Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 5 - Trying to recover from the pandemic

Tescodealqueen

Happy New Year CCL. X

juliejim

Happy New Year CCL x

Baileys_Babe

Happy New Year @crazy_cat_lady

crazy_cat_lady

Happy New Year all of my beautiful online friends. I hope you had a good evening last night, whatever you got up to. I had a magnum of prosecco that I cracked open. DD had one glass and hated it, ds wouldn't even try it and I had 2 glasses. It's still more than half full. I saw midnight but only just and then fell asleep - but Jeez, I woke up just after 2am feeling close to death. Had a couple of pints of water and some paracetamol and went back over. Got up just before 8am feeling not much better and much more like I'd drunk a few bottles of red wine rather than 2 glasses of prosecco. Came downstairs and sorted the cats out then fell asleep on the sofa until just after 10am. I still feel rotten even now - so my best laid plans of getting my work finished today have gone right out of the window. However, I have managed to do some stuff. 
I visited my mam and she had made dinner - exactly the same as I had planned (gammon and roast potatoes). So we have the gammon and roasties I had prepped ready to go for tomorrow's dinner. Good job we all like gammon and roasties. Stayed a couple of hours and then came home to make a start on something. Rather than try and brain engage when I'm this tired I decided to do some more house jobs, so I won't have them to do over the next couple of days. Plan is to have an early night tonight and do another full work day tomorrow when I'm properly rested. Meantime I've put away the Christmas stuff, along with my bargain Christmas cards for next year, changed the beds and started washing the bedding, hoovered through and dusted in the sitting room. My head is hurting again now - I feel really cheated that I drank so little but am suffering quite as much as I am today. 
On the plus side, I have finalised the January budget and spent nothing today. And it's only Saturday in spite of my brain insisting that today is Sunday. Still a few days to go. I really hope I sleep well tonight in my nice clean bedding with my new pillows.

Tescodealqueen

That sucks feeling rough without the pleasure of a good night out. Hope the early night does the trick

sudonum-mum

I've just caught up with your diary from May 2021 until today, this is what happens when you have time on your hands as you are waiting for PCR results (should have been out for DD's birthday today but she is also awaiting results).

I honestly think we need to give more credit (great pun!) to our wider issues being caused by our childhoods and our abusive marriages.

I'm so sorry you are still struggling with debt and your weight - they are so clearly linked, if I was a psychologist I'd know why.

With regard to your weight you might benefit from looking at the Facebook page rebelfit, he is a PT and runs his own 'weight loss' group and gets amazing feedback, he is against WW and SW and truly believes that weight loss starts with your mental health.
He talks a lot about dieters who have been dieters for years not being able to lose weight, when you have done this to your body for years your set point weight changes so it's not just about calories in/calories out but what you have done to your body over the years and where it feels comfortable. There is a lot of free information on his Facebook page that makes for interesting reading and if you want you can then join his challenges (which are not all about weight loss). I find his posts really inspiring and interesting.

Other than the above I don't want to comment on weight too much but will say (which I think someone else said) was about calling food good and bad or your actions around food good and bad. It's not a healthy way to look at it but understand its difficult to change your mindset, I try to eat mindfully - if I want something I eat it and I find this way I don't overeat so much.
I like a bag (or 2) of crisps every day so I make sure I buy crisps which are under 100 calories (I have also just found some crisps which are 69 calories per bag) and not 'diet' ones - some crisps are over 150-200 calories per bag so by having ones which are under 100 calories I don't feel bad if I want 2 in a day. I also like  chocolate during the day and also when I get into bed - I could easily polish off a snickers bar but at 250 calories I know that is not healthy so I make sure I buy chocolate under 100 calories (freddos, fudges, curly wurlys etc) so if I want 2 I can have 2 - I haven't tried to eat 3 yet but if I wanted to I would!! 

I hope you are able to access some talking therapy soon to address everything because you are an amazing woman and I hate seeing you so negative and anxious.

Tiredbutdetermined

Happy new year.
I have masses of things to do but am having a chilled day with my budget planner and binge watching Stay Close with my son.
I drank and ate more than I should have last night so am planning to do much the same tonight. Cheese, crackers and Prosecco here I come!

crazy_cat_lady

Evening all  
This is becoming a bit of a habit! And I'm pleased to report that I woke up this morning, after a fairly decent night of sleep, feeling pretty much raring to go. sudonum-mum - sorry that you had to read through all the negativity on here. I hate when I get stuck in my own head, and the pandemic has definitely contributed to a significant decline in my mental health unfortunately. I'm so annoyed with myself for just pretty much ignoring my declining financial situation and mental health for the past year or so. However, I have taken the matter in hand and admitted that I need help and so fingers crossed I'm climbing back out of my pit of despair. One step at a time eh? 
Anyway. On days like today I like to make the most of feeling ok and then I get stuff done. I'm very pleased to report that I've completed my second contract for the exam stuff so I can relax in the short term - and I still have 2 more days until I go back to school. So that will be more relaxing, tv and crochet without the pressure of work and deadlines hanging over me.
I had an appointment at the tip at lunchtime so spent half an hour packing the car with ds old desk and various other bits that I needed to get rid of. I find going to the tip so cathartic - I absolutely love it, and so does dd. We got rid of another car full of rubbish so that makes me feel better as well.
The tip is just round the corner from H0me B@rg@ins - and although I really wanted a nsd I was completely out of food for NT1. Yes, the most expensive cat in the world is still hanging in there but she's getting quite frail, and she has her digestive condition. So there's very limited food that she can eat - the others will eat whatever I put in front of them but she has to have one of two particular brands and boxes/tins. I put an order in with z00plus on the 21st December but I'm still waiting for it. They did tell me it was delayed but still no sign and now no NT1 food either. Thankfully HB had the food so I bulk bought it, and figured that while I was there I would stock up on face masks, headache tablets and my B12 supplement (because I really like the chewy raspberry tablets). So all necessary spends rather than being frivolous, but I've written it all down and it's stuff I would have needed to buy at some point soon anyway.
Got home, washed dishes and made roast potatoes to go with the slow cooked gammon. I had to make more coleslaw as dd has decided she loves it and eaten most of what I made on Friday night. Strangely not hungry now though, but it's there ready for when I am hungry. Have also hoovered and washed a load of bedding.
Now the plan for the rest of the evening is to relax, catch up on the final of WSM and crochet a bit.
I hope I feel this good tomorrow.

apple_muncher

The WSM final is a corker!

Drawingaline

Hi CCL

Just read this diary through and really enjoyed it (ok, not the health/weight/financial issues, but the way you write!)

I totally get your hatred for cooking. I love baking and would make cakes all the time if I could get away with eating them all and not expanding, but cooking, I loath cooking. So many people just don't get it. Many people dislike cooking, but I hate it. I do it because I absolutely have to, but I cut as many corners as we can afford to, and our food bill is way more than it needs to be if I could cook like some people on here. (Honeysucklelou is amazing!) I also dislike gardening, I feel I already know you 😂

Anyway will be following your journey and cheering you on.