The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread!

Bismarck

well said...selective blindness is my name for it. if it was a £1 coin on the floor they'd see it... and pick it up...rubbish on the floor...no way.

polaroid

my little one is at her dads and i ve cleaned the house and its immaculate - i moan when she messes everywhere up - but know i am missing her like mad, the house just feels empty without her running around and chatting...LOL! cant win!!:rolleyes: kids - who'd have em ? all of us and we love it really

hope every one is ok...bit quiet... xxx

Bismarck

quiet...hmm yes...kids don't mean to make a mess...honest...can certainly describe our house as lived in.....and when they're away you do kind of miss the chaos and you REALLY appreciate it when the little darlings are asleep...and you're awake..and sober...

polaroid

exactly!!!

xx

biscotte

Hey folks,

i spent a little time tonight re-reading some posts for their wise words. i slipped up last night - went out with the girls locally (so could walk home in 5 minutes) so I drank a bit too much - really only a bit too much but I have been feeling bad all day. physically energy less with a nagging head and mentally very annoyed at myself at my attitude to wine last night. I really felt anxious that I wouldn't get enough, keeping half an eye on the bottle we were sharing and the level in my glass - really pathetic actually- and this is after having a run of AFDs. I have also been very very short tempered with the kids all day and very irritable which I didn't like and it is how I am after drinking the night before
So I will have another alcohol free week ahead of me as I actually seem to be enjoying sobriety more.

polaroid, I really liked the thought of you choosing duck feeding over bottle popping... I wish we had ducks near here.

eselt

Biscotte, you sound so much like me, I always used to be the one who felt panicky at last orders and ordered a one for the road, felt OK cus I had a bottle home, worried about getting enough booze over the evening, used to neck some before I went out to give me a head start and some dutch courage to talk and socialise- don't know why I put myself through that really- so glad all thats stopped. I don't mind staying in on my own, even though people I used to know think I've become a bit of a hermit and think I'm sad. I just find it easier, I know I'm an alcoholic, I'm just not drinking anymore, I want to hold down a job, be a proper mum and get my life back. I was talking to my dad today, he's a pensioner and has no savings left as he spent everything he had over the last 3 yrs on my 7 detox's and hospital fees, I just can't believe I sunk so low, but now I've had the leg up out of the black hole I can't slip back down- if I relapse now I think it would be for the last time.

Hope everyone is OK this morning, its a great day here and I'm going to go out and enjoy it. Biscotte-can't believe you have no ducks!!! I used to go every week but had to stop when the swans got so used to humans they chased us all for ages, hissing and really fast- terrified the kids, they won't go near them now!!!

Debtlady- welcome-please post again- we can help, and we really want too.

polaroid

am feeling very low and ashamed. went to M+S and did the meal for a tenner thing on friday. got the wine cos it was included (god i feel stupid just writing that). Took the meal to my friends and left the wine at home. Last night I took my daughter out for tea and when we were driving home saw everyone going out and having fun. I dont what it is, i feel like i am missing out all the time. I think you know what happened when i got in, drank 2/3'd's and poured the rest down the sink, but the damage was done. feel disgusting today i ve really let myself down.
just reading your post eselt makes me feel even worse, why do i want to go back to that dark place again?? why? when its so descructive

Bismarck

you poured the rest away, polaroid......which is more than I could have done....

letting yourself down is what could happen tomorrow if you dwelt on this.

I cringe when I feel there's anything like a free bottle of something coming my way...it's like it creeps in under the armour and "doesn't count" because I've not forked out for it....yet one sip is all it can take to dump you back on the wrong path.....

I hope you are back on the right path, for you.....as for letting yourself down? no.....you made a mistake and realise it..that's 90% of the battle.

you know what you want now...just stick with what makes you happy.

take care everyone

dirtysexymonkey

I don't know whether this is the right thread to post in, but I haven't had a drink of alcohol since my birthday (start of May), mainly for money reasons, and now I'm back at Uni I'm finding it more difficult to agree to even go out to a club for the simple reason that alcohol will be there and I don't want to spend the money on it because it's basically money for nothing, which is ridiculous when I'm trying to save money.

jacktyler

i got drunk on friday after being dry for 6 months. i stopped taking my antabuse last week. i got my alcohol support worker coming round tomorrow morning and i'm so wound up about it, i'm sitting drinking again.

what a let down.