Buffy Keeps on the Straight and Narrow

in_need_of_direction

Can you compromise? Tell her that you’re struggling, that you’ll do a once a month shop from her preferred shop and she can get the basics from those who do deliver.

Buffythedebtslayer

in_need_of_direction wrote: »

Can you compromise? Tell her that you’re struggling, that you’ll do a once a month shop from her preferred shop and she can get the basics from those who do deliver.

I can't say that, she really is in hell. I feel terrible even writing this stuff. I am so much freer than she is. Always have been. Just didn't realise it. I have said tho, if I could go early on a Saturday (the branch runs out of a lot ) then it would be better. We will see how that goes. As that would mean I would still have time to do my stuff. It is very hard to balance out my stuff and my family's always been my problem. Like really forever.

Rough day today. The upset of Friday which drove me to join Match (!) has left me oddly exhausted and upset in the tummy department. Struggling with being positive. Hate this time of year. Dark. miserable. cold and wet. I did loads in the garden today. Cleared rubbish, cleaned out the rabbits, planted some plants, rearranged the garden furniture a bit. That was good. Sadly these days Mum doesn't notice these things. Although it was dark out when I came in so fair play!

Going to be a difficult week at work too. Can't believe it is 9 already. Got hoovering to do and washing to put away. Busy Busy.

XXX

in_need_of_direction

At least the clothes are clean

Buffythedebtslayer

Rough week so far
Really bad actually.

Don't honestly think I can drag myself up out of this low just yet.

Work is awful. Made a plan to meet up with my old boss after Christmas and will pick his brains.

XX

Sun_Addict

Sorry to hear things aren't good at the moment Buffy. Wish I could say something that would help

beanielou

Keep plodding my friend xxx

Sun_Addict

Can you make a list of things you can do something about and those you can't. Then make a plan to change the things you can change. Unfortunately there are always things we can't change which we have to live with.

Buffythedebtslayer

beanielou wrote: »

Keep plodding my friend xxx

Sun_Addict wrote: »

Can you make a list of things you can do something about and those you can't. Then make a plan to change the things you can change. Unfortunately there are always things we can't change which we have to live with.

thank you both.

I went out Thursday and Friday which is was good for me mentally. House wise the weekend was my time. However I visited my friend on Saturday, she has recently lost her Dad and has been amazing in handling everything.

And today I worked in the garden. I am shattered and haven't done any school work. Am in Pjs now. So work is not happening.

Generally tho I feel better. At least I did some of "my" stuff.

Paid my (enormous) CC bill for the month. Sorted out the spends and bills. Am deeply skint but have just bought a car so that is reasonable.

have a good week XXX

beanielou

You have a good week too xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Life is awful

Grindingly awful, not shocking crisis awful. BIL is ill again. I have been flat out at work which is so bad it is almost funny.

I am sitting here a pile of anxiety and pain and tiredness. I am seeing my two best friends tomorrow night. That should help.

My life hasn't been what it should or rather what I expected. I know it isn't over blah blah blah but now I think I am worn down and full of pity. And so deeply disappointed. Hurt.

As yet can't see a way forward.

Any how, I moved the bank loan (8.9%) to a CC (4.9 %) for two years, no fee,

Essentially the plan is to pay it off as quickly as possible, by August or October 2019 at 600 a month.It limits savings a bit.

The other thing is to empty the house and do Kon Mari. I don't really know why I am doing these things. Just need to do something.

I need to finish wrapping. I just don't feel good at all.

XX