Finally calming down after years of depression

dekaspace

Ok, so Im 34, 12 years ago a family member was murdered though always had anxiety issues (5 years ago finally after years was diagnosed with mild autism) and before the death I was very child like happy to the point of being hyper a lot but also nervous and anxious (I remember doing things like clapping hands a lot or jumping/star jumping on spot tin bedroom even aged 22 shortly before death)

Over following 2-5 years especially I got so much worse, at first keeping same routine, working for about 14 months but lost my love for life, then starting college and doing ok but it affected the quality of work and I dropped out 3 months before end after getting a chest infection.

Then anxiety shot up as I was 25, at uni around 18-21 year olds so wanted a break.

In the years since I got worse as felt like my life was going nowhere, I gained about 2 stone a year in weight to its current peak of about 20 stone but the past 12 months I have calmed down hugely but still suffer anxiety and stress but its more that its a little routine based, and even more that I am used to not working, being single, bad sleep pattern so any changes are a shock to the system, and I still lack that spark for life.

I am not asking for medical advice, just sharing my feelings though also wouldn't mind feedback on things like recovery times and hear about other peoples experiences.

supermezzo

Didn't want to read and run. Look after yourself.

edwink

supermezzo wrote: »

Didn't want to read and run. Look after yourself.

I totally agree do look after yourself.

It is late now but I am sure others will pop on to your thread to offer you some support and/or advice.

Take care

Edwink

whitewing

What an awful thing to happen in your life. How sad for all the loved ones. No wonder you found it difficult.

Did you have any specialist support after the murder? Counselling or a charity helpline?

I have found antidepressants help with anxiety. Coupled now with exercise, I am regaining a figure.

Good luck with a happier future.

Lily-Rose_3

Glad you are feeling better Dekaspace.

Depression and anxiety is a lot more common in young people that some think.

Be happy.

heartbreak_star

Glad to hear your feelings are settling a bit. Be kind to yourself, always

HBS x

Archergirl

How terrible for you, you must be so brave to try to face up to things now,
do talk to your doctor I am sure they can help, as said above exercise is a wonderful thing, it releases endorphines so can help with your mood.

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dekaspace wrote: »

I am not asking for medical advice, just sharing my feelings though also wouldn't mind feedback on things like recovery times and hear about other peoples experiences.

Taking responsibility helps massively. There comes a point when you can't wallow anymore and be down. I've been numerous times it feels like a switch and suddenly something trips, suppose it depends if you are a glass full or empty kind of person. The amount of times someone has berated me on here oh you must keep down a job your unhappy in or die at the stake!! - has never come true thankfully. Quite the opposite when I've been thanked by employers for realising actually I'm not happy, and wanting not to drag others down with me.

I'm lucky I wouldn't dream of saying I'm depressed around someone with life changing injuries or conditions. Just no. So I suppose in some respects it is very easy.

The way this forum is going the only posters it is reasonably in any respect pleasant to is those depressed or feel they are due compo and that is a rather sad carry on. I'm sure more of your family were effected besides you so why don't you talk to them.

dark^knight

Hi,

Is there a local parkrun where you live:
https://www.parkrun.org.uk/

It's great for getting fitter and is a social activity, all the people are friendly.

SailorSam

Lily-Rose wrote: »

Depression and anxiety is a lot more common in young people that some think.

I don't think it's just in young people. I'm 63 now and was never an anxious person but after i was attacked & stabbed one night while working on the Cab i became so. It's over 20yrs ago now, 28/9/95. You don't forget the date, and i can still see him. And even now i'm sometimes nervous walking down the road or talking to people.
Perhaps that's why i'm hooked on the Internet.

dekaspace

Well im still fragile as the cracks from years of problems are showing, but I am mending slowly, but individual bad days or weeks can set me back but overall better, its part changing routines as used to not working, being thrifty and things like if I do treat myself I panic over it, or like an addiction I don't spend a penny for days then splash out, I need to tell myself its ok.