Simple living in the country - back to basics

Cheery_Daff

Thank you all xxx

I'm not doing too bad on the eat and sleep front. I did go to the vending machine yesterday... but mostly been making it to bed by 11 on work nights as planned - I have had a couple of early starts though which have chipped sleep off the other end! 

Not been to the gym since last Monday, but am planning to go tonight.

I've not actually missed a counselling session yet 😂 But I know what you mean. I'll see how that goes. Feel like I've moved through the bigger stuff, this is just occasional frettiness. Most of it feels connected with work - I think I've put my finger in too many pies and am now running around trying and failing to keep up with myself, hate that feeling of being constantly behind 🙄 Also trying to apply for promotion again which I hate 🙄😂 so that is NOT helping - the amount of times I've nearly talked myself out of it. Gives me palpitations every time I think about it 🙄

And yes, I know I don't have to do it now, or at all - but a big part of me not wanting to is just me feeling like I'm not good enough, and I don't want that to be the reason I don't apply...

Anyway, enough emotional wrangling, need to get dressed. Got a meeting at 9.30, and stuff to read and comment on before that, plus something else I said I'd do yesterday and forgot about 🙄

Mr Cheery has his speed awareness course later this morning. I don't think he's ever had a zoom call without me involved so we've had a practice and I'll mostly be on hand for technical help.

Ooh, I just popped in to say I won NOTHING on the premium bonds again 🙄 definitely true in our case that the more you have, the more likely you are to win (obvious really). Although I was pleased to see someone who bought £50 in 2007 has won £10,000!

Chiglepig

Anyway, February is here! And I can report that our Christmas tree is still up 😂😂

Merry Candlemas

themadvix

I’d temporarily forgotten to check premium bonds, but I’ll join in winning nothing this month! 🙄

I hope Mr Cheery’s zoom call goes smoothly!

Chiglepig

Cheery_Daff said:

Long day at work today, but I was home by about 7.30 and Mr Cheery had sausage and mash ready for when I got in 😁 I'm fretting and anxious at the minute and I do NOT like it 🙄 Doesn't seem to be passing, but at least it's not constant which is a start I suppose 🙄

Still, work got done, not enough, but mostly enough, and there's always tomorrow 🙄

I don't want to project, but my anxiety is through the roof with work at the moment - I thought I was well prepp'd for the teaching term, but yesterday I hit total burnout brain - I simply couldn't focus or think logically. You have even more going on, with caring for Mr C snr, the house reno, and everything else. Make sure you look after yourself.

EssexHebridean

Nothing won here this month either - boo! 

Absolutely don't underestimate the effects that the last nearly TWO FLIPPING YEARS have had on everyone - and that includes you! Even without all the other stuff you've been dealing with, just the simple upheaval of having to have plans change, adapt to a completely different way of going about our everyday lives...that's all massive. Throw in major building works, the concern about MrC - him now being worried about his Dad...all those things would have been stressful without the pandemic in the background, but WITH it, to be honest I think it would be surprising if you weren't anxious. Give yourself permission to fret a bit, and when it happens, remind yourself that it's all normal, things are now settling down, and life is getting calmer again.  On the face of it I had the pandemic easy - or so I kept telling myself - but in fact 16 months of furlough, MrEH's working week being cut for several months, having so much stuff just cancelled even after the point when we thought that would stop, and even the stuff that DID go ahead being stressful beyond belief in the run-up - it all took its toll! Once I actually started acknowledging that, I actually found it was far easier to stop beating myself up about the anxiety I was struggling with. 

Cheery_Daff

Thank you all xxxxx you're all right of course. Chigle, you're not projecting, I do identify 🙄 Start of term always takes me by surprise even if I think I'm prepared - you can never prepare for everything, and then I've had a massive load of extra work coincide with that in the run up to starting the new big research project, so it's not surprising things are falling off my plate a little. 

Going to try to have a bit of a catch up day today, tick off a few niggling things, be brave and do a couple of things I've been putting off, then reward myself with a trip to the gym tonight (and later a trip to the supermarket to spend the next round of vouchers and top up the stores).

EH, you're right about the general effect of the pandemic, I've been largely ignoring that - I didn't lose my job, wasn't furlough etc, but for me everything got a lot busier, while for Mr C everything stopped, and him being illontop of that, and not being able to pop to a cafe or a friend's house for months took a massive toll on both of us. I probably would have been ok but followed by builders etc it does just feel like it's rolling into one.

Need to focus generally on eating, rest and exercise.

Mr C is ensconced on his zoom call, thank goodness, so I'm going to get on with ticking some things off the list.

Cheery_Daff

Oh, and the stupid granite 🙄

I gave them 3 days, and said they needed to confirm a time because I couldn't wait in all day. First one I was free after 10, second after 11, third all day.

They replied saying they'd come on the third one, and that since there was no time restriction, they'd just ring me when they were an hour away 🙄

I replied and said NO - need them to pick a time, it's just at this point it can be any time, as long as they pick one. I just needed to be able to book other stuff on that day and not keep the whole day free. Suggested 9am.

Not heard back, and that was several days ago. 🙄 

!!!!!!. Going to email again and say need them to confirm 9am by the end of tomorrow as I've got other stuff to book in, can't keep the whole day free. If they're not able to confirm an actual time then we'll do it ourselves. 

I may be cutting my nose off to spite my face as I probably could keep the whole day, free, but I've already done that twice now and heard late on that they couldn't come, so I'm not prepared to do it again!

EssexHebridean

They've reached the end of the road with the way they've messed you about - if they're too stupid to realise that, then that's their fault! 

Cheery_Daff

Indeed. I've emailed kitchen geezer - we agreed he'd sort out communication with them as part of the reason I was sick of it was having to keep contacting and chasing different people! Let's see what happens...

Chiglepig

I often give people time frames like that, CD, I HATE it when they take a week to reply then assume I've kept the whole day for their 15 minutes