Mooloo’s Managing it in 2018

ivyleaf

Glad to hear you're safely home! Reminds me of last time we drove to Greater Manchester - it usually takes about four hours from here, but it took seven.....all because of roadworks!

Savvy_sewing

So tired.
All plans for now totally on hold. Staff wages etc done.
I hope that they have a lot of cash in the tin to bank tomorrow as the bank balance is looking very dismal. My personal account is rather depleted too.
I was expecting my Guardianship money in, but it wasn't. Maybe I have finally lucked out and they have decided not to grant me anything this year.
I will find out eventually I suppose. Probably a letter in the post.
My passport has arrived. Not that I know when I will be able to use it again.
I am trying not to panic but I do feel a little worried how I am going to turn things back around again.
Life will go on if course and somehow I will cope. I just don't know how at the moment.
Cup of tea and then possibly an early night as I am feeling wiped out. I still have a mild sore throat and had it since Wednesday.
I need to be at work tomorrow and also need to be up early as I have to drive Dgd to Biggests before work so an extra 24 Miles so a good 30 minutes extra travel before the work starts.
For now the washing machine is on!

beanielou

Try to not overdo it.

Savvy_sewing

I went to bed just after 8 0clock.
I was up once for the loo. But I had some very disorienting dreams, where I had lost my memory and didn't know anyone or where I lived etc. Took several moments to realise it was only a dream when I woke up. My house feels very claustrophobic after being in an empty caravan for the last week. I think I am ready to declutter again!

On the plus side I have my first cuppa from my teasmade and can get out of bed at a more leisurely pace, and no small people bounding up the corridor to wake me up. Dgd is still asleep. I will wake her in about 20 minutes when my joints have started to ease.
I can breathe a small sigh of relief that the Guardian money is in the bank, a day late. But I am expecting that they will be reviewing it any time soon as it's usually done in March.
I am in Overdraft with one of my personal accounts and near the limit on the business. I have a few invoices out standing so the first job when I get to work is to see what money I can bank.
Today is the only day I will have staff this week. The Seamstress will be back to her Monday and Tuesday, and Biggest is on school Holidays. So I will have a smaller wage bill at least.
I did do the wages, P60's etc last evening but not the accounts. They are on tonight's agenda.
I haven't touched my Portuguese all week either, as my Kindle needed WiFi.
So time to start my routines off over again.

Savvy_Sue

Hi Mooloo, just to say there were a couple of interesting bits on Woman's Hour this morning, on Kinship Carers and teenagers.

Savvy_sewing

Savvy_Sue wrote: »

Hi Mooloo, just to say there were a couple of interesting bits on Woman's Hour this morning, on Kinship Carers and teenagers.

Thanks Sue, I will have a listen later.
Just home and it's been a long day. First day back at work is always a tough one.
Followed by a drive to collect Dgd. I was Supposed to babysit but my daughters friend arrived earlier than planned so I was able to come home. I should really have gone shopping for milk but I forgot, so I will only get one cup of tea tonight and one in the morning. Unless I drink black tea.
I wanted to do a lot of jobs when I got home, but truthfully I am just too tired. I still have a sore throat and aches so I am going to rest and hope that tomorrow is a better day.

beanielou

Have a rest.
As you say tomorrow is a better day.

Savvy_sewing

Three years ago today since Dad died. Today is my day for seeing Mum.
Dgd will have to come with me while we food Shop and go somewhere for Lunch.
I have just been talking to DS's ExGF about visiting the boys later, and she waffled on about her and DS trying again. Etc not the same story he is telling me. She said she had got him to see a counsellor so if that's true that will help him I hope.
I have been writing my diary, trying to look for positive things and starting to reassess my mind as I need to find the positive things and turn it around again.
I honestly felt like locking the shop up yesterday and not going back.
I still have 18 months lease and bills and things to deal with so it's not an option. I need to find my way again today! Somehow I need that magic wand to help me make the mind shift, shift my energy up a gear, and double down to do what ever is necessary to move forward.
Easier said than done of course.

beanielou

Hope that you can find your way again.

Savvy_sewing

Confused Bunny here.
We had a busy but good time with my Mum, although I think she was hiding her emotions well she had two large glasses of wine at lunch. She also kept trying to give me money all the time.
After I went to Mums, and did our Aldi Shop Dgd and I went to see Dgs3 and dgs6.
Erm I think that I will be making myself more present and given time restraints I will be going back on Sunday to help clean up.
I am not happy with the state of the garden with black sacks months old and several deep outside the house, and the kitchen was rather a mess. I am going to have to help or I will loose my grandchildren again.
Or should I say as well?
I am ashamed of the way that woman lives and that my son has decided to go back there and it is still not acceptable.
After a brief visit for the first time in about 16 months I am shocked.
Unfortunately I am at work on my own for the next three days so Sunday will be the first time I can get back.
BF offered to not come until tomorrow night now, and I am glad because my head is in "here we go again mode"
At the same time I got an email from a Portuguese estate agent with a link to a 4 bed house in the Guarda area of Portugal near the Spanish Boarder.
The Dream is !!!8364;40,000
I definitely need to get the finances sorted out! So if eventually I have the savings I can actually go look at my dreams in the real world!
I know, I don't have the proverbial pot at the moment.
But seriously a 4 bed house with out buildings in a village with spectacular views, close to Spain and the river etc is exactly what I have been wanting and I ended up using all my money on the family instead.
Maybe that's my motivation afterall?