Depression Support Thread

feelinggood_2

And Diamond, you are so lovely. Thank you for always listening. How are you tonight? You are up rather late?

feelinggood_2

drifter34 wrote: »

this is usually the point people tell me too ra** off

That won't happen here!

About me: I'm feely, a 21 year old female. I've suffered from depression for about 13 years now. I'm a recovering alcoholic, not had a drink in 18 months. I've had problems with binge eating for over 15 years, but I think I'm actually bulimic now. I've got problems with sex addiction and self-harm. I've had pretty bad anxiety for the past 3 years, and I was a borderline agrophobic for 6 months, and always revert back to hiding inside with the curtains closed whenever I'm low.

I sound crazy don't I!

drifter34

i have had really negative reactions like pull yourself together and 1 time i cut so deep i had to go to the doctors as the previous time i heard a doctor saying that s.h,sould not be given anasthetic before being helped that put me really paranoid+i go to a support group sometimes it helps

Diamond78

hey feelingood, im sorry your ffeeling low hun. Whats triggered it?Bit of a silly question I know as with me, there doesnt seem to be a reason to trigger mine off, im a misrabe cow 99% of the time. I have hidden it so well for so long but I dont have the energy anymore.
have you SH?I hope not but if you have make sure you lok after your cuts hun.
I know I say please dont do it coz I know myself what its like. The thoughts are there in my head all the time. i havent sh in just over a year but really feel like it as you know yourself you dont feel the pain at the time. But im so self concious and hate my scars on my arms. I worse tshirt today and some of the parents gave me very weird looks hispering, like Im deaf or blind. i feel like saying something but I wont.Why u awake still? Why r u feeling low hun?

Drifter, every1 is friendly here so dont feel worried ok. You are going through a lot. Its good hat you go to a support group. I am hoping to find one so I can go to but I dont like going out, have no confidence and the agrophobis is getting worse. I dont like getting upset in front of others, or showing any emotion.
My friends that I had keep saying pull yourslef together, stop being misrable ect ect ect, you know how it goes and that makes me feel worse. It doesnt help. I feel no one understands me in my life, not even the doctors or the pycatrist i sue to have(cant spell that word) only on here do ppl understand me and only on here I can express myself but even sometimes I dont always write how im feeling on here.I have very deep dark and negative thoughts.
Only thing that keeps me alive is my son.I could never leave him.His my life.

Diamond78

I am watching a weird film called run lola run, has anyone seen it or watching it?Its confusing me lol.

Cant believe I have to be up at 7.30 to get littleman ready for school. I hate the school run, its so hard

feelinggood_2

Diamond78 wrote: »

hey feelingood, im sorry your ffeeling low hun. Whats triggered it?Bit of a silly question I know as with me, there doesnt seem to be a reason to trigger mine off, im a misrabe cow 99% of the time. I have hidden it so well for so long but I dont have the energy anymore.
have you SH?I hope not but if you have make sure you lok after your cuts hun.
I know I say please dont do it coz I know myself what its like. The thoughts are there in my head all the time. i havent sh in just over a year but really feel like it as you know yourself you dont feel the pain at the time. But im so self concious and hate my scars on my arms. I worse tshirt today and some of the parents gave me very weird looks hispering, like Im deaf or blind. i feel like saying something but I wont.Why u awake still? Why r u feeling low hun?

I've SH'ed three times today, at it is pretty bad, by my standards anyway. Don't think it needs stitches - how do you know if it does?

My hamster is really poorly and I can't sleep. I think tonight might be his last night, and I'm devestated.

I've got a few other things going on too - a relationship that is fantastic, which I feel like is the only thing keeping me going at the moment and stuff.

Diamond78

am going to try and sleep now. Try and get some sleep you two.

Hope you feel better tomorrow.

PS SF you are so lovely to, you deserve so much happiness and always cheer me up.Thank you-Please dont SH.
I will be on tomoro if you want to chat hun.

Sleep well and chat soon.

Hugs xx

feelinggood_2

Night Night Diamond, hope you get some sleep. Thanks again.

drifter34

i,ve come back on i know how you feel i really do feelgood my hamster died on tuesday morning at 08:30am it was horrible i held her in my hands 1 hour before she passed in my hand
and at the moment i am quite manic congrats on being dry

feelinggood_2

I'm sorry about your hamster Drifter. They are only little but so full of life and personality. I really love him and I can't believe how much it hurts to loose him. I just wish I could make things better.

Do you sleep very little when you are manic? My Father-in-law has manic depression and struggles to sleep, is it a common symptom of people with bipolar?