This time I really don't think I can go on ...........

In_Search_Of_Me

What has happened DB? If you're feeling suicidal then suggest that you ring samaritans here
http://www.samaritans.org/
or go & see your GP. Nothing, not money, man or nowt is worth harming yourself for. If you can tell us what has happened and we'll see if we can help...

chilli_dog

When my son was two me and my wife were convinced he was the spawn of satan, you could not take your eyes of him for 30 secs, the good news is it does get better the older they get.

Im not surprised you miss the stage, i couldnt do it way to scared. Do you get any free time to yourself? Arent there any amatuer dramatics clubs around were you are?

In_Search_Of_Me

sorry posts crossed. Does your son go to nursry? If so have a chat with them & get some advice on behaviour managemet. Do you manage to get out with him at all? Sounds as if youre uite isolated & sometimes having a chat with other mums can make all the difference to knowig that what you eel is normal! 2 year olds are testing the boundaries big time & that can wear the patience of a saint. V. sad about the place you used to work but that cant erase the memories you have can it. They are still there regardless...it does sound as if you are generally feeling overwhelmed & I would recc that you see your GO to talk things over...hugs for you!

ecoelle

Just wanted to say that you've obviuosly lost something very important to you today and you're bound to be upset. Let your feelings out, have a good cry and try to console yourself with the fact that although 2 year olds are naughty as hell you love them, and they love you.

Dumb_Blonde_3

keren29 wrote: »

Hi DB (I never like to call you Dumb as I know you're not)

.......is it your car? I know it was causing you problems a few days back.

Oh bless you Karen - yes just a few days ago it was the car but now thats swept aside I know even more things.

By the way I like your hair i saw that on another message - it looks great!!!

As for Dumb blonde well I just send myself up ............

mrsspendalot

:grouphug: dodgy hug

Ok, re your son being naughty - I completely sympathise. I have 3 children, but my middle child (DS1) has been a nightmare since he was about 18mths old. I love him to bits because he is my son, but some days I dislike him a lot. He is a nightmare to live with and look after. His tantrums are like nothing I have ever witnessed and his mood swings are ridiculous. It is like living with jekyll and hyde. His behaviour makes me feel really depressed. With other stresses going on, kids behaviour can feel worse than it is sometimes. Is it really over the top naughty or just normal 2 year old tantrums? Chatting with some other mums can help you realise sometimes that it is all normal and every other mum is going through the same thing with their children. It makes it no easier to deal with, but I'm sure you are not alone!

Burlesque_Babe

oh, blimey - my hair is stretching far and wide!! (thankyou!! although the OH isn't out of the woods for not noticing!!!)

I know what you mean about being on stage. I did my Degree in Drama and loved acting. I haven't done any for years and feel now I don't have the confidence any more. I used to belong to a small theatre company and would give anything to go back there.

If there is an am dram group or musical society locally, you might be able to build some new memories?

squirrel_pigeon

Hi DB. There are loads of Mums on here and we have all been where you are. My daughter was horrible when she was 2, to the extent that I just wanted to leave her sometimes (not something I'm proud of btw). She's almost 5 now and when people say it gets better, they're not lying. She still has her moments (she's far too much like me!) but now I wouldn't be without her.

Kids are easier to deal with when you're happy. You have the debt thing to deal with and now you've lost an important part of your life. They're about to bulldoze my primary school where I had some of my happiest memories so I can sort of sympathise.

If you miss the stage, is there a local group you can get involved with? Call your local theatre - they'll be able to direct you. If there's a part of you that craves that, it would be in your best interests to indulge it. It would make life much happier for you and your son...

chevalier

My DS1 was really a very sweet little two year old. Lulled me into a false sense of security with DS2. Yes he was and sometime still is a right little blighter to be polite. He was so naughty it was horrible. He was so different from DS1. It was mainly because he couldn't get his thoughts out and that made him cross and want to lash out. So maybe lots of painting/drawing might be a way forward?

I am sorry to hear about the other carp in your life. You sound quite low, so maybe a visit to the GP might be in order. I really believe now that the depression I have now was actually undiagnosed post natal depression, and the sooner it was treated the better I would have been.

chev

Sea78

Hey DB - sorry to hear about the loss - it can be emotional when things like this happen and I completely understand about DS's behaviour getting to you. My two have been ill and ARGHHHH.

I don't think Mozette quite meant for their post to be taken as sharply as it sounded.

Sea xx