O/S Daily Sunday 25th November 2018

TravellingAbuela

Afternoon folks. Is there room for a little 'un returning to the fold?! I was in a dark place after the funeral and didn't want to post day after day telling you how miserable I have been feeling. It is taking time to adjust after being a couple for 46 years then being reduced to just me.

I think I am now starting to feel ready at working towards a "new normal" but it's hard. More so with Christmas looming ahead. I haven't bought a single present and I think it will be money or gift cards this year as I can't face heaving shops.

People say it's the first of every occasion that is the most difficult to cope with and I am dreading Christmas. It would have been Bob's 70th birthday earlier this month and that was a hard day for me. We had said we couldn't just let the day pass as just another day so we went to the lovely Italian restaurant in town that we had always said we would go back to for his birthday before his sudden decline. There was me, DD and BF, the 3 DGDs and DS and his DP. Surprisingly, after a very tearful day, we had a lovely evening and the food was delicious as always.

My oldest friend has been so supportive. Texting me morning and night since the day we went in the hospice and still checking up on me night and morning making sure I am ok all these weeks later. I couldn't wish for a better friend.

It's a miserable day here with on and off drizzle and I haven't moved very far from the fire all day. Oh I do hate winter.

Enjoy the rest of the day folks if you can and ((HUGS)) in abundance for all the poorlies, sad, worried or lonely who need them. Take care xx

candygirl

TravellingAbuela wrote: »

Afternoon folks. Is there room for a little 'un returning to the fold?! I was in a dark place after the funeral and didn't want to post day after day telling you how miserable I have been feeling. It is taking time to adjust after being a couple for 46 years then being reduced to just me.

I think I am now starting to feel ready at working towards a "new normal" but it's hard. More so with Christmas looming ahead. I haven't bought a single present and I think it will be money or gift cards this year as I can't face heaving shops.

People say it's the first of every occasion that is the most difficult to cope with and I am dreading Christmas. It would have been Bob's 70th birthday earlier this month and that was a hard day for me. We had said we couldn't just let the day pass as just another day so we went to the lovely Italian restaurant in town that we had always said we would go back to for his birthday before his sudden decline. There was me, DD and BF, the 3 DGDs and DS and his DP. Surprisingly, after a very tearful day, we had a lovely evening and the food was delicious as always.

My oldest friend has been so supportive. Texting me morning and night since the day we went in the hospice and still checking up on me night and morning making sure I am ok all these weeks later. I couldn't wish for a better friend.

It's a miserable day here with on and off drizzle and I haven't moved very far from the fire all day. Oh I do hate winter.

Enjoy the rest of the day folks if you can and ((HUGS)) in abundance for all the poorlies, sad, worried or lonely who need them. Take care xx

Aww hun you're bound to feel really wobbly for a while yet.When Dad died in Oct 2008, Xmas was a blur.We all Sat there not really functioning, but tried to put on brave faces for the kids
Just do what you can cope with.The shops, with fake Xmas cheer, won't help, so avoid them, n just do what you can to get through.
Nobody will expect you to be on top form this year :A
PS don't be a stranger, post no matter how you're feeling. We're all here for you xx