The Little Cottage by the Sea

Humdinger1

@BrimfulofSascha you'll do it! Gosh, what an inspiration you are. So looking forward to hearing all about your adventures, debt free. Onwards and upwards love Humdinger xx

BrimfulofSascha

Thanks @Humdinger1 I really appreciate you cheering me on from the sidelines.

Sascha

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BrimfulofSascha

Good morning Lovelies,

The sky is foggy and my mood is a little grey.

I have left overs from last nights recipe box with me in the office for lunch (to be honest I am usually pretty good with bringing in lunch) The car told me I need to top up air in my tyres today but I have a compressor in the car, so we should have a second no spend day in a row.

I need to try and do a run at lunchtime. Only an easy 6k, I hope the fog clears in time.

I had a letter from CMS a month or so ago to say that they will finally be sanctioning my DD's fathers wages, after 15 years of his games. Annoyingly this won't be actioned until the end of April. I've not had a penny since October so this isn't any different from the nothing I'm receiving but it still annoys me. why does it take 4 pay packets to set up? We won't even get into the conversation of why absent parents don't fall over themselves to support their children. I know it's the last form of 'control' he has over me. Pathetic abusive little man. It's just so tiring constantly battling while being the one doing 100% of the parenting. I'm so proud of myself and her and the life we have created for ourselves though.

This last year of secondary school requires so much parenting, I knew there would be support with revision etc, but why the school have to have so many in person parent meetings, school trips, things to have to pay out for I don't know. Then there is prom. I have booked an appointment at a big Prom dress place in a couple of weeks. That's what all her friends mums have done. I dread to think what these dresses actually cost. The fact that you have to book a 90 minute private appointment, and that only 2 people are allowed at the appointment (including the prom girl) already tells me it is going to be the hard sell! Anyway, we have an appointment in a couple of weeks, and I will probably have to rob from the gifts pot, and I'll tell myself I only get to do this once and I'll always make back the money, and all the other justifications that aren't pay-off-the-debt-friendly. I know absolutely that the above absent parent problem is the reason I spoil her so much. I just want her to know that she is so loved, I know love isn't material things, but it is experiences, like crying at how bloody beautiful she is going to look in all those dresses. That my bombastic, funny, full of life toddler is almost a woman. That I made it as a parent despite the hardship.

Sorry for the big old rant.

Sometimes you just don't want to burden your real life ears.

Love and light

Sascha

BrimfulofSascha

I've just realised something. Something that just crept up on me so quietly I didn't even acknowledge it.

I made my final payment to my loan in February, this is the first time since about 2012 that I haven't had a consolidation (or payday) loan.

Okay so I have two small loans, one for my new car and one for the boiler, but this are for tangible things that I actually benefit from everyday.

Now just to really break the spine of all this credit card debt.