accepts housing benefit.Im fed up looking online, viewing and nothing happens.
I hope you get started on your scrap book.Thats a great idea and will take things off your mind too.Once my head is a little sorted I am going to do one for my son.
I should get dressed in a bit.Ive done no housework and its a mess but I just dont have it in me.I hate it where I live, i never use to be like this
Anyway take care hun and enjoy doctor who.
Hi Shaz, sorry your still feeling poorly hun, have some honey and milk or hot water with lemon and honey.Thats nice your boys let you have a lie in.My house fone woke us up at 8, damm it was wrong number but once im awake I cant go back to sleep.My backs not so bad now, its usually night times when its bad,which causes me to wake up.
I just got a call from a landlord so I will be going to view a flat later today.He sounded pretty nice, so please keep your fingers crossed for me.Chat soon all my lovely friends.xxxxx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Tulip I really like your photo's Your pottery looks really good. You're very creative.

Do we get to see a pic. of you with your new hair cut?

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Diamond I hope you find a place real soon. Let us know how you get on this afternoon.

I've been trying to find a place to live (I still live at home). My social worker contacted a few charities who have given me £300 towards a deposit to which I am really grateful However, I need to save up a lot more of my own money. A 1 bed flat is at least £700 plus bills which I really cannot afford right now

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are all ok,Just had my hair done,got another horse with a free £1 bet from the Sun newspaper,having pizza and salad today for lunch with chopped red peppers,tomatoes and cherry tomatoes and then a little strawberry cheesecake for pudding


It is so lovely out today it really is,seeing parents at 2pm


*hugs* to everyone that needs one


Good Luck with the viewing of the flat Diamond hope its nice and that it is what you want and are looking for


love and light,

Katie

Diamond78

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Diamond I hope you find a place real soon. Let us know how you get on this afternoon.

I've been trying to find a place to live (I still live at home). My social worker contacted a few charities who have given me £300 towards a deposit to which I am really grateful However, I need to save up a lot more of my own money. A 1 bed flat is at least £700 plus bills which I really cannot afford right now

Thanks hun. I really hope I find a place soon too. If I wasnt on hosuing benefit It would be so much easier.But even If I worked it would be just as hard.I will let you know once I have been to view it.He said he will ring when his at the property.Its only 10mins from where I am so It would mean my son would be able to go to his school and I can start my course at the end of the month.I am due to start college to do a teaching assistant course.
I think you should stay at home with your parents. I wish I had that option but my mum lives abroad.It is very lonely when you live alone hun and very hard with all the bills.But in a way I can understand why you want your own place.Some landlords dont ask for a deposit.It really depends where you are loking for and the landlord.You should try gumtree and place an add.I have done that for ages.Just be very careful though as some people try and scam you by asking you to send them money via western union.Never ever give your bank details out.If you go and view a property never ever give money up front as you dont know if they legit.Explain you are being cautious ect..When you find a place you like pm me and I will give you more advice but please dont give no money.There are some genuine landlords out there, its just finding them.
Thanks Tulip,hope your hair is nice and you enjoyed the feeling of being pampered.I really need to get my hair cut.I use to have such long hair but the headaches caused me to chop it off which I messed up lol.Im no hairdresser so had to go and get it done properly.I starighten my hair sometimes and where I have not loked after my hair it looks a mess with lots of split ends.I got the herbal essences shampoo, which offers a free hair cut so might look into that.
Im dressed now at last.Just need to get little man dressed.Wont be veiwing till after 4 or 5.he said the tenants only left yesterday and they left a mess so he wants to clear it up although I said its not a problem.I just hope its ok and housing benefit wont be a problem as they have changed all the rates again, so the rates have gone down.He was asking for 950 a month but I explained the artes have dropped and he said its not a problem.Fingers crossed.
Thanks everyone xxx

Benthosboy

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Benthosboy :hello: Martyn, I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling right now. If you need to talk things through, feel free to post on here. We will try to help and support you as best we can. Thank you for that.

Do you have a good social network of family/friends that you can talk to? My family are all 250 miles away in Yorkshire and after living in Dorset for just over 3 years, the only friends I have are ones I've made on here. The more I read that, the more I realise what a mess I've made of it all.

Where's a sad-faced weeping smilie when you need one??