Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 4 - The Aftermath

foxgloves

You're right, CCL. We do all have to make it work because there is no alternative. 
F x

crazy_cat_lady

Checking in again.
Awful sleep - wide awake for the day at half five. Did 2 hours of crochet, went out for a 2.5 mile walk in the beautiful weather with dd - included a massive hill today so I'm now aching.
3 hours of school work and now I feel as though I might be ready for a bit of a nap. 
I'm not cooking today because there are enough leftovers from yesterday's gammon and roast potatoes. Good job because I'm not feeling great - I have had a fuzzy head all morning and my mood is a bit low. 

Chrystal

Hope the nap eases your head CCL.  I think the key to getting through this will be making specific times to relax and recuperate.  Stay safe X

foxgloves

Hope your muzzy head soon clears up, CCL. Did you have a big glass of water when you got back from your hilly walk? It can be surprising how much your body can do with a bit of decent hydration after a long walk. Was just thinking that could be contributing to the muzziness.
I was awake at 5.30 too, but this is such a vast improvement from all those years I only slept till 3.15 am, that I consider 5.30 to be a decent night's sleep. I usually get up at 6-ish as once I'm awake, I've found ever since my teens that lying in bed trying to get back to sleep.....whether I manage it or not, always seems to give me a banging headache, so even if I get back in bed for my coffee, I'll be sitting up reading until I get up properly.
We're using up leftovers tonight too. 
F x

jwil

Hope you are feeling better today xx

f0xh0les

Hope your teaching day was not too horrible. 

crazy_cat_lady

Morning  
Well - work was weird. There are only 2 kids in, from 2 different year groups who clearly want absolutely nothing to do with each other. They did PE with Joe and then some science with me then some maths with the other teacher that was in. I got fed at school (left the kids at home as they were more comfortable with what I would be doing at work and knowing when I would be home) and headed home via Mr S. It was weird. Everything is just really weird. I had to get into a queue to get in, then it was so quiet in the shop. Managed to get most stuff that I wanted, but not everything then got into an altercation with a woman on the way out of the shop. Apparently we had to queue to get back out again but she was the only one in the queue when I got there and I didn't see her. I only made it worse when I apologised to her - she was screaming at me like a huffy year 8. Nobody is feeling great at the moment, and this situation really does bring out the very best and the very worst in people.
I keep feeling like I'm in some awful 80s movie and hoping that Dr Who is going to turn up and save the day for us... 
Got home Friday and went out for my daily walk - I'm getting into a bit of a routine with that now. I never want to go but always feel much better once I've been out. It's easier when the weather is good.
Woke up yesterday early again then fell asleep on the sofa after half an hour. Well I felt utterly dreadful after that - my neck was stiff and my head was fuzzy, and on top of that the weather had rediscovered winter as well. Put a load of washing in and sat and did some crochet for a bit. Then psyched myself up for a bracing daily walk - one short loop with ds then another short loop in the hail with dd. She talked about Macbeth the whole way round - she's very much into English literature and doesn't want to fall behind with it so she's reading lots, watching lots of films and clips and generally being very proactive with her work. Same cannot be said for ds unfortunately. Anyway, I've gone from zero to knowing a bit about Macbeth over the past week - I thought it sounded very interesting but got completely lost in the first 10 minutes of the film.  
I'm not sure how I feel today - mood has definitely dipped. I woke up early again, and have been back to sleep again but my neck is ok. It's been snowing and hailstoning outside but I'm determined that I'm going to get out for my walk as usual later. My mood is still poor but I'm still lacking in motivation to get much else done. Weather doesn't help (pathetic fallacy as dd has taught me) but I think things will have to be really bad before I get round to washing the bathroom walls in preparation for decorating. I need to get the kids to do a couple of jobs for me this morning as they're getting a bit lazy about the house as well - I still feel like I'm doing lots and they're not. 
Stay safe everyone...

foxgloves

What a weird day at work, CCL. Difficult to get any team spirit going with only 2 kids present & who aren't interested in mixing. Glad you're finding daily walks helpful. I haven't been out for a walk today or yesterday but I think I must make the effort to go tomorrow as I do need the exercise. 
I think it's understandable that your mood is dipping. If there is anyone around who's mood isn't dipping, I don't think they can have noticed that we are in the midst of an extremely stressful global pandemic - certainly the weirdest times I've ever known & that's difficult for those of us who like to feel in control, isn't it? All I can say is that we are all in it, CCL. We are all in pretty much the same boat & although it will pass, it isn't going to be an easy ride. We just have to find a way to keep going, I'm trying hard for my way not to be baked goods.......
"Is this a biscuit I see before me? Come, let me clutch thee. I have thee not & yet I see thee still........"
Am doing pretty well on the healthy eating (not being able to go to coffee shops helps) but think I'm starting to hallucinate biscuits!
Take care m'duck,
F x

crazy_cat_lady

Morning  
Considering that we're on lockdown I was very busy yesterday. It's quite hard trying to balance everything I need to do sometimes. I'd managed to get a click and collect order from Mr A early yesterday morning and got both mine and my mam's shopping in amongst it. I drove to hers and dropped it off on her doorstep and had a very quick chat - she was quite tearful, which upset me a bit too. Can't wait to give her a big cuddle when all of this is over.
Got home and helped ds with some of his work - he has to find out about Van Gogh. Then went through Macbeth Acts 3 and 4 with dd. Then me and dd went out for our daily walk, which turned out to be almost 4 miles. I felt better but quite tired when I got home. Had an online meeting with my department from work, which was quite funny - then did a few hours of my own work before I fell asleep on the sofa for an hour. 
Didn't think I'd be able to sleep last night, but I did - however I've woken up with a fuzzy head this morning. It's payday so I should be budgeting, but I'm not sure I can be bothered with it today - maybe tomorrow. Just about to head out to town - we've ordered takeaway afternoon tea for lunch today (much to the kids disgust but it's my birthday so I get to choose) - that will do for today's walk. Then I need to be online this afternoon doing some more school work.
Stay safe everyone

PurpleFairy26

Happy birthday cat 🥂