IA's Debt/Life/Little bit of Everything Diary...

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immoral_angeluk

Morning all. Well it's 6.27 am and I've been online for half an hour. Have been awake since 4.30 with K. We got her into bed with us but she wouldn't sleep and the crunch came when Ste lost his temper so I brought her downstairs. Had enough now. I'm rubbish when I'm tired with a short fuse and no patience and if this doesn't get sorted out soon I can seem me ending up back on the anti d's. I'm run down and feeling low which isn't good. I don't even know whats wrong with her... this has been going on for weeks now and I just don't know what to do. Last night she kicked off at 11.30 so we gave her a bottle and thought that would sort her out. But nope. she woke up 2 or 3 times before it all went pear shaped. It's not her teeth as she's fine all day. Her eczema is fine at the moment... she wasn't hungry... I just don't know what to do and it's pushing ste and I to breaking point.
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immoral_angeluk

I feel so stupid. Am sat here in tears because I'm scared of ending up back on the anti d's. I feel so low and run down because of all the trouble K's haing sleeping. I can't rest at night and I'm so fed up. I've done so well to come this far with the PND and was feeling great.. but I seem to have fallen flat on my face at the first hurdle and I'm so scared of ending up back there again. It was such a horrible place and I really don't want to go back there again. but I just don't know what to do.....

Dumyat

IA I dont post here often..but I cant bear to see you upset like this. more will be along with good advice.
but I've been there done that got the t shirt with kids who dont sleep well. it wears down the best of us...its why sleep deprivation can be used as torture! it does get better...I promise.
you have your hands full...kids..new job..husband..house..dont be hard on yourself.

Dumyat

I see you are here. I think its positive you realise you might be getting down again. I know its hard, but maybe you need to stop being superwoman and look after yourself. Is there someone who can watch the kids for a night or two and let you get some rest?

immoral_angeluk

dogrose wrote: »

I see you are here. I think its positive you realise you might be getting down again. I know its hard, but maybe you need to stop being superwoman and look after yourself. Is there someone who can watch the kids for a night or two and let you get some rest?

Yea I'm here.. currently flitting between 'help!' posts.. lol. Thanks for the posts. I do appreciate it. I'm just desperate not to end up back with PND again.... I know that it can only be a good thing that I'm spotting the signs early but I don't want to end up back on the anti d's if it's just that I'm seriously over tired.... *sigh*

Dumyat

its a very tiring stressful time of year for us all. dont think you'll be alone in feeling frazzled. And if you're not sleeping well its bound to catch up with you. I think
you are doing such a good job looking after your family, working and sorting out your debts.

postingalwaysposting

ia is there a reason now why k isnt sleeping? I thought you started getting early a full night in? I understand where you are coming from regarding the pnd as i bet you feel like thats a closed chapter in your life but i guess sometimes these things still creap in once and a while. You noticing it before it got out of hand is great maybe you can manage it without the need of drugs? If its just a sleep thing maybe you can do what dogrose suggested and try and get a good nights sleep just to recharge your batterys.

The_Bride

Hi IA

Im a bit of a lurker but just wanted you to know that your not alone in the "sleep is for the weak" club.
DS is 20mths old and woke up happy as larry at 4:30am too, which in turn woke up DD2 who's 3 :eek:
I could also cry Im so tired and to top it off Im due in work in an hour

Maybe have a word with your HV about K's sleeping- We had to do the controlled crying with DD2, not very nice especially as she shares with DD1 but we cracked it after a few hellish days.

Remember everythings 100x worse when your knackered!

Hope you feel a bit brighter later


Kelly
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shell_girl

Being deprived of sleep makes us act differently and look at the world differently. In the last couple of months (from what I've read on here) you've had a new job, Christmas to sort out and pay for, Ste's elbow dramas, joined a band and committed to practice each week, money ups and downs AND two children to care for. Each of these things on their own are easy enough to shrug off but when you put them all together you're doing such a lot more than you were when K was tiny and (as you said yourself a couple of times) you hardly left the house. The simple fact that you've been able to do all this indicates to me IMHO that you're moving away from PND.

Having a life as well as two little ones will be exhausting, and I think when you're exhausted it's harder to differentiate between tiredness and the onset of depression because they do feel the same. Also bear in mind that the girls are getting older and more demanding- maybe not so you'd notice it on a day to day level but again if you compare looking after K as a newborn and Ash then with the two of them now I'm sure you'll notice a huge difference.

You will sort out K's sleeping- it may take some time but that's what OHs and MILs are there for- if you need a bit of extra support ask for it even if it's just an hour in the bath on your own with no little voices asking for Mum!